i'm craving for praise and worship now :/
anw school's started for me td. feels weird in a whole new class thou i have 9 ex-classmates with me and the guy who looks like desmond in my class. HAHA but still, i miss the old class laaa. hopefully i'll get to know them better soon.
lunch with rahrah & xue td at ramen ten. dinner/chill out at delifrance & STARBUCKS with rahrah !
:D
mocha frap.
school's out tmr !
cause it's labour day !
BYE.
jolenekoh(:
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !
hahahahahahahaha
:D
but but but i can't accept the fact that, I'M NOT THE ONE BESIDE HIM !
haha so i erased off huimin's face. HAHA
:P
& TRICIA auyongpeixin, please don't EVER EVER recognise the wrong person again !
my lovely section !(:
jolenekoh(:
musical's ended.
and i'm dead beat.
time to rest before school reopens on mon.
don't know what to say as yet.
stunned by my own thoughts.
BYE.
jolenekoh(:
i wanna spend a day at the zoo or the night safari.
anyone?
(:
jolenekoh(:
initially i wanted to post an entry bout someone, but i decided against it. cause it seems so, wrong. well, it's not right. i'll just have to make do with it, adapt to the environment and, keep calm always (:
yes sam, i'll rmb (:
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aft a talk, many words kept me thinking. well, there're some serious matters that i have to tend to, and i need the courage, the strength. i know that i can (:
okay i seriously need a dose of starbucks soon. HAHA
well, in a blink of the eyes, musical's just a day away. tmr's the final rehearsal and friday's the big day. many VIPs and of course the Board of Directors. whooooo, we better put up a good show !
still, some technical faults here and there td. releasing of the wrong song for one item, it's alr serious enough to spoil the whole show. so really pray hard that everything will run smoothly for both perf days !
can't wait to start school too !
cause that would mean that the june hols will be nearer ! haha weird for that comment, but i have my reasons (:
can't wait ! can't wait !
school and perhaps more starbucks with rahrah & xue !
:DD
jolenekoh(:
what more can i say?
emotions' like a roller coaster ride for me this few days. just listen to my rantings, but there're some things i rather keep to myself.
i feel like, not bothering at all. everything i do, i must do with care and caution. it feels so restricted ! i rather just blow everything away !
i wanna go away.
i wanan fly away.
jolenekoh(:
a happy day spent with the family !
FAMILY BONDING !!! mahjong-ed in the noon, and off to the airport for dinner ! haha SOUP RESTAURANT! yummy food, esp the samsui chicken & salad prawn. haha
& along came my favourite, STARBUCKS !
:D
wonderful day spent.
more photos? click here !
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and i found some random photos i took while studying for my final sem exams during chinese new yr. haha
look at my sister. haha she's upset that we're having exams during chinese new yr ! haha don't be trick, i'm not happy either (:
my lovely cousins
:D
jolenekoh(:
mixed feelings mixed feelings.
tired i guess? i just wanna let everything out, and rest, rest, rest.
well, i didn't know that it would hurt.
i didn't know that it would hurt at all.
all i can do is to look on helplessly.
i guess it wasn't meant to be?
goodbye
jolenekoh(:
oscar the grouch and his "scram" dustbin.
he never said anything to his dustbin.
thinking, he'd always be in the dustbin.
thinking, he can just throw trash in the dustbin.
thinking, the dustbin will always be around.
life plays cruel, sometimes even weird jokes on all of us.
it's like a move playing out before your very eyes.
moments wanted, moments missed.
funny how life passes us by, yet leave marks on us.
would oscar treasure the comforts of his dust bin?
jolenekoh(:
now all we can say to each other is
byebye, goodnight.
jolenekoh(:
haha been squeezing fabric paint from the tubes for the past 1 week. now i hate squeezing things out of tubes. the feeling jsut irks me ! HAHA
finally club crawl's over !
no more late nights. i hope.
(:
i just wanna speak to u like last time.
i need some PRIVACY !
BYE.
jolenekoh(:
disappointment.
i must say, it was disappointment that i felt for the past few days. disappointment in people's actions and reactions.
totally taken aback when i shld have just expected it. how am i going to face that fellow again? it feels so impossible. the friendship's broken, forever i guess. it's betrayal that i can't forgive, not anything else. people always tell me, to take it like as if nothing happened if the other party acts as if nothing happened.
i can't. i just simply can't take it like as if nothing happened.
disappointment. disappointment.
what more can i say? i wanted to give up, but seeing the many ways that i felt wasn't the time yet, i hung on.
yes i kinda screamed and shouted td. sorry, really sorry. but stand in my position and think. it just feels so not right. what are the rest doing when i was trying to hold time for them, when i tried to make the best way out for them?
whatever. i feel i shld stop venting anger out here, cos i will never know who will ever read it and put words into my mouth.
dilemma.
i'm in a dilemma.
yes everyone needs support.
i need one too.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !
i want to scream !!!!!!!!!!!
jolenekoh(:
what should i say? so many things, yet i don't know how to express it. everyone's busy, that includes me. hardly keeping up with my close buds, only those i see more often these few days.
never did i expect that i will keep on sleeping only at 4am this few days. advice i wanna follow, yet always failing to. wouldn't be surprised if i'm gonna fall sick anytime soon.
oh wells.
performance for club crawl tmr. gotta reach school early and all.
so.
BYE.
jolenekoh(:
be contented,
have faith in God.
i keep reminding myself.
but for the past few days,
i dared not pray bout the matter,
for i am afriad that the calling from the Lord is not what i want.
follow Him,
for He never waits.
who can i turn to,
but God,
for He is always there for me.
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emo.
can't help it.
i just need to let everything out.
jolenekoh(:
according to trish's blog, i'm supposed to do this.
thou she nv tag my blog. HAHA
- the tagging game -
"This is what you are supposed to do. Cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things about themselves as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog."
JOLENE's 6 weird habits.
- part of E420 shld know this: i get tired everytime i eat burger king. haha i don't how i don't know why, i guess it's coincidental. but nonetheless, i would said, burger king put sleeping pills into my meal. HAHA
- i would rather sleep than go shopping.
- i would definitely prefer chilling out at starbucks or catching a movie than to shop.
- amazing, i love shopping at POPULAR. yes, i'm serious, shopping for stationary (:
oh, and i love shopping for jackets too :D - i hate some of my own characteristics, but it somehow can't be changed, no matter how hard i try.
- now i go for real goods, even if i don't have enough money to spend. haha :/
so what do u think? are my habits weird? LOLs.
& i won't tag anyone to do it. so if u wanna do, then do lohh. LOLs.
"i duno how weird i am leh. too weird to figure out already. i knw one weird thing, i nv grow. haha" - SARAH limgekhong
:D
i have cute, lovable friends ard me. HAHA
:DD
jolenekoh(:
i'm still awake ):
i still can't get to sleep early.
AHHHHHHHHH.
benny hinn's svc was fabulous !!
:DD
an amazing experience for me ! but i didn't expect it to end so late laaaa. in the end wenrui and i went off first and we walked to kallang stat. lols.
BUT to think pam can reach hme earlier than me la !
grrrr.
tmr tmr. last svc!
:D
jolenekoh(:
AICB got silver.
a miracle i must say, unexpected.
God answers prayers, prayers of faith.
:D
loves.
can't wait for this week's svc !
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outing with cg to vivo was fun td, thou i only had two & a half hrs of sleep only. ahhhhhhhhh lols. and SYF was good good good.
:D
sarah joined me for the 2nd half of the noon session and also CG outing. haha haven't seen her for a week ! we better have an outing soon ! cos in 2 weeks time, school's reopening !
((:
can't wait.
i just want a carefree, happy life.withyou.
jolenekoh(:
everyone's not happy.
mummy's not happy.
daddy's not happy.
comm's not happy.
oh wells.
my head's not happy either.
it's screaming out in pain !
at least now, daddy and mummy are happier cause i came hme earlier ytd.
:/
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thursday. 8am.
GOOD LUCK AICB !
i need rest ! ample rest !
embrace in His love.
His blood never fails (:
jolenekoh(:
there are many things that one would never know.
it's up to you to find out.
jolenekoh(:
EASTER WAS GREAT !
haha FAST AND PRAYER !
i had a great easter weekend with my cg and friends. haha all those laughing and balloon taking. had wanted to go for the last 2 services td, but mummy didn't allow so i had to stay hme.
):
tmr marks the first day of SYF 2007.
8am.
so min, sam, dororin and i decided to have a stayover so that all of us can get to SCH tmr before 8AM to get tickets. HAHA
lalalalala can't wait! this's the first time i'll be sitting at the audience area ! cos poly doesn't have SYF anymore.
could still rmb very clearly what happened on SYF 2005. everyone went off the stage smiling, including ms chan !
:D
alright. that's it.
BYE.
P.S. sarah limgekhong, if u happen to read this,
rmb that we'll always be here for you.
and happy days are ahead of you.
smile my dear girl (:
jolenekoh(:
all i can do is to put on a mask.
look at you and pretend nothing's happened at all.
smile and laugh along,
looking and pretending helplessly.
all i can do is to divert my attention,
change my direction,
and tell myself, give up.
i feel so confused.
smtg that happened two yrs ago,
is surfacing in my memory now.
all i want is to forget all unhappiness.
is it that difficult?
all i want is someone to be there for me.
jolenekoh(:
it's amazing how friends can just easily let you go and forget bout everything.
i can't say it didn't hurt me at all,
but well, promises are meant to broken i guess.
jolenekoh(:
next week. will be horrible i guess !
:/
moving from audi to bandrm,
or from bandrm to sports hall,
EVERYDAY ?!
tired.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !
i'm getting irritated too.
why am i always the one making scarifices to accomodate her ?! alright, i shld be glad that i have her in my life.
ahhhhhhhhhh ! she's my dearest mommy !
):
&&& can he just stop bothering me ?! i don't wanna hear him complain anymore ! he's causing me lesser sleep ! and more rubbish in my ears ! &&& ahhhhhhhhh ! JUST STOP PESTERING ME !
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.!!!!
jolenekoh(:
how do you spell happiness ?
how do you spell relief ?
how do you spell relaxation?
how do you spell fun?
sigh.
jolenekoh(:
the last item that's still on me,
that remains the memories of me & him,
will be kept away soon.
wednesday, wednesday.
it's time i guess,
i guess it's time for me to let go completely.
two years,
an end to two years.
; spectacles.
i still miss you.
i'll rmb you for life.
jolenekoh(:
the heart has numbed.
jolenekoh(: