; REALITY HITS HARD

Friday, March 31, 2006

muhaahaahaahaahaa..
i went to rebond my hair td!!!
but aft a few days then it will look better.
HAHA

my sis accompanied me and we went all the way to Papilio at Little India.
we reached at bout 3 plus,
and heck!!
they made us wait for bout an hr.
but they had no choice cause there were lotsa customers.
and they made it up to us by giving us a free bottle of shampoo!!
LOLS.

and guess what..
a handsome dude attended to me!!!
( HA am i typical or what?)
but he was coughing away.
and i nearly wanted to say:
"HEY YOU!!! don`t u dare cough ur germs into my hair ok??!!!"

whatEVER.

anw i don`t seem to be able to hear the songs that are playing in other ppl`s blog..
can anyone tell me why is this so??

hmms actually i`ve got lots more to blog on..
but i just can`t seem to rmb.
whatEVER.

peace out-

jolenekoh(:

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Thursday, March 30, 2006

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

Everything had turned into dust now. Because it`s all in the past.
From now on, i`ll try not to dwell over it.
But if i can`t and i come confiding in my blog, please forgive me.

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i wanna watch movie!!
i wanna do some cctching up with my friends.
i wanna have some kinda gatherings.
i wanna do sooo much things before my sch terms start.
but everyone else is just so busy with sch and life.

and i wanna say a big THANK YOU to shawn.
haha cause he was willing to give up his yr book to me!!!
thank you thank you thank you thank you!!!
(((:

the sch didn`t have any extras left so i had to seek "help" from the twins in our sch.
and i`ve accomplished that just on my first attempt.
and i`m soooooo happy!!!

haha anw now my best friends are
the tv and the net.
haha i`m sooooo addicted to `em now.
wonder when i`ll stop.
(:

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from the show
My Name is Earl:
do good things and good things will happen to you,
do bad things and bad things will come and haunt you.
this is called karma.

peace out-

jolenekoh(:

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as the poly term nears,
all the memories of jc just come flowing back.

i miss the hectic life in jc so much.
i don`t know why but i think it`s because it just keeps me busy all the time and keeps me from thinking bout unhappy moments.
i miss my friends.
i miss running to sch every morning, in hope that the auntie will not close the gate at me.
i miss walking down that hot desert-like path in order to get to the bus stop.
i miss chattering like mad monkeys with my friends.
i miss catching some sleep in lectures.
i miss the days when we tried to keep oursleves awake during ms yee`s tutorials.
i miss having showers aft pe lessons.
i just miss everything,
cause i have gr8 friends in sch to share every single moment with.

but as they always say
"it`s not the destination but the JOURNEY that counts."

so i`ll always rmb what i have been thru.

but i`ve been feeling kinda depressed this few days.
had been crying myself to sleep.
ha, at least i can fall asleep earlier that way.

then i remembered this phrase
"for i know the plans i have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. plans to give you a hope and a future."
and i don`t feel that bad aft all,
as i know HE has everything planned out for me,
and that i`m in safe hands.
(:

God bless everyone!
and think about this..
it's a beautiful psalm
"but let all who take refuge in You be glad;
let them ever sing for joy. spread Your protection over them,
that those who love Your name may rejoice in You.
for surely, O Lord, You bless the righteous;
You surround them with Your favour as with a shield"


peace out-

jolenekoh(:

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Wednesday, March 29, 2006

last night,
the memories of you came back to me again.

you seemed like a dream,
a dream that happened a long time ago,
a dream that happened last year,
a dream that didn`t and never will come true.

the times we spent tgt
still vivid and alive in my mind,
but never to be relived again.

it was a dream that came true for someone else.

last night,
the demons were back for me once more,
the demons returned.
i thought i`ve killed them all,
but hell no, i was wrong.
they`re still there,
they`re still, nonetheless, strong.

what can i do,
but to fight them off.
but i was tired
and the demons devoured me.

i want to run away from reality,
i want to run away from my own memories

i still rmb each and every time,
when i finally hear your voice over the phone,
i felt a sudden gush of happiness and warmth in me.
it wasn`t something i expected.

we were so close but somehow distant.
we could chat for hours over nothing
and it all seemed so right.

but every single moment was smashed soon after.

a hurt that i never felt before.
a hurt that can never be described in words.
a hurt that is still in me.

everything was so right at first,
but it turned towards the wrong direction,
never able to turn back forever.

we`ve became strangers.

what`s left now
is just my memory.

i tried looking for you in every person i came by.
but i knew that was impossible.

you have taken away a part of me.

jolenekoh(:

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Monday, March 27, 2006

hahas aft talking to mc and this new guy in s21,
i found some astounding news facts.

-that guy is *ahem* (as what he claims he is to be)
-the guy is also a psychotic abuser!!!

hahas but mc says that he is full of crap,
so the 1st fact bout him is not reliable.

as for the 2nd fact,
i`ve got evidence.


this is what he did to my friends!!!!
EWWWWW.

and mc just told me his newest bullying tactic:
he grips someone`s head and sorta crush it with his fingers, smtg like squashing a ball of paper.

apparently he did it to mc td and she said that it was so painful that she nearly wanted to cry. ):
poor mc and yp and gang for having such a classmate.
hehe.

but as long as they get along fine,
i guess everything`s ok.
cause they punch each other for fun (that`s what i presume. she did say she didn`t mind). hahas.

(((:
miss `em sooooooo much.

anw i heard that they`ve got the yr book alr.
I WANT ONE TOO!!!!
but hui helped me ask the office and they said that i can`t have it.
wtf.

ok i`m off to watch tv now.

peace out-

jolenekoh(:

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Ewan McGregor/Nicole Kidman - Come What May

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I love you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

[Chorus]
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And storms may collide
But I love you until the end of time

[Chorus]
Oh, come what may, come what may
I will love you, I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

[Chorus]

jolenekoh(:

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hey hey
here`s some gags for laughs!!

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NEW ELEMENT IN THE PERIODIC TABLE
Element : WOMEN
Symbol : WO+
Atomic mass : Accepted as 53.6 Kg; isotopes may vary from 40-200 kg.
Occurrence : Copious quantities in all urban areas.

PHYSICAL PROPERTIES
1. Boils at room temperature
2. Freezes without any known reason.
3. Melts if given special treatment.
4. Bitter, if incorrectly used.
5. Sweet as Honey if given a proper treatment.

CHEMICAL PROPERTIES
1. Have great affinity for Gold, Silver and a range of precious stones and absorbs great quantities of expensive substances.
2. May explode spontaneously without prior warning and for no known reason.
3. Insoluble in liquids, but activity greatly increases by that.
4. Most powerful money reducing agent known to man.

COMMON USES
1. Highly ornamental, especially in sports cars.
2. Can be great aid to relaxation.

TESTS
1. Pure specimen turns rosy pink when happy.
2. Turns green when placed behind a better specimen.

POTENTIAL HAZARD
*Illegal to possess more than one, although several can be maintained at different locations as long as specimens do not come in direct contact with each other.

!! WARNING !!
PROLONGED EXPOSURE TO THIS ELEMENT CAN CAUSE SEVERE FINANCIAL HAEMORRHAGING AND MENTAL DISTRESS.

BE CAUTIOUS ABOVE PROPERTIES ARE SHOWN BY ALL THE WOMEN IN THE WORLD

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One day my housework-challenged husband decided to wash his Sweatshirt.
Seconds after he stepped into the laundry room, he shouted to me,
"What setting do I use on the washing machine?"

"It depends," I replied. "What does it say on your shirt?"

He yelled back, "University of Oklahoma."

And they say blondes are dumb...

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A couple are lying in bed.
The man says,
"I am going to make you the happiest woman in the world."

The woman replies, "I'll miss you..."

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"It's just too hot to wear clothes today,"
Jack says as he stepped out of the shower,
"honey, what do you think the neighbors would think if I mowed the lawn like this?"

"Probably that I married you for your money," she replied.

HAHA!!!

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He said - Shall we try swapping positions tonight?
She said - That's>>a good idea... you stand by the ironing board while I sit on the sofa and fart.

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A man and his wife, now in their 60's, were celebrating their 40th wedding anniversary.
On their special day, a good fairy came to them and said that because they had been so good that each one of them could have one wish.

The wife wished for a trip around the world with her husband.
Whoosh!
Immediately she had airline/cruise tickets in her hands.

The man wished for a female companion 30 years younger...
Whoosh!
immediately he turned ninety!!!

Gotta love that fairy!
HAHA!!

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A PRAYER
Dear Lord, I pray for Wisdom to understand my man;
Love to forgive him;
And Patience for his moods.
Because, Lord, if I pray for Strength, I'll beat him to death.
AMEN.

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Questions and Answers
Q: What do you call an intelligent, good looking, sensitive man?
A: A rumor

Q: Why do little boys whine?
A: They are practicing to be men.

Q: What do you call a handcuffed man?
A: Trustworthy.

Q: What does it mean when a man is in your bed gasping for breath and calling your name?
A: You did not hold the pillow down long enough.

Q: Why do female black widow spiders kill their males after mating?
A: To stop the snoring before it starts.

Q: Why do men whistle when they are sitting on the toilet?
A: It helps them remember which end they need to wipe.

Q: What is the difference between men and women?
A: A woman wants one man to satisfy her every need. A man wants every woman to satisfy his one need.

Q: How do you keep your husband from reading your e-mail?
A: Rename the mail folder "Instruction Manuals".

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funny?? Lols.
that`s all for now.

peace out-

jolenekoh(:

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Sunday, March 26, 2006

td marks the end of the commonwealth games.
hahas no more sporting actions for me to catch.
Lols.
whatEVER.

anw i went to Little India to do smtg to my hair.
BUT upon reaching,
we discovered that the salon was CLOSED!!
but at least it wasn`t a wasted trip
cause we had lunch there
and aft that, we decided to go over to bugis.

initially we wanted to shop at Parco Bugis Junction.
but mummy wasn`t feeling that well so we decided to head hme aft a while.

td`s weather is so fucking hot!!!
(my sis said that she uses the words "fuck" or "fucking" to emphasize the adjective that follows. hurr hur)
we were practically sweating wherever we went
even though we travel by car instead of public transport.
but nonetheless, IT WAS FUCKING HOT!!

and it is still hot now.

i`m off for now.
if there`s anything interesting,
i`ll blog again ltr. Lols.

peace out-
ps. i need air conditioning now!!!

jolenekoh(:

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Saturday, March 25, 2006

Jewel Offering Lustful, Erotic, Naughty Embraces

hahas interesting test.

anw i got this few paragraghs fr someone`s blog.

from datemovie:
im just a little girl
standing in front of a little boy
asking him to love her.

i tink that was really sweet... and sad :(

someone
who'd smile at me when he sees me
who'd hold my hand and tell me
"it's alright, dont be scared, im here"
who'd walk the dark and cold path home with me.
it wouldnt be a lonely journey home
for there would be warmth, love and him :)

im still behind. not smiling. not moving.
u coloured my world and made it different
but only with dull colours.

i wonder whether she wrote the last 2 paragraphs on her own,
or she got it out fr somewhere.
o well.

and i rmb this phrase
from yours, mine and ours:
home is a place for free expression,
not good impression.

i totally agree with that phrase!!
(:

jolenekoh(:

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i found this pic in my cam some days ago.
it was taken by my mum.



hahas kids version of brokeback mountain. Lols.
it`s a good movie so catch it if u can!! (:

here`s another one..


hahas i was kinda shocked when i saw these pics.
it was my sis who spotted it first,
but we both had the same idea. :p

below are some scenes fr the movie brokeback mountain. hehe (:



Heath Ledger and Jake Gyllenhaal





Jake Gyllenhaal and Heath Ledger


Heath Ledger


Jake Gyllenhaal

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td wasn`t a really good day for me.
i did a `lil cleaning up of the house.
and i was kinda angry.

i mean it`s like my parents always ask me to do the housework ok.
then what bout my sis?
all she does is come hme fr attachment and doze off on the couch while watching tv.
or just come hme fr training and sit there all day long watching tv.
wtf.
and just asking her to hang the laundry,
she gives lots of excuses like
"i`ve been working for 8 hours loh!! hang laundry only take 5mins, why can`t u do it???"

WTF.
i do it like all the time when we wash our laundry loh.
and u say it only takes 5mins,
SO WHY CAN`T U FREAKING DO IT??!!!!!
i`m so pissed with her attitude.
she thinks she`s very gr8 huh???
ass-holeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

her ass either never leaves the couch, seat or bed.

and guess what?
even aft all the housework i`ve done,
i can`t like even go out like that ok???
i haven`t been going out for like a week alr ok.
it`s like i have to ask for a grant.
GRRRRRRRRRRRR..
angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry
angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry
angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry
angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry
angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry

whatEVER.
i`m too pissed to continue.

jolenekoh(:

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gosh.
my leg aches!!!
i can`t seem to be able to bend it.
i must have sprained it during dinner.

can u imagine sitting on the floor when u`re wearing skirt?
not those kind of sch skirt.

my leg really hurts now.
*cry*
:(

i`m feeling so hot now.
gonna sweat any min.
my sis took the fan away!!
ARGH!!
o ya, and ytd (as in td, it`s the same day only now it is midnight. whatEVER.)
at band was like at a suana.
-____________-
band room air conditioning was SPOILT!!!!!

can u imagine sitting in a humid room for like 3 hrs??!!

OMGOSH!!
i think i better be off to bed.
muhahahahahahahas.

my leg HURTS!! -

jolenekoh(:

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Friday, March 24, 2006

he`s the past,
u`re my present,
we`re the future.
mehehehehe (:

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woah i caught the movie "yours, mine and ours" td for FREE!!
hehe all thanks to yanni`s complimentary movie tix
and thanks yiin for asking me along!!!
WHEE~

hahas she called me like 9.40am and woke me up,
asking me to go watch movie.
i was like still dreaming la
and i couldn`t make out what she was trying to say.
but in the end i got it,
and i`m off to suntec for an early movie!
Lols. but we decided to catch a noon movie in the end.

we wanted to change to date movie at first,
but ummi say that it`ll be a waste cause the movie`s only 1hr 5mins.
so we sticked to our initial decision.

GREAT MOVIE!!
love it.
touching with a drop of humour.
or rather lots of drops of humour!!
hahas can u imagine having 18 kids at hme?!!
well i can`t.
i think i`ll tear my hair off instead.
wahahahas

anw aft the movie i met hui and ummi for a `lil shopping.
hahas at imm.
then we cabbed to pj for BAND PRACT!!!
the 2nd intake of yr1s came td.
quite alot.

and i saw a familiar face!!
it`s friend of mine fr PAE2oo5.
she came over to pj fr MI this yr.
hahas she went to percu section instead of flute cause she feels more comfy in percu (if i`m not wrong :p).

talking bout percu section,
KENNETH, amos, yiin, peilin, sam, vivien, huimin didn`t come.

* KENNETH KENNETH KENNETH!!!!
I MENTIONED UR NAME!!!!! wahahahahas *

ya, so only sanjay and laiq turned up.
HAHAS!! ms chan say all don`t like sanjay so all pangseh-ed him.
LOLS!! and when he tried to argue back, ms chan asked him to shut up jokingly.
ms chan`s so cute!! lols.
gonna miss he and the band.

dinner was so-so.
farhan and gz went for a concert.
dean in ns i think.
yiin didn`t come for band.
hui went hme for dinner.
sanjay went hme for dinner.
laiq disappeared with another gang, well, he always ps us. Lols.
that leaves me, ummi, zoey, xhuan, clement and 5 yr1s.
2 were here since 1st 3 mths and 3 new ladies joined us.
hmms handsome really went to jjc.
): wahahahahas.

ok whatEVER.
then i rushed hme to watch survivor,
only to find that they are broadcasting Fear Factor USA special episode.
Grrrrrrrr. make me rush for NOTHING!!!
and i missed extreme makeover - home edition AGAIN!!
HUMPH!!
):

oooooooooo...
and i missed live telecast of the melbourne commonwealth games td!!
):
lots of live broadcast td loh!!!
so sad so sad.

whatever, i`m out for now.
shopping trip to ps next tues!!
whee~

peace out-

jolenekoh(:

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Thursday, March 23, 2006

my mummy`s sick.
:(

she vomitted and diarrhea-ed at work.
*cry*

anw i think i`m hooked to the com now, instead of the tv.
i have been online since morning.
and every other day i`m on the com fr evening to night.
night as in midnight.
whahahahas.
i have been missing the tv shows.

i better kick away all these "bad" habits.
i actually borrowed 4 books fr the lib on fri, 17th march.
and till now i haven`t really started reading `em.
it`s bout a wk alr.
i better start reading before it`s overdue.

guess i`m going offline now.
peace-

jolenekoh(:

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i had instant noodles for lunch.
*YUCKS!!!*
so sick of it alr.
hahas yes i`ve been having that everytime nobody`s there to cook lunch for me.
so unhealthy!!!
:(

anyone wanna cook me lunch the next time someone`s not hme?
gimme a tag!! Lols.

okay i may be partly wrong bout chn 5 not showing LIVE actions.
yes it did aired and it was in the morning td.
i didn`t wake up early enough to catch it,
that`s why i was wrong bout chn5.

BUT..
chn5 really shows repeated events on their daily highlights of the commonwealth games.
if i`m wrong, pls do tell me.
`cause i may have watched it on other channels.
bleahs-

now there`s no interesting show on tv,
except kids central.

some ppl must be thinking
"go watch SCV la!!"
thanks for that suggestion, how i wish.
how i wish i have SCV. Lols.
my dad didn`t suscribe cause he`s afraid that i`ll get hook to tv and not concentrate on my studies.
wahahahahahahas.
i can be a real tv addict!!!!

well, my sis and i have been discussing bout suscribing to SCV
(only once if i really count wahahahahahas),
in hope that our daddy would be persuaded.
mehehehehe (((:
*pray hard*

i`m out for now.
peace-

ps. i really want SCV!!!

jolenekoh(:

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u guys know what?
aft singapore`s tennis - women team got gold in the commonwealth games,
chn5 has been really advertising ALOT bout them.

yes i know that it is a gr8 achievement,
but what bout those who got silver and bronze?
and what bout those who surpass their personal best?!!

there`s this young guy (i think he`s a rookie) who got silver in shooting
and vanessa yong who got 2 bronzes, mind u, TWO!!
it`s like only a short report on `em.
but at least they are still recognised.

okayy, then what bout those who surpassed their personal best?
i think swimmers like tao li did break their own personal best timings right?
i think they should be praised too okay.

and finally the coaches. hahas but i think they shld be recognised too.
everytime i watch a certain sports event, and if the athletes win a medal, the coaches only sit at the back and smile happily?
are all coaches so easily contented? :p
maybe they are, but at least the audience shld know who are they.
aft all they are the ones who trained those wonderful athletes ya?

anw, chn 5 sucks.
at the start, they didn`t want to air the commonwealth games.
my daddy said that only aft the public complain then did they decide to air it.
but even if they air it, they don`t always have LIVE actions.
and aft their daily reports, they show some events that has alr been shown.
they trying to save money?
:p

i ended up watching malaysia`s TV1.
at least they have LIVE actions thou most are focused on malaysia.
and just just now, malaysia`s ken nee yeoh came in 1st in the men`s springboard qualifying round.
good job!! (:

that`s it for now.
i`m hungry, but nobody`s at hme,
which means no one to cook lunch for me.
i`m starving..
hmms what shld i eat??

jolenekoh(:

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Wednesday, March 22, 2006

mehehehe!!
i went for the medical checkup early in the morning.
AND I MADE A FOOL OF MYSELF!!!!!
so paiseh ):

come to think of it, i really wanna dig a hole in the ground and hide.
medical checkup was actually nrevous to me.
cause i hadn`t done it before mah..
urine test, x-ray, blood pressure, pulse and doc`s consultation.
teeheehee. everything was done quite quickly.
DONE!!!

anw i think the tagboards that are "sponsored" by tagboard blah blah is faulty.
and i think it is ALWAYS faulty. Lols.
i tried tagging at diana`s, huiqi`s, etc.
but the msg didn`t seem to appear.
i don`t even know if they`ll see the msg.
i`ve changed my url u see. so i have to tell `em.
(:

that`s all for now.
what an eventful day.
-_______-

jolenekoh(:

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Tuesday, March 21, 2006

okayy.. blogger is down when i really really want to blog.
bummer.
blogger is ALWAYS in the way.
whatEVER.

so i actually typed the entry in microsoft word first,
intending to paste it back in blogger soon.
and I mean REAL SOON.
smart huh me?? Lols

how i wish i have a laptop.
that way i do not have to sit upright in front of the com for hours.
my back always ache aft that.
i don`t know why.
guess i`m getting old.
muahahhaas.

I WANNA GET A LAPTOP!!!
*how I wish I have the cash now.*

anyone rich enough to sponsor a laptop for me?? teeheehee.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! SHIT!!!!
I forgot to change the chn on the tv so I can watch the commonwealth games!!
Mummy!!!

Ok I`m off for now.
*bottomline – blogger sucks. :p

jolenekoh(:

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I`M FEELING SO SAD NOW!!!!
):

adriano is out.
ALL CAUSE of RENFRED!!!!
humph.
he just sucks lah ok!??!

even if he got to the finals,
nd if there is a guy champ,
it`ll still be zhiyang okay..

HUMPH!!
adrianno soooo cute.
Lols (((:

CHEERS TO ADRIANO!!

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BLOGGER IS SO FUCKING SLOW AND LAGGED!!!
i`ve been trying to republish my blog,
and it will always get hanged halfway thru.
grrrrrr..

but at least it is FINALLY done.
YEAH!!!

*YAWN*
i`m off to bed..

jolenekoh(:

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Monday, March 20, 2006

okay.. the campus superstar just finished airing on chn u.
well renfred forgot his lyrics.
HAHAHAHA!!!!

i don`t like him you see.
-bleah

muhahahahhahahas
ADRIANO ROCKS!!!!!
vote for adriano!!

(((:

jolenekoh(:

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i thought the words are supposed to be in black..
is it in black alr??
is it??

*testing*

Lols

jolenekoh(:

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Saturday, March 18, 2006

i was out ytd,
going for the interview and out shopping with hui aft that.

on the train hme ytd night,
i noticed some moments,
moments that are also noticeable on every single train trip.

when the train door opens,
some people would want to alight right?
and obviously there`ll be people wanting to board.
there`ll be an immediate rush between two sides.

what i really don`t understand is that,
aft all that campaigning about letting people alight first before boarding,
some people STILL push their way thru to board the train.
i just don`t understand.
it`s not like as if they would not to able to get onto the train if they don`t push their way thru.
i mean it`s like YOU WILL STILL GET ONTO THE TRAIN RIGHT??!!

GOSH.
i was on the train ytd and it was really really packed.
i was alr standing at the dorr alr.
and at the Ang Mio Kio station,
when some passengers were trying to figure their way out of the train,
this pack of folks just rushed in.
i was nearly squeezed to death ok!!?!?!

and before that at the City Hall station,
i got onto the train and was alr standing at the panel near the door,
and this stupid lady with her boyfriend was like standing right in front of me.
yes nothing wrong,
but she was like nearly leaning against me ok.
I WAS SMELLING HER HAIR ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was obviously angry.
but lucky her.
her boyfriend asked her to move away from me just in time,
before i snap my mouth at her.
such inconsiderate people.
i really hate travelling on crowded trains.
esp. with stupid, ignorant, inconsiderate people.
Grrrrrrrrrrrr...

jolenekoh(:

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yes i promised photos of the budget terminal.
so here it is..



this is the budget terminal!!!
nice right? lols.


my mummy and bryan!! our lil` cousin.


me and lil` bryan.
(((:

jolenekoh(:

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Wednesday, March 15, 2006

yeah yeah yeah...

i woke up like sooooooooo early td.
8AM!!! can u imagine?!

but i had a `lil smtg in return.
i went to see budget terminal.
Lols. nothing cool but yeah.

did a `lil photo snapping..
maybe i`ll try to put up some photos here.

anw i opened my yahoo mail box td.
and i received an email..
i`m down for interview!!
SO NERVE WRECKING!!!

it`s on this friday.
wish me luck.
(:

jolenekoh(:

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Sunday, March 12, 2006

my ear is painful!!!!!!!

i`m afraid that`s it`s an infection.
):

jolenekoh(:

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ok.. i haven`t really been feeling good recently.
which means i`m feeling shitty nowadays.
-___________-

and it`s like
"who can i turn to?! my friends are having their common test now!!"

what luck.

*crys*

and imagine those nags u get from your parents?
ya i sure know that it`s for my own good.
but.. it`s not what i need now.

URMPH.. WHATEVER!!

sometimes i could just wish to stay in the shower for hours and never come out.
but my skin will start to wrinkle. ha.

i would really appreciate quality time with ony me, myself and I.

whatever for now.
i`m outta here.

jolenekoh(:

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Thursday, March 09, 2006

it wasn`t the him that i knew.
so different.
so.. NOT him.

i thought i didn`t care anymore.
i thought i wouldn`t grieve over it anymore.
but i guess i was wrong.

the feeling`s so strong.
the feeling`s so wrong.
the feeling just came back.
stronger than before,
wrong-er than before.

i feel like going back to school and eye his every movement again.
*am i sick or what?!
if i could only do just that.
i couldn`t let go still.
the urge is still there,
the urge for me to find out.
everything`s too late now.

at least u aren`t with my good friend.
at least u aren`t with a bitch.
i`m just glad.

i guess i didn`t know you that well.
i wish him all the best.
i`m just a friend.

*do i really mean it? i don`t know for sure.
coz i never wanted things to end up this way.
u knew but u didn`t budge.
we were so close,
but yet so far...*

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i`m always - and still is - thinking whether i really made the right choice in coming to jc. although (i shld admit) it was really partly coz of him. but at least i came to jc and made really REALLY gr8 friends. it was a year i`ll never forget. and i really do hope that the others rmb it too. gr8 friends, gr8 times tgt, gr8 1st 3 mths, gr8 memories. i`ve nv really made that good friends in my 4yrs of sec sch. and 2oo5 actually was more worthwhile than some other years i`ve lived by. and the hk trip was only sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fabulous.

by the end of 2oo5, i kept thinking, about whether i shld stay put in jc, or shld i just accept FATE and go to poly. i kept thinking how much i could do if i knew i`m gonna fail my promos, how much i had prepared for my promos. i spent mths grieving over my failure, crying over spilt milk, not wanting to face it, even quarrelled with one of my friends over it. i looked for support in my friends and my parents. but my parents ( to me) only added salt to my alr wounded heart and mind. i cried over the fact that i`ve failed and had disappointed them terribly. i couldn`t come to terms with reality. it had hit me real hard. i kept the truth about my promos results fr my parents for days, even did a stupid thing to tell ms yee not to call on my parents bout my results only aft i1ve told them myself, in an attempt not to shock them to death. DID THEY KNOW ALL THIS?! the only thing they knew was to reprimand me for everything and forcing me to go to poly. i was totally drained by then. i could fight no longer for my own life. i felt like dying, as in literally taking my own life. BUT i knew i`ve much installed ahead in my life, i can`t just give up now. i fought on, only nearing to accepting fate.

i wanted to relive 2oo5 so so sooooooooooooooooooooo much.

JAN, when 2oo6 began, when my friends all started preparing for the new school term, i was totally devastated. it was so hard for me. i kept thinking, whether i made the right decision to divert my life to poly, whether leaving jc WAS the right choice. but i kinda had NO choice. i wanted to find a job so badly in order to "shift" my attention from everything. but i failed, terribly. i couldn`t find a job coz the diff companies had their fair share of part time staff alr. or maybe i just didn`t search hard enough. i couldn`t do much but sink into the whole slump.

orientation for the freshies came and left. i turned up for the 1st freshies band pract. aft that i turned up for like most of the practs. i didn`t had anything to do then u see. those days weren`t that bad. at least i still got to see them, like nothing has changed at all.

finally it was the day for all the 1989 babies. FEB 10 - 'O' level results were released. i dreaded it. it was yet another point for the change in my life, for i had to apply for my poly courses thru JAE, like all 2oo5 sec4 graduates. it was dreadful. it meant that aft i submitted the form, i`m SET for my future - my FUTURE is SET. i can no longer turn back time aft that. i can no longer make anymore changes aft that. BUT DID I REALLY MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE?! i`m starting to question it now. was it my desired choice? definitely not. but i couldn`t take the thoughts of repeating yet ANOTHER yr if i fail my promos again in 2oo6. with such pessitimistic thoughts, i had no choice. so i might as well accept it.

by then, i didn`t made THAT much contact with my friends, coz i really wanted to see them excel in the yr2 life. i decided not to disturb them too much with my still-haven`t-ended grievence. but i hope they still do rmb me.

come MARCH 3rd, the posting results were out. i didn`t get into my desired poly course. i thought about just accepting it and go on with life. but aft much thinking.. i thought that i shld control my own life. i SHLD be in control of my life and my future. i went to appeal with one of my close junior. it was totally sweet of her to acc me. i didn`t really asked for help from my fellow friends as their common test is coming up.

i finally got all those irksome thoughts and feelings outta me.

and today is march 9th. it`s the offical first day of my fellow friends` common test. with this i wish them all the best. and guys, wish me all the best in my future poly course ya? yet another "heart attack" will come to me in end of march (that`s when i`ll know my appeal results), yet another adventure awaits me.
time really flies.
(:

jolenekoh(:

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Wednesday, March 08, 2006

HI (:

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you didn`t even bother to say thanks.
so i won`t even bother bout a friend like you.

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on a lighter note,
hahas i was watching the tv this evening,
when i saw this commercial.
it`s in chinese thou,
so i`m gonna translate it.

hahas it goes..

"zap zap big thigh,
zap zap big thigh,
zap zap big thigh.

zap zap buttocks,
zap zap buttocks,
zap zap buttocks.

zap zap UZAP!!!
zap zap UZAP!!!!"

hahas funny ya?
it`s funny to me,
but it`s also irritating.
:p

enough of all those nonsense.
anw i found out smtg.
maybe everyone has alr noticed it,
so don`t blame me for my "slowness".

but in almost every shows, novels, etc.,
there will always be love.
and along with love,
there is hatred.
i guess that`s how life works --
love and hatred comes tgt,
hand in hand.

to make things simpler,
this means that all ard us,
there is Love AND Hatred.
it`s a good thing that there is LOVE.
but hatred,
it`s not so pleasant to me.
ha.

bleahs i seem to be crapping.
`forgive me!!!

peace out-

jolenekoh(:

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Monday, March 06, 2006

A Story called
"Most Important Part of the Body"

My mother used to ask me what is the most important part of the body.
Through the years I would take a guess at what I thought was the correct answer.
When I was younger,
I thought sound was very important to us as humans,
so I said,
"My ears, Mommy."
She said,
"No. Many people are deaf.
But you keep thinking about it and I will ask you again soon."

Several years passed before she asked me again.
Since making my first attempt,
I had contemplated the correct answer.
So this time I told her,
"Mommy, sight is very important to everybody, so it must be our eyes."
She looked at me and told me,
"You are learning fast,
but the answer is not correct because there are many people who are blind."

Stumped again,
I continued my quest for knowledge and over the years,
Mother asked me a couple more times and always her answer was,
"No. But you are getting smarter every year, my child."

Then last year, my grandpa died.
Everybody was hurt.
Everybody was crying.
Even my father cried.
I remember that especially because it was only the second time I saw him cry.
My Mom looked at me when it was our turn to say our final goodbye to Grandpa.
She asked me,
"Do you know the most important body part yet, my dear?"

I was shocked when she asked me this now.
I always thought this was a game between her and me.
She saw the confusion on my face and told me,
"This question is very important.
It shows that you have really lived in our life.
For every body part you gave me in the past,
I have told you were wrong and I have given you an example why.
But today is the day you need to learn this important lesson."

She looked down at me as only a mother can.
I saw her eyes well up with tears.
She said,
"My dear, the most important body part is your shoulder."
I asked,
"Is it because it holds up my head?"
She replied,
"No, it is because it can hold the head of a friend or a loved one when they cry.
Everybody needs a shoulder to cry on sometime in life, my dear.
I only hope that you have enough love and friends that you will always have a shoulder to cry on when you need it."

Then and there I knew the most important body part is not a selfish one .
It is sympathetic to the pain of others.
People will forget what you said.
People will forget what you did.
But people will NEVER forget how you made them feel.

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nice story there ya?
so everyone,
rmb NOT TO BE selfish.
(:

jolenekoh(:

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Friday, March 03, 2006

i`m losing touch.

i`m losing faith.

i`m losing sense.

I`M GOING BONKERS!!!!

god. pls save me.
i`m lost in a dark tunnel.
what shld i do?
i can`t find the way out.
where`s my angel?

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where the heck are u?!
stop avoiding me!!!

jolenekoh(:

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Wednesday, March 01, 2006

The friendship of yours and mine
will remain the same,
no matter how many years will pass.

One day,
I`ll still open my eyes
and find that you`re gone.
That day will still eventually arrive.

I`ll miss you,
every single minute of my life.

`Cause you were,
and will always be,
part of the rainbow in my life.

jolenekoh(:

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