a girl who once knew me so well.
imissher.
jolenekoh(:
everyone had so much good ideas,
but sometimes we just need to compromise.
chopchop, ready, go.
she's right,
a training ground indeed.
let's do it together.
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beauty surpasses all abilities, tints all eyes and kills all innocent.
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i just want things to be perfect. no, no. not perfect, but to be in place. i miss her, but i'm tied down with projects. i've gotta make an effort to plan a day's out. but seriously, sometimes i don't understand why can't she help to plan one, since she's having holidays now? she's like one of the free-est person ard.
; lost.
jolenekoh(:
sarah sent me this song.
Over You by Chris Daughtry
Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
p.s. i can't find the full song to upload it on my blog ):
jolenekoh(:
finally i get some time IN THE MORNING to use the com and blog. HAHA just came back from taiwan the other day and i had to do proj and go for band camp str8 away for the next 3 days. and band ca,mp just ended ytd and i've gotta go sch do proj ltr on. HAHA
i'm ranting.
TAIWAN. [ 8th - 13th june ]
a great 5 days spent with my family. shopping, eating and sightseeing. i'm kinda lazy to elaborate, so in short: GREAT HOLIDAY SPENT.
:D
BAND CAMP. [ 15th - 17th june ]
a great 3 days spent tgt too, thou sometimes i feel a lil' awkward. the last night was much much better cos i had gr8 friends who waited for me HAHA
:DD
and rah, u know why laaaa huh? LOLs.
LIZHEN'S 21st BIRTHDAY PARTY was good good good ! enjoyed myself, laughing away at friends' actions, words and all. they just never fail to crack me up.
((:
to trish, sorry and thanks (:
i just felt super cranky ytd, esp with bad news & lack of sleep. rmb i was talking crap on the way there, scaring you and pam a hell load? LOLs.
so many emotions i felt but i guess i shall not express it all out, for no one would understand what i would type either. just let it be, for it's all the same, all the same.
God will guide us through it all.
lean on Him.
(:
jolenekoh(:
i didn't see it coming. i guess no one did. not even her. but what can we do?
how i wish i can let her know. how i wish i can help her. how i wish she wouldn't be coming back soon. how i wish i can help her.
i don't wanna see my friend cry.
jolenekoh(:
our dear brother, Samuel, is gonna enlist in about another 6 hours time.
so TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF OKAY?
don't be chased by wild boars,
don't be drowned in the seas,
& don't become pork chop for the sea crocodiles !
HAHA all the best brother !
:D
we'll keep you in our hearts. HAHA (so cheesy :/ )
God loves you, so do we !
(:
jolenekoh(:
I'M BACK !
and i can't wait for cgm and svc.
hungry and thirsty for God.
:D
shall blog bout taiwan another time with all the photos !
BYE.
jolenekoh(:
hello! it's alr the 13th of june!
i'm now at taiwan taoyuan airport.
gonna board the plane at 5.55pm. HAHA
HOME SWEET HOME in ard another 5 hours time!
BYE.
jolenekoh(:
byebye pohchoo.
she's gonna take off at 1am !
(: have fun !
as for me,
I'M FLYING IN ANOTHER 12 AND 1/2 HOURS TIME!
ya still long laaaa. hhaahahha
TAIWAN HERE I COME !!!!
people, must miss me okay?
:D
BYE.
for now.
maybe i'll have the urge to blog again ltr. HAHA
jolenekoh(:
wahahahahhahahahahahahaha.
ytd was a tough night for me. had to suppress that holiday mood and study hard for my test td ! and please it was totally a torture. imagine trying hard to concentrate and prevent myself fr falling asleep! haha
but in the end i studied from 7 plus to 12. slept till 1am plus, studied till 2plus. couldn't take it anymore and went to bed till 7am. HAHA then studied again till 9am plus and slept again before i leave for school. LOLs.
and please. the hints eugene pang gave was totally irrelevant. nothing he hinted came out! everyone were complaining after that. HAHA
i'm just glad it's over.
too bad i can't join the guys for mahjong at alphi's hse. bahhhhhhhhhhhhh, daddy said if i played i wouldn't know what time to come hme. HAHA and i haven't pack my bag.
:/
ahhhhhh. the news just said that there is tai feng (or is it just a storm?) at taipei.
everyone please help me pray hard that everything will be cool tmr.
i wanna enjoy my trip !!
:D
sheeesh tell you guys something, i don't know exactly which part of taiwan i'm going. HAHA
:P
anw, thanks in advance for the prayers!
heh.
BYE.
jolenekoh(:
been thinking a little lately. things just get on my nerves, things that are not within my reach to change. i've tried talking to XXX. he just doesn't change! it totally frustrates me. i don't even bother retaliating anymore. i asked for reasons and all i've got were more like excuses. JUST DO YOUR JOB WELL CAN?! stop giving me troubles and more troubles. i rather work alone like that. well, it seems like i'm working alone right from the start.
he was practically MISSING.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
HE JUST FRUSTRATES ME!
i hope i can enjoy my holiday after tmr!
BYE.
jolenekoh(:
just talked to kailyn online (:
yes girl, you shld be able to see your name here ! LOLs.
she triggered lots of my thoughts, and even straightened out some of my thinking just by asking me qns, telling me her stand and making me think thoroughly. HAHA
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there're still some queer thoughts in me. and seriously i hope that what i think is wrong. it just sounds super duper freaking ridiculous to me. and if that thinking of mine is ever so true, i don't know what to do. i'll definitely be hurt.
i just don't wanna think bout it now, though i can't deny that it's hanging in my head constantly, every min every sec.
but i shld be concentrating on my ICAs now. i'm getting stressed out by it. the competition's seriously HIGH AND TIGHT.
look upon Him for strength.
(:
seriously laaaa, it's the people ard me that's affecting me can?!
i wanan grind them to powder !!
grrrrrrrrr.
BYE.
suddenly i feel so grrrrrrrrrrr..
*grits teeth*
jolenekoh(:
there may be downs in life within just a day. but when you look at things that happened just a day ago or so, it just lifts up your spirits so much.
somethings happened td that upset me quite a bit, or maybe a lot. but i saw this picture. it totally lifted up my spirits.
I LOVE YOU GUYS!
YOU GUYS TOTALLY BRIGHTEN UP MY DAY!
with the stupid actions, fun times, crazy laughter & "drunkenness". HAHA
:DD
haha and i totally agree with andrew. we all became like small little kids after EMERGE finale. HAHA we just don't know why.
E420 & E406 combine (:
gonna miss E420 when i'm in taiwan.
:/
God is good,
God is great.
i love God.
He blessed me so much,
and more to come.
(:
thank you Lord,
thank you my Saviour.
(:
jolenekoh(:
my goodness !
i'm falling for Jesse McCartney AGAIN !
HAHA his songs..
whoooooooooooo.
:DD
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EMERGE Finale ytd was SUPERB !
heh on fire !
:DDD
jolenekoh(:
humans are selfish beings.
it's just how selfish and self-centered they are, just how much.
it always revolves around them them them
them them them them them them them them.
i'm so tired of them them them them them
them them them them them them them.
when will it ever be us us us us us us us
us us us us us us us us us us us us us us?
i've tried my best in everything. maybe not MY best, or THE VERY BEST to whoever's out there.
but i know one thing. and it's enough to carry me through everything.
but of cause i wouldn't mind something more, something i've always yearn for. i guess i just have to believe, have faith and wait.
CAN'T WAIT FOR TMR !
:D
BYE.
ishallnotbroodoverstupidthings
thati'vetriedmybesttopleasebutyetitfailed.
onedaytheyshouldseeforthemselveswhatitwaslike.
standing alone,
fighting the bitterness of life, with God (:
jolenekoh(: