i read their blogs. i don't know what to do anymore. is it me or is it them?
when you realise that maybe they have given up on you. or when you realise that maybe it's just you who can't open up your thoughts and feelings to them..
guess what?
i think i've lost myself
i don't know what to do anymore
the tears well up
jolenekoh(:
whatever you hear from someone may not be true. but if you have seen it for yourself, how untrue can it get? i thought you will be different from what i see now, i never knew you will be like this.
what, a good example?
what, so all this is nothing but a game to see who wins and who loses?
so this is how you treat matters?
i'm utterly shocked at your behavior.
jolenekoh(:
food for thought
when you realise that a string of thoughts cannot be easily transformed into a string of words.
i have long realised the fact that sms/msn is not the best way to communicate and resolve situations. but time and again, i didn't dare t face up t certain people. sometimes, it works between me and others, using msn t resolve matters. and just recently, i realised that even though you may think that that certain someone is a good person, a person who will understand, but i forgot the fact that msn is tonelessssss. matters will just remain hanging in the air, unresolved.
ahhhhhh, oh well.
as we grow up, we learn. as the days and years pass, we mature. but not everyone's progress is the same. we just have t give and take, forgive and forget.
as we grow up, we get a clearer view and picture of this world, and what we really wanna achieve while we're still alive. but that's not enough. thinking and having a vision is not enough. as the saying goes, actions speak louder than words. how can we expect visions t come true without hardwork put in?
however, sadly, people start t waver in their dreams, passion and visions when they meet obstacles, set backs, etc. well, we can't blame them or anyone, for all they need is just a little encouragement and support, same goes for us.
so why stop encouraging them?
so why do you not care?
i wonder..
jolenekoh(:
days are passing by.
we have yet to know,
how much grievence we will experience when the day comes.
10th nov, don't ever come.
he has been the best conductor we've ever wished for.
sadly,
the time for us to part will come soon.
jolenekoh(:
很多时候, 我很想回到以前, 很想逆转时间.
很想回到三年前, 三年前的我和你.
但, 我知道这永远是不可能的.
有一些话, 我很想说.
有一些人, 我很想再见一次.
但, 在我不愿之下,
我一切都做不到.
如果我过的生活和现在的不一样,
如果后果是我想要的那种,
如果, 如果, 如果...
我好希望...
我只不过想一切...
我只不过想要...
有那么困难吗?
sigh
jolenekoh(:
十句值得深思的话
第一句：没有一百分的另一半，只有五十分的两个人。
第二句：付出真心才会得到真心，却也可能伤到彻底，保持距离就能保护自己，却也注定永远寂寞。
第三句：通常原意留下来跟你争吵的人才是真正爱惜你的人。
第四句：有时候不是对方不在乎你，而是你把对方看得太重。
第五句：冷漠，有时候并不是无情，只是一种避免被伤害的工具。
第六句：如果我们之前有1000步的距离，你只要跨出第一步，我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步。
第七句：为你的难过而快乐的是敌人，为你的快乐而快乐的是朋友，为你的难过而难过的是那些该放进心里的人。
第八句：就算是beLIEve中间也藏了一个LIE。
第九句：真正的好朋友并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题，而是在一起，就算不说话也不会感到很尴尬而快乐的感觉。
第十句：朋友，就是被你看透了还能被你喜欢和被你接受的人才算是“好朋友”。
jolenekoh(:
why must i always be the one listening to other people's woes?
why must i always be the one bearing the rubbish words?
why must i always be the one thinking for others first?
why must i always be the one suffering just cos i followed the decision made from the heart and not the mind?
thanks for the rubbish i'm going through, selfish people.
jolenekoh(:
random reads, random thoughts
i was reading through some stranger's blog until i reached the date 1st October, Happy Children's Day. and i realised, how much i wanted t be a kid again. rmb the times as kids, when we so wanna grow up quickly. and now, as young adults, some of us so wanna go back to our childhood days. how ironic.
humans. ironic creatures.
during the school term, many or ALL of us wished it were the holidays. but during the holidays, some of us hoped for school t start asap.
as for me, i'm ironic too.
when i was working part time during the school hols, i never wished for school t reopen asap. i always loved the idea of no exams, no lecture notes, just work and money HAHA (financially tight t enjoy things you see.)
now, when i'm having my internship, i wished that i'm back in school studying again!
yeah how ironic.
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i guess i'm not really someone who can put down the past easily.
jolenekoh(:
ohmygosh
right after we got home, jiayun started uploading and tagging the photos on Facebook. and damn! we seem to be having a commenting competition!!! LOL
click on the image to get a larger, clearer view.
that's not the end to all the comments on the photos okayyyy. there's still lots more and this print screen shot was taken only when we were halfway through the "competition" HAHA look at the time intervals! *faints*
my msn alert kept popping out, telling me that i've received an email from Facebook. many times! and when i went t my inbox, HAHAHAHAH i seeeee like 10 or more emails saying "____________ commented on your photo."
hur hurrr
damn funny (:
jolenekoh(:
i guess i'm not used to changes. i wish time will just stall.
words within me that i can't describe. living life like how people think it will be. no time to stop, but constantly on the move. people come and go, things happen and disappear, time just keeps going, it doesn't stop for you.
life and death, separated only by a fine line.
happiness and sorrow, separated thinly.
a smile and a frown, separated by a muscle.
sigh
jolenekoh(: