finally !
i met up with mc ; yp ; sted ; ck ; mely ; mag ; steph td !
HAHA what a long wait.
none of them has changed at all !
still the crappy gang that i`ve always known.
:D
they came over to my hse td,
for a lil` movie marathon.
mc ; yp ; sted ; ck pon-ed assembly to get to semb earlier.
and we went to sunplaza yamaha.
haha we were quiet LOUD in there.
so i think we kinda created a din. HAHA
and mely ; mag ; steph joined us soon aft.
aft we da-pao our lunch,
we walked back to my hse.
LOLS. we watched
the voice (a scary ghost moive) ;
poseidon ;
benchwarmers !
haha the so-called scary moive wasn`t scary at all.
more of a sad moive. and a lil` messy.
nice music in the moive ! feat. cello & piano.
the moive actually brought up the climax,
making all of us so excited,
in the end,
nothing much.
ck`s right.
he said that the director wanted to show us the appearance of the ghost.
but in the end, never.
like wth ! make us wait so anxiously. HAHA
so, SAM, MAR,
maybe next time u guys choose a horror show and it`s like not so horror,
i`ll watch it. HAHA
anw, i think maybe i can watch the moive stay alive.
hopefully it`s not SCARY scary. lols. get it?
aft the voice, it was benchwarmers.
the show`s funny like nuts !
all of us kept laughing !
partly because it was a video-ed movie,
we could constantly hear ppl laughing and clapping away.
and we laughed at the "additional sound effects".
HAHA
next up was poseidon.
kinda crappy for a moive.
as in, who would do that in real life ?!
like what we all agreed on,
we could actually just break the window of the ship and swim out to the open sea.
isn`t it much easier, safer and quicker ?
HAHA
anw, mely, mag and steph left in the middle of poseidon.
they had to go hme.
yupp aft poseidon,
mc ; yp ; sted ; ck got a lil` crazy.
HAHA and they left soon aft.
ahhhh, fun fun fun !
hopefully i can meet up with them more often aft their As.
work hard guys !
it`ll soon be over !
(((:
jolenekoh(:
why am i caring so much?
bothering so much?
helping so much?
when the others don`t care at all ?
damn, they are ALL getting on my nerves !
why shld i care ?!
they don`t even care !
even the people who shld care the most are not bothered bout it at all !
damn, my volcano`s gonna erupt SOON.
i just can`t take it anymore !!!
oops, suddenly i`m like missing him la. sigh, his life is so simple and peaceful ! not like mine. and his parents dote him like nuts. he has got nothing to worry about ! what a lucky boy.
jolenekoh(:
alright, lemme talk bout WORK.
lols. work`s fine td.
i just didn`t feel like leaving the restaurant td
when i`m supposed to be off work alr.
HAHA plain laziness.
Acacia is a real soothing place to relax and chill !
address: 1380 Ang Mo Kio Ave 1
Bishan Park 2
Singapore 569930
Lols, i`m like advertising for them lah !
but the ambience there is really nice.
and the food`s nice too.
(:
ooh well, anw,
guo liang came to patronise the restaurant ytd !
i think the lady that was with him is his wife.
facts about guo liang:
- he smokes. (what a turn-off.)
- he`s handsome for his age. (Lols. at least that`s what my sis & i think.)
- he`s tall. (obviously to me laaaa.)
- his chi is damn power. (that`s duh duh duh too.)
and td, a chinese DJ came too.
female, but i don`t know her name.
she`s fr either FM95.8 or FM97.2 .
her eyes are big.
and she hosted PNC night before.
yupp.
at first i just found her VERY familiar.
and janet answered my doubts when she told me she`s a DJ.
she came with another 2 guys.
and i think they are DJs too.
cause their voices are damn nice. LOLS.
oooooooooooooh, and before i miss this out,
td, EARLY noon, at bout 11 plus,
there came an unreasonable couple.
it`s like you come to patronise a restaurant,
and you criticize it,
and you just wanna flaunt your money ard !
customer (female) : can we sit on the couch here and have our meal?
me : no.
customer (female) : why cannot ?! i`m not a kid what. i won`t dirty the couch loh. the most if i dirty it then i bring it for dry cleaning lah !
me : (WTF, got money BIG AH ?! pls loh, joyce don`t need you to dry clean for them loh. i bet joyce`s richer than you. HAHA) errrr.. the couch is meant for drinks only. food will be served on the tables.
i walked away, back to the kitchen.
joyce told me not to care bout them.
and just leave the food on the table (not the couch there).
i was thinking, pls lah, the couch table so low loh.
crazy couple.
dessert time.
(the couple went back to sit on the couch.)
customer (female) : we want to have our dessert here.
me : errrr cannot leh. (wha lao eh ! which part of "the couch is meant for drinks only. food will be served on the tables." don`t u understand !?!?!)
customer (female) : then i rather do without the dessert. i want to eat comfortably one ok. and dessert is meant for you to enjoy eating. desserts make you fat loh.
me : errr, cannot eat on couch. yah.
customer (female) : anw is your boss ard?
me : no.
customer (female) : tell your boss i got interested party wanna buy over this place.
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OK enough of this stupid conversation.
i`m freaking pissed off now.
WHY CAN`T I EVEN ENJOY MY HOLIDAYS WITHOUT ANYONE CONTROLLING ME BACK HME ?! WHY CAN`T I EVEN ENJOY MY HOLIDAYS WITHOUT ALL THOSE SHOUTINGS ?! YA, SHE`S THE BEST DAUGHTER ALIVE ! I`M THE BEST RUBBISH POSSIBLY FOUND AT ANYONE`S HME. YA SHE`S THE GOODY-TWO-SHOES, I`M THE BEST AH-LIAN OR REBELLIOUS KID IN THE WHOLE UNIVERSE. YES, I SUCK, SHE ROCKS. YA SHE CAN SPEND HER MONEY LIKE A RUNNING TAP, AND NO I CAN`T SPEND MY MONEY AT ALL. YA AND I MUST FOLLOW THAT GOODY SISTER OF MINE AND GO WORK TOO DURING MY HOLIDAYS IS IT ?!
YES YOU ARE THE BEST SISTER ALIVE !
AND I`M THE WORST EVER SISTER ALIVE !
YES, YOU OUGHT TO LIVE TO SEE THE END OF THIS WORLD.
AND I OUGHT TO DIE AND LEAVE THIS WORLD RIGHT THIS MINUTE.
WHATEVER !
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i just don`t understand. why can`t i have the things i want in life? ya, wishful thinking. ya, no one has ALL the things they want in life. but at least they`ve got some. and i`ve got none. all my dreams shattered. no one understands back hme. what they only want to see is the results. but it`s the process that matters most, isn`t it ? why can`t they see it? WHY ?! have you seen my hopes and dreams ? did you guys ever know how i feel when ALL my dreams are shattered ?! have you ?! did you ?! i just don`t understand. and what ?! i have to work just cause it`s my holidays ?!
whatever. no one knows anyway. who cares? my life is just like a piece of SHIT.
jolenekoh(:
oh no ! so late alr !
i`ve got work tmr morn !
sigh sigh.
so tired !!!
):
BUT band aft that !
YEAH !!!
ok i think i`m nuts.
well, i met up nana & qun ytd,
or is it td? or.. td night?
whatever ! just 25 sept ok?
LOLS. why am i so crappy now ?!
oh well, i think i`m just not feeling THAT well.
as in mood.
lalalallalala. wth.
sigh.
i just wish for something.
some miracles.
some some some.. something. HAHA
whatever. this is so crap.
LIFE GOES ON !!!
:D
bring it on man !
him? him? or him? LOLS.
sigh only sundays i`ll smile.
(:
jolenekoh(:
alright.
i feel that sometimes,
i dream too much.
so much so that i can`t differentiate between reality and dreams.
HAHA
it`s no good, no good !!!
sigh, i need help !
anw,
now chrissypoo is not the happy-go-lucky poo we knew.
he`s getting all so sad and depressed !
SMILE MY FRIEND ! lols.
ok, i think this entry is just SO random.
i don`t know what to blog bout td.
amazingly. HAHA
jolenekoh(:
haha i forgot to mention somethings.
DASHER.
every single weekend,
she`ll have her dinner first.
it`s always ard 6pm when there`s not much customers.
and i had my dinner only at ard 9pm for ytd and td !
&&& i was so pissed with her that i only ate half of my dinner.
but boss urged me to finish it so i did.
and EVIL me would purposely eat slowly.
this way, she`s gonnna work her organs out,
cause it`s usually busy when i have my dinner.
HAHA oops evil me.
(:
anw she has got to thank me.
because of ME,
she got to taste mango smoothie and cuppocino !
&&& the ah pu neh neh talked to me td.
surprisingly.
but i don`t understand a single word he says.
anw he doesn`t understand what i said either.
i asked him for the cleaned forks,
but he only replied " huh? "
so i replied " huh? " too when he spoke to me !
HAHA
guess that`s all.
hopefully i didn`t leave anything else out.
if i recall anything,
i`ll type it down here. HAHA
and yes, i complain a lot.
:D
and he smiled & talked a lot td :D
happy. haha nv seen him smile so much before :D
jolenekoh(:
just got hme fr work.
hmms, lemme just blog bout somethings
before i go have a shower. HAHA
DASHER.
she`s a fellow waitress at Acacia.
she`s a middle-aged woman who holds a full time job at an office, doing admin work.
this implies that she`s a part-timer at Acacia.
she only comes in for work at Acacia on weekends.
the thing about her,
SHE ISN`T AS FAST AS WHAT HER NAME IMPLIES, dash-er.
she is a slow-poke,
as slow as a SNAIL.
and she would jump at any opportunites to "kill" me.
she would say this and that to land me into trouble.
she`s the one at fault MOST OF THE TIME.
what`s more,
she always boss me ard.
she thinks that she worked at Acacia longer than me,
means that she can boss me ard.
PLEASE, i`m not a weakling who would let you boss me ard.
so i just said, "i need to do other things, you can`t do it yourself meh?"
she`s such a bitch !
i mean, seriously, you can do it yourself right?
and guess what,
td she asked me, "Why you never clear the tables ?!"
what the F*CK.
the restaurant`s so busy,
i`m busy serving others,
you expect me to clear tables and don`t care bout the customers is it ?!
you so great, you clear lah !
woah ! she`s so f*cking irritating !
she`s getting on my nerves !
either she quit,
or i quit !!!!
haha ok,
i won`t quit,
cause i`m not a whiny !
anw, karie and chris !
you two are lucky
that you don`t have to see her anymore.
HAHA
nvm, for the sake of money,
i`ll perserve on. HAHA
wish me luck !
lucky DASHER doesn`t work on weekdays.
i`m gonna kill her soon
if i see her everyday !
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some random thoughts:
sometimes people shld take note of their actions,
and be responsible.
never hurt anyone`s feelings at the ultimate end.
anw, i`m speaking with no one particular in mind.
(:
another random thought:
i rmb i saw my friend at far east last yr with the same guy she`s always with.
and just this yr, i saw her with another guy, at the same place.
hmms, is love so vulnerable?
a third random thought:
SEMB MAC IS INVADED BY INDIAN SERVICE PROVIDERS !
(service provider as in those at the counter serving us.)
haha ok, this is SO random.
i`m so gonna enjoy my day off tmr.
gonna pract my flute.
and meet nana and qun tmr for dinner !
sad thing is tmr`s intended meeting with tric and gang is cancelled cause choc and sandy ain`t free.
nvm, still got other days !
(:
&&& mc and gang are coming to my hse on fri !
movie marathon.
I CAN`T WAIT !
miss them so much,
and i haven`t seen them for ages.
:D
jolenekoh(:
Father`s Love Letter.
- the cry of a father`s heart from genesis to revelation.
click here to listen to the narration as you read.
My Child,
You may not know me, but I know everything about you
I know when you sit down and when you rise up
I am familiar with all your ways
- Psalm 139:1-3
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered
- Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in my image
- Genesis 1:27
In me you live and move and have your being
For you are my offspring
- Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived
- Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation
- Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book
- Psalm 139:15-16
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live
- Acts 17:26
You are fearfully and wonderfully made
- Psalm 139:14
I knit you together in your mother's womb
- Psalm 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were born
- Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me
- John 8:41-44
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love
- 1 John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you
Simply because you are my child and I am your Father
- 1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could
- Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect father
- Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand
- James 1:17
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs
- Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope
- Jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love
- Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore
- Psalms 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing
- Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you
- Jeremiah 32:40
For you are my treasured possession
- Exodus 19:5
I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul
- Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous things
- Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me
- Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart
- Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires
- Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine
- Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager
- 2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles
- 2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you
- Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart
- Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth
- Revelation 21:3-4
I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus
- John 17:23
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed
- John 17:26
He is the exact representation of my being
- Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you
- Romans 8:31
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled
- 2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you
- 1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love
- Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me
- 1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again
- Romans 8:38-39
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen
- Luke 15:7
I have always been Father, and will always be Father
- Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is...Will you be my child?
- John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you
- Luke 15:11-32
Love, Your Dad. Almighty God
jolenekoh(:
busy busy busy. lols.
been busy ytd.
work then band.
that`s like my life now lah.
boring huh?
but at least i`ve got money money.
HAHA
i think i`m like updating my blog every 2 days huh?
but every update is like, soooo long.
hhaha cause i can update like
more than twice a day when i`m free. HAHA
anw, so ytd during work,
min came to look for at ard 4pm.
haha and she did some band stuff there while i was still at work.
at 5pm, we went to sch for pract !
decided to cab down to sch,
since changing buses is kind of a hassle.
BUT WE WERE CHEATED !
it`s only 5pm but there is a surcharge of $2 !
wth, min say it always starts aft 5.30pm.
hmms, oh well,
in the end we didn`t turn into sch.
we just dropped beside ajc and cross the overhead bridge.
wth, my legs were aching ok ?!
HAHA and a new sax player joined nypso ytd !
his name is johnathan.
so when he intro-ed himself to the band,
he : my name is johnathan."
some fellow : (echo) LEONG.
he : (looking very blur.)
min : so where are you from?
some fellow : SINGAPORE IDOL !
the whole band started laughing.
poor guy !
just joined the band and he somehow got himself landed in a joke.
aft band, min and i intended to play pool.
but there was a change in plan,
cause everyone started to miss eating KFC ! lols.
so we went to KFC.
this time rnd,
jackson ; richard ; robin joined us for supper.
think that`s about all for ytd.
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td, work again.
nothing much td.
just that i didn`t join mar, chris and audrey for movie td.
HAHA hope they`ve enjoyed.
that`s it for now !
(:
wishing for the most impossible.
-mid autumn festival. light up my life, will you?
jolenekoh(:
sigh, i just found out somethings.
and i guess, over a holiday,
many many things can happen.
and it would take a lot of effort and time
to constantly update your friends bout what`s going on in your life.
not only that, it`s really hard to accomodate to everyone in a grp.
it`s really hard to try to make everyone feel involved.
it`s really hard to not make anyone feel left out.
sometimes i really feel like just disappearing.
the many things that i`ve done,
some are right,
some are wrong.
tired of the many hers that are hurting me,
tired of this world.
i just don`t wanna care anymore.
cause when i care for people or even for myself,
others will make me feel so guilty,
like as if all`s my fault.
so what am i supposed to do?
everyone`s imperfect.
but know your limits.
sigh, i wanna run,
away from this world.
away from that irritating bitch.
away from those hurtful people.
away from those unhappiness.
away from betrayers.
away from liars.
away from everyone.
i didn`t know when girls come to poly,
they become backstabbers.
or rather i shld say,
there are many backstabbers in poly.
i`ve seen the many wrong people i thought were right.
people who constantly bring up the past,
put it to your face and sneer at you.
people who say they treat you as their friend,
when they actually don`t,
and do many things behind your back.
you are left unaware and hanging in the air,
surviving on your own,
while the other party gets the best of both worlds.
and the outsiders who are involved
thinks that she`s a goody-two shoes.
sigh what to do,
they are such good liars.
i`m just hoping and praying for the best.
jolenekoh(:
that`s us !chris ; mf ; me ; liam ; mar ; min ; sam.
that`s me and min ! with our new hair colour.
:D
US, at amk KFC.as usual, aft band pract.
was celebrating sam`s belated bday.
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US at philyouth`s concert.right on top: chris.
second row (fr left to right): mar ; sam ; mf ; me ; liam.
bottom row (fr left to right): min ; nerak ; hongghee.
US again, at SCH.
jolenekoh(:
the incredibles !
JACK JACK ATTACK !
jolenekoh(:
tom and jerry yet again !
:DDDD
jolenekoh(:
more vidoes !
TOM AND JERRY !
my fave cartoon ever.
:DDD
tom and jerry tales - northern light fish fight
jolenekoh(:
i was so sick for the past 2 days !
so i didn`t manage to come online.
):
monday.
shang4 tu4 xia4 xie4 !
(direct translation = up vomit, down diarrhoea)
what the heck right ?!
sigh, was having sucha bad day.
lying on the sofa all day.
what`s more, no one`s at hme !
i was practically dying !
i didn`t even have the energy to finish sms-ing min.
sigh, what a day.
i didn`t have to work that day,
but it was all spoilt.
i so wanted to enjoy it !
see, no one at hme,
i could create so much havoc !
sigh.
and so i sms-ed joyce and said that i can`t work on tues cause i`m sick.
aft that i went to sleep.
it was only 8pm, but i was too tired.
felt like as if i had fever too.
but i didn`t take any medicine and just went to sleep.
tuesday.
i didn`t go for work.
and i only woke up in the noon.
was having giddy spells when i woke up,
but it was okay aft awhile.
had lunch, but ate very lil`.
i thought i felt much better,
so i went down to town to meet min and mf.
we played pool.
and mf learnt how to play !
(:
but throughtout the game, my stomach was upset ):
it kept growling, asking me to go to the loo.
so aft playing, i went.
and i diarrhoea-ed again.
SIGH !
then aft that we cabbed down to sch for pract.
haha and i didn`t eat much dinner either.
and i couldn`t concentrate during combine !!
SIGH SIGH SIGH.
what a day..
but i had fun ytd (:
and i didn`t go work td again.
my stomach just couldn`t get well.
sigh, two days worth of money gone.
nvm, tmr shall go work.
(:
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next up, more video "reviews".
as recommended by fatimp on my tagboard,
CANADIAN BRASS QUINTET.
really WOW !
:D
jolenekoh(:
it`s like 3am in the morning,
and i`m like still viewing the many videos on youtube.
lemme first intoduce,
the vienna boys` choir.
so superbly good !
their voices just make my hairS stand on ends !
anw, the boys are coming down to singapore esplanade !!!!!
7 & 8 Oct 06, Sat & Sun, 7.30pm
tickets are at $20, $35, $45, $60, $75, $95.
anyone interested?
anyone wanna go with me? HAHA
and next up, some child prodigys on the marimba.
marimba ponies.
they are so amazing !
so i1m wondering if it`s real or fake.
as in the playing.
anw the lil` boy on the clash cymbals is so fucking adorable !
(:
next up,
MARIMBA MARIO !!!
next up, something different from music.
SAND ART !
and i guess there will be more videos to come !
but that will be kept until aft i get some sleep.
HAHA i need to sleep !!!
jolenekoh(:
i yearn for something.
something untouchable.
something i can`t give it to myself.
but it`s something i can give in return.
(:
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oh well. suddenly i thought of something to blog about !
haha. the mindset and thinking of people.
symphonic band VS symphonic orchestra.
symphonic band.
some people think that band songs would be more worth listening to as compared to orchestra pieces, unless they know how to appreciate orchestra pieces. some others feel that band songs will never be boring, thinking that it`ll be so happening, musically. (happening as in won`t make you feel like falling asleep.)
symphonic orchestra.
some people feel that orchestra pieces would be oh-so-boring. well, i feel that they are wrong. i admit that i felt that way too, in the past. but aft some yrs in band, i got more exposed to more songs, both band and orchestra. and i enjoyed it all a lot.
moreover, nyp orchestra are currently playing pieces which are oh-so-happening ! HAHA. the pieces that we are currently playing showcasts the different sections in a symphonic orchestra. be it the strings, or the winds. every section is given their fair share of exposure. and i like it a lot.
alright, this entry is so random.
HAHA.
:D
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i`m having wishful thinkings again.
i shld wave them all off.
damn, save me !
sigh.
i`m imperfect.VERY.
jolenekoh(:
a sad but sweet video.
anw that main guy in the mv,
he`s the one who acted in stairway to heaven.
and the drama and this video has the same ending !
the guy donates his eyes to his love one.
why does the guy always have such an ending in his acting?
but it`s a really sweet video.
jolenekoh(:
insiprational.
we all shld be like them.
team hoyt.
watch and you`ll understand.
the insirational journey of team hoyt.
jolenekoh(:
ytd was philharmonic`s concert.
it was a gr8 concert.
went with mf ; mar ; sam ; chris ; liam.
min ; nerak ; hongghee were perfoming.
i definitely enjoyed it.
hmms, althou the guys and i were like falling asleep.
HAHA can`t blame us !
we had orch pract early in the morning.
and mf didn`t have to come for pract,
so she was quite awake during the concert.
HAHA
anw we bought a pony for min !!
and i carried it. HAHA
so when i entered SCH,
practically everyone were looking at me.
SO PAISEH !
i bet everyone`s thinking,
why is that girl carrying that silly pony ?!
HAHA and we shouted " HORSEY ! "
instead of huimin during the concert.
LOLS. had gr8 fun.
aft concert, we went to lao pak sat to have supper !
satay ; prawns ; stingray ; kangkong.
DELICIOUS !
haha and every photos that we took,
lil` pony is in it too ! HAHA
:DDD
so that`s about it for ytd !
damn, gonna go for work ltr on.
):
nvm, i shld enjoy the process !
at least i get experience.
HAHA and now at work,
i have karie instead of chris.
(:
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oh no, i`m getting sick of her.
so weird.
she`s becoming more like a bitch.
sigh. what happened ?!
didn`t expect her to do such a thing ytd.
i was so shocked.
nvm, maybe that`s the other part of her that i haven`t seen.
and TRI ! u are so right, woman ! HAHA
and i feel really happy and comfortable.withhim.
:D
jolenekoh(:
oh ! i forgot to mention some things.
damn, i think i`m getting old.
and i think my STM is getting worse.
SIGH.
anw, as i was saying, i missed out some things.
YES, we went to min hse again.
as it was alright past midnight, there were no more buses.
so we had to walk to min`s hse.
it would take half an hr.
but with our kind of walking speed, it would take an hr or more.
HAHA
min, mar, chris were walking in front.
while jingsi, sam, liam, i were walking at the back.
suddenly, we thought,
MAYBE WE SHLD HOP ONTO A CAB
AND DON`T CARE BOUT MIN, MAR AND CHRIS !
haha not literally don`t care,
but a cab can only ride four right?
haha so we took a cab to min`s hse !
and min, mar, chris were left trotting hme.
we wanted the cab to drive past them and wave bye,
but they were walking opposite to the traffic,
so we couldn`t wave goodbye.
HAHA at that point of time,
i couldn`t stop laughing, smiling and all.
:DDDD
and obviously we reached min`s hse earlier than `em.
so we sat outside her hse like some beggars.
HAHA and we tried to open that bottle of liqour they bought for me.
but to no avail.
and they keep calling me jiu gui (drunkard) !!!
wth. thanks a lot man. Lols.
and they started calling liam si gui ( direct translation = dead ghost).
and i don`t know why. HAHA
yupp, that`s all i wanna add.
think i`m gonna slp soon.
TIRED.
jolenekoh(:
HAHA ytd was the stayover !
but before that was band pract.
and as usual, we went top KFC for supper.
&&& the supper clique is getting bigger and BIGGER.
hmms, no more privacy? HAHA.
just kidding.
anw, our inital plan was to watch a midnight movie,
but there were NONE ):
how sad can that be? HAHA
in the end, we went to the arcade-cum-pool place.
and we splitted up.
liam, chris, audrey and jingsi played pool.
me, min, sam and mar played arcade.
HAHA had gr8 fun with a gr8 bunch of people.
:DDDD
next up, we went to min`s hse yet again. HAHA
but audrey went hme.
and i merely felt like having liqour.
and they started calling me jiu gui (drunkard).
dots dots dots.
how crappy can we get? HAHA
and clever them only bought one bottle for me.
YES for me only.
because they wanted to drink the red wine fr min`s hse.
but in the end, i didn`t know how to appreciate it.
just tasted WEIRD to me. HAHA
and jingsi introduced a game to me.
it`s called typing-smtg one.
ya, it`s a typing game. haha
and you gotta kill the zombies by typing the right words.
FUN ! but tiring. haha.
got kinda addicted. oops !
the guys decided to watch horror movies.
THANKS A LOT MAN !
they watched darkwaters and ju-on.
ooh well, at least i watched ju-on before.
so i played the typing game through out darkwaters.
and i fell asleep when they were watching ju-on.
as usual, min fell asleep first.
then liam. he fell asleep in the middle of darkwaters.
and sam wanted to do the drawing trick on liam again.
but he decided not to in the end i guess. HAHA
the next morning we woke up at 11AM !
wth, and min`s room is still as dark as ever.
we thought it was only 7 or 8am lah !
and everyone were shocked when mar said it was 11.
liam and jingsi decided to leave for hme early.
so they didn`t join us for some "home-cooked" food.
HAHA min and i tried cooking.
but nonetheless, we still needed the help of sam and mar.
we had noodles for lunch, along with,
uncheon meat with mushroom and peas cooked in tomato sauce ;
canned curry chicken ;
campbell soup.
okay you may say it`s all canned food.
BUT at least we cooked the luncheon meat dish !
:DDDD so proud of ourselves. HAHA
lunch was yummilicious.
so fabulous with min, mar, sam, chris and i.
had much fun and laughter while cooking.
haha didn`t expect us to cook lunch thou.
anw, i`m hoping for another BBQ session at min`s hse !
(((:
then aft lunch, sam left for sengkang first.
then min, chris and i left for sch.
while mar left for hme.
min had to collect her "forgotten" purse.
i had to do the photocopying of scores.
and chris just tagged along cause he had nth to do.
Lols. and we all waited for liam to arrive with the band room keys.
alright, i guess that`s all for now.
:D
i love my pals !
---
chris !
you are falling deep into the endless tunnel !
:D good luck, have fun ! all the best. HAHA
jolenekoh(:
oh ! i forgot to mention this.
in future, i wanna be a business/career woman.
real successful kind.
so i have to study real hard.
HAHA
acutally i want open a shop.
no no, a business.
be my own boss kind of thing.
so that i can just go for work as and when i like.
OR climb the coporate ladder REAL HIGH
that everyone obeys my orders. HAHA !
:DDDD
or open a business or shop with my future husband.
haha, okay, i know i`m thinking too much.
but i`m just laying out my goals and ambitions.
something to drive me in my studies.
my goals and ambitions.
isn`t it good to have goals and ambitions?
:D
and when i go into the work society,
i must make sure i get good results.
and give my parents a good and comfortable retiree life.
:D
anw, even if i become a tai-tai, just like tri,
(which i hope i can become one. HAHA !)
i`ll still work.
because i can`t imagine life with ONLY shopping.
and i don`t wish to do my own household chores when i get married.
worse come to worse, i`ll hire a sunday maid.
HAHA see, i`ve got my future laid out nicely !
:DDDD
anw, JOLENE has another wishful thinking.
not about her career or future life.
something more present.
something that`s happening now.
but of course i wouldn`t hold high hopes or whatsoever.
i may not even go think bout it.
(:
just wishing for a pleasant surprise.
:D
; will it come true? LOLS
jolenekoh(:
sometimes i really don`t understand what people are thinking.
or rather youngsters? hmmms..
i`ve
eh, not a personal one, but my friend related it to me.
i simply don`t understand.
let`s take for example, soccer.
this person, lets call him BF, likes soccer a lot and soccer is BF`s cca.
but his gf, lets call her GF, feels that soccer is taking up a lot of BF`s time.
GF hence wants BF to stop going for soccer training.
to me it`s ridiculous. SORRY.
BUT i`ve got words to back it up.
and to me, it`s logically sensible.
(:
ok u guys who are reading this now may feel that i`m just poking my nose into other`s business, but i`m just curious. if u don`t like it, then click that 'X' button on the top right hand corner of your windows explorer or mozilla firefox or whatever kind of internet windows you`re using. thank you very much.
so here i go..
as i was saying, GF wants BF to stop going for soccer training.
well, soccer is BF`s PASSION !
apparently GF and BF broke up,
but BF wants her back.
sweet ! haha (:
but if soccer is BF`s interest, then continue going for training loh. i mean if BF wants to go for training then go lah. sorry to say this, but GF can`t control BF now. although BF wants GF back, the time is still BF`s. he controls it, he manages it. not the GF. bottom line is, follow your heart. correct? don`t let someone conquer your heart and tell you not to do something that you have passion for and loves to do a lot. it would be such a waste, especially when it is something you really love.
to me, it`s kinda ridiculous to stop coming for soccer trainings when it`s BF who`s coming, not GF. if GF feels that it is taking to much of HER time, so be it. but this is BF`s time, HIS time. one handles and manages one`s own time. not one`s gf/bf or ex-gf/bf handles and manages it for one.
(ermm, am i repeating? HAHA)
anw, this situation has happened between BF and GF before. and GF would get angry if BF continues going for soccer trainings and say that BF`s going against his promise. BUT if GF really loves BF, then she shld support what he loves to do, not stop him. BUT GF`s right if it takes up so much of BF`s time, so much so that BF neglects his studies or what. because what i believe is, with good time management, everything is possible. be it one`s social life, academic life or even spending time with one`s gf/bf.
things can be sorted out. if GF really thinks that it is taking WAY TOO MUCH of BF`s time, then make a compromisation, say give in to each other? seriously things can be sorted out. but it would be ridiculous to completely stop doing something one loves.
maybe the GF shld think this way, would she like it if BF asks her to stop doing smtg she loves? just because it is taking too much of her time? well, all these are just time management.
- end of story (:
hope you guys enjoyed yet another episode of my stupid preachings and who-you-think-you-are thinkings. HAHA nice? interesting?
if it`s interesting and nice,
maybe i can start my own version of JOLENE AND HER WHO-YOU-THINK-YOU-ARE PREACHINGS ! heh heh
:D
jolenekoh(:
stupid irritating HOTMAIL !
i can`t open my hotmail inbox.
so mad so mad.
nvm.
work td was so slacky !
as usual i swept the floor when i reached.
then i practically slacked my whole work day td.
BUT min and mf came and look for me td !
heh as requested by me lah. heh heh.
well, they kinda reminded me of the dumb and the dumber.
THEY SIMPLY SO CUTE !
:D
LOVE THEM.
(((:
they ordered a rum-and-raisin single scoop ice cream.
and a chicken mushroom pie.
HAHA and they had a 10% discount.
cause i mentioned to janet
that those 2 are my friends just when they walked in.
hahahahahaha !
work tmr again.
then band !
and stayover !
I`M LOVIN` IT !
---
anw i read huiqi`s blog !
and i didn`t know she was in such close proximity to westlife !
she must be DAMN HAPPY !
haha glad for huiqi & leona.
so exactly how close was she with westlife?
o.oooooo1 cm away fr their skin.
HAHA ok i`m exaggerating.
but fr huiqi`s blog,
her idol actually tried to pick her up when she fell over a luggage ! HAHA
whoever`s idol were to do that for him or her,
they are gonna faint fr excitment. HAHA
and the girls got the first row seats.
HAHA what a memory for them.
(:
jolenekoh(:
exam results are out.
sigh. not good.
not what i wanted.
BUT nvm.
it`s over (:
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MONDAY
sakae sushi buffet ! haha.
it was meant to be a "farewell" dinner for beth.
but in the end tri, choc and sandy can`t make it.
tri was aching all over due to the event on sun.
choc had a job interview.
sandy had to help her sis with some book collecting.
soooo, it ended up with only beth ; mar ; me.
BUT all was fun !
buffet was suffocating !
we were so full and bloated aft that !
and we went to buy movie tickets for the show the devil wears prada !
nice show (:
aft buying the tickets,
we walked to mar`s hse to get jackets.
well, beth and i were kinda cheated.
:/
HIS HSE IS FAR FR YISHUN GV !
not as near as what he said it to be. HAHA
gr8 show ; gr8 food ; gr8 company !
hope that beth had a nice flight hme.
and she shld be enjoying family warmth.
:D
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TUESDAY
I DYED MY HAIR ! haha
went to a salon at toa payoh.
min dyed and highlighted her hair.
(:
band td was alright.
had gr8 fun.
was really high aft band td. don`t know why.
had a belated-birthday celebration for sam.
HAHA. hope he likes his presents !
:D
that`s it for td i guess.
gonna have a conference call !
(((:
jolenekoh(:
legs are aching now.
not from work, but from running.
HAHA didn`t go for work td.
thanks to tri,
(truthfully, not sarcastically)
i went for a church event of hers.
it`s called " where`s wally? "
it`s just like an Amazing Race. ard town.
haha ran a lot.
and we had extra points if we find the duckies.
WOAH we need good observation and eyesight to find that !
and we had to find the WALLYS.
haha they are 2 guys who are walking ard taka and raffles city.
and we got all so excited when we spotted them.
sad to say, we got scolded a few times.
HA cause we had to take photos in some shop.
well, i think we weren`t actually allowed to do that.
so got scolded. urps.
anw, we came in third !
not bad, not bad.
haha i had fun and enjoyed myself.
and met the few people whom tri had mentioned to us before.
(:
funny bunch of people.
but now, i`m tired and aching. HAHA
going out again tmr.
to have a "farewell" dinner with beth.
yupp usual grp of us.
hopefully this time rnd yy and jia can join us.
:D
can`t wait for tmr !
food feast !
awwwww, i`m hungry now.
): shall go look for some food ! heh heh
jolenekoh(:
MUSIC EXCHANGE td.
haha exchange was alright.
hougang and bedok north sec roughly knew each other so,
was ok la. HAHA
erm, maybe it was a lil` messy la.
but was fine and enjoyable overall.
regent and first toapaoyoh sec came to watch us "perform".
and i kinda enjoyed the combine for all schools. HAHA
the exchange ended bout 4.
and as usual, the clique dragged till 5 before leaving the band rm.
and had dinner at amk S11.
min, chris, sam, mar and i shared
sambal stingray ; sambal sotong ; sambal kankong ; prawn omelette
HAHA YUMMY !
aft which, chris and i left for work ):
didn`t feel like going at first,
but no choice.
customer flow started slowly and steadily.
then more and more came in.
and we worked ourselves dead !
HAHA tired ; shagged.
and i spilled a cup of leftover plain water td ):
but luckily it was spilled when the customers left.
*phew
anw i spilled a glass of leftover orange juice the other day.
:|
butter fingers.
HAHA and YEAH !
i`m not working tmr, mon and tues !
sorry chris !
:D enjoy !
---
don`t know for whatever reason,
that ____ joined us td.
WTH. for what la ! damn it.
grrrrrrrrrrr.
when i`m just goingto settle down,
things uproar again.
jolenekoh(:
i`m just faking everything.
look into my eyes.
and my eyes will tell you,
"she`s just putting on a strongfront."
fall, fell, fallen.
pick me up again.
i`m just trying to show ppl that i haven`t fell.
i`m just faking it all,
keeping ppl away fr what i`m going thru now.
and laughing my days off like nothing`s wrong.
i`m tired.
i`m not a joke.
stop making fun of me.
and don`t act as if nothing`s happened.
it`ll seem to me like as if you are a ____ .
jolenekoh(:
worked 9 hours straight td.
tired? NO !
haha cause i slacked for 3 to 4 hrs.
no customers, changed the table cloth and read the newspaper.
HAHA
oh well, nothing interesting bout work.
haha
can`t wait for tmr`s music exchange !
---
life`s a mystery to me.
kim samsoon ! HA
jolenekoh(:
that "innocent" friend of mine
just don`t know that her actions,
are hurting me.
; WHATEVER
yes tricia, i know you`ve told me to just get over it.
but i can`t.
it`s a psychological thing.
i`m trying hard, very hard.
but i know it`s not my best.
i`m starting to hate myself.
damn i don`t know what i`m doing.
this few days i just don`t know what i`m doing.
i`m just burying my head into
work; sleep; watching kim samsoon; going for band.
that`s all ! i`m not enjoying my hols at all.
and my parents, sigh.
and i`m not okay at all.
no one knows.
no one cares.
i just hate myself.
i just hate my life.
jolenekoh(:
woah. another day of work is over !
and i met up with min and mr koh, aka merlion, aft work.
HAHA
first i met mr koh at jurong,
went to imm, band world to get his reeds.
then we decided to meet min at town.
so we headed down to town.
HAHA and min was alr on her way to jurong.
:/
in the end she turned back and went down to town.
aft dinner, it was down to yamaha at PS.
got min`s trumpet stand.
then we went to cafe cartel for HIGH TEA !
haha like wth, it`s alr 9 plus when we went to cafe cartel.
and our day was kinda ruined by someone.
shall not elaborate.
HAHA mr koh ! more of these sessions soon !
and Minds Cafe.
jolenekoh(:
talking to you makes me wanna cry.
don`t act as if you care.
i want to have a house of my own.
so that i can have a private space of my own.
i want to fly away to another country.
and enjoy myself like nuts.
i want to go, away for good. HA
jolenekoh(:
from the show,
My Lovely Samsoon.
One day, the body asked the heart,
"When I`m hurt, the doctor heals it,
But if you`re hurt, then who will heal you?"
Then the heart said,
"I have to heal by myself."
Is it because of that, whenever someone is hurt,
they have their own special way of healing it?
Drinking, singing, releasing anger, laughing, crying.
Going on trips with friends and talking with them.
And running in a marathon..
or the worst thing,
just ignoring that pain.
jolenekoh(:
when it rains,
it reminds me of you.
jolenekoh(:
MOMENTS IN LIFE!
There are moments in life when you miss someone
so much that you just want to pick them from
your dreams and hug them for real!
When the door of happiness closes, another opens;
but often times we look so long at the closed door that
we don't see the one,which has been opened for us.
Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.
Go for someone who makes you smile,
because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.
Find the one that makes your heart smile.
Dream what you want to dream;
go where you want to go;
be what you want to be,
because you have only one life
and one chance to do all the things you want to do.
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human and
enough hope to make you happy.
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;
they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past;
you can't go forward in life
until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
When you were born, you were crying
and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so at the end,
you're the one who is smiling
and everyone around you is crying.
jolenekoh(:
alright, it`s 1:49 AM now.
and i`m getting agitated !
BECAUSE i was looking at someone`s friendster.
and saw that PEIYING PRI NOW HAS CLASS PHOTOS !
what the heck !
how i wish i have a class photo of my pri sch classes !
damn, those days were fun and carefree.
chasing each other ard in sch (childish).
having extra lessons called supplementary classes.
and fancy obedient me got maligned for cheating in class.
(is that how i spell that word? hmms..)
those days = fun
wonder when 6B`2000 will have another class gathering.
jolenekoh(:
WOAH ! my legs are aching !
first day of work is alright.
learning the ropes and all.
and the bosses are friendly. HAHA
that`s the best part.
:D
but of course, when you`re in the service line,
you meet irritating ; ridiculous ; unreasonable people.
like what the boss says,
" you want good food, WAIT. "
to be able to serve the best food,
the cook has to put in effort and time.
" this is not a fast-food restaurant. "
(:
---
if i have a pet, i`ll name it Clifford.
it`s sucha nice name for a pet.
:D
and how i wish i have a
puppy ; tortise ; hamster as pets.
(:
jolenekoh(:
nice song.
tong en - yi xia xia
jolenekoh(:
i thought i can just wave it away from my face.
i can`t.
i thought i can just say forget it.
i can`t.
i thought i can just get on with life, like nothing`s happened.
i can`t.
i thought i can just laugh my way out of it.
i can`t.
i guess days will never be the same again.
i wanna live life as it is again.
many things i wanna say.
many things i hoped for.
all unsaid, all untrue.
and i just keep on doing the things i`ve done for the past few months.
and i really wanna stop it.
casue it`s doing me no good.
if only i can say it out.
but i guess you`ll never know.
i shld have just let that van run me down the other day.
jolenekoh(:
in your anger, do not sin ;
do not let the sun go down while you are still angry,
do not give the devil a foothold.
- Eph 4 : 26 - 27
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had a really bad night ytd.
couldn`t fall asleep.
kept tossing, turning and thinking.
if only all were a dream.
sigh.
hmms, i think i only slept for 4 to 3 hrs. HAHA
now i`m totally lost.
what shld i do next ?
what shld i say ?
; totally lost
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i went down for a job interview aft band td.
HAHA my first ever offical job.
peiyi accompanied chris and i to the place.
the restaurant - nice & comfy.
love the deco !
(:
aft that chris and i met up with koh hong ghee.
and we went down to city hall, marina sq for a lil` high tea session.
HAHA sinful walnut brownie, apple-smtg slice and carrot cake slice.
cool. BUT sinful. haha
we shld have more of this sessions !
aft which, chris and i went down to OPSS to look for mar to get smtg fr him. THANKS A LOT MAR ! haha glad that they didn`t ask anything.
and i left off for dinner with daddy.
had the nice, delicious, yummy duck noodles at khatib.
at the coffee shop near NTUC.
nice nice (((:
---
to my dear hunns bunns, maysi:
i know you`ll never leave me.
so i`ll never leave you.
love you, and cherish !
meet up soon alright !
:D
jolenekoh(:
somethings happen for a reason.
i shld be glad.
but i ain`t.
how i wish it all weren`t true.
how i wish i was dreaming.
how i wish i was wrong.
now, i don`t know what to do.
jolenekoh(:
I SHALL KEEP TO MY OWN PROMISE FROM NOW ONWARDS.
I`VE LEARNT MY LESSON.
AND I DON`T WANNA REPEAT THE MISTAKE ANYMORE.
THANKS A LOT !
I`VE LEARNT MY LESSON.
AND I DON`T WANNA REPEAT THE MISTAKE ANYMORE.
THANKS A LOT !
jolenekoh(:
feeling sick.
falling sick.
giddy spells sucks big time.
; do u even care ?
---
talking to kelvin on msn now.
HA he`s still the same old him.
studying as hard.
working as hard.
well, some people just nv change.
haha (:
jolenekoh(:
sigh. i can`t help but worry.
no news at all.
wth.
jolenekoh(:
it`s now 1:53 AM in the morning.
and i can`t fall asleep.
i`m getting my moodswings again !
what the F*CK.
damn those moodswings.
alright. i admit.
it`s been there since pract ended td.
i don`t know what`s gotten into me !
):
; can you stop doing this to me? just say it to my face ! damn. do u even give a tad or a hoot bout me? sigh. here i go again. maybe i shld just stop thinking too much? and wait till fri or sat? sigh HELP ME
jolenekoh(: