woot~~
Thursday, April 28, 2005

woot~ woot~!!!

i finally get to come online again!!!

AHHHHHH!!! wahahaz.

hahaz rmbed ytd i actually was nearly LATE!!

stephy called mii` when i was on e bus.

den suddenly she tell mii` bell ring alr!!

omg.

hahaz.

i was still on e bus wif sing ying n wanqi.

hahaz. n guess wat?

once we alighted fr e bus we actually ran!

to sch. wahz. 1st time!

bleahss. nearly late. hahaz.

we squeezed thru the sch gate lik a rubber band.

lolz. but today i wasn't late so better dun b late tmr. hahaz.

today reached hm at rnd 8plus 9 liddat.

coz band ended ltr.

bleahss.. omg.

juz rmbed. mel yeo actually dropped my phone!!

into a puddle o water!!

OMG!! n e hp batt fell out.

wth. 1st time eh.

n somemore into a puddle o water.

goddamshit.

today can come online

is coz im doin my PI for PW.

hahaz. so i on my com n do

n seized e opportunity to go online loh.

wahahaz.

tis few days v bz n feel so shagged nw.

so much hw to do.

n u noe wat?

i actually had 3 tests today!

phy, chem n mathz.

all are dept test.

counted into our CA.

but i think i gonna fail chem n mathz arh.

at least my phy is okok.

unless i got wrong when i tot itz rite.

hahaz. hopefully itz not tis case.

but oso got back our GP graded essay today.

I JUZ PASSED!!

hahaz. quite happy larhs,

coz most o my classmates failed.

but if i had rmbed to write dw e other pts tat i left out

den i could hav scored better den 25 out o 50.

muhahaz.

muz work dam hard aft SYF.

comin soon.

which means itz endin soon.

haiz. tis sat goin to S.C.H. for rehearsal.

excited n nervous!!

haiz. nw i can only think o SYF n studies.

den aft SYF i can only think o catchin up wif Chem n Maths.

no time to think o other things.

tis mth n next mth i will hav too much things to think bout.

muz kip myself happy. =DDD

everyone muz tk care ok?? everyone's fallin sick

--singying, connie, stephy n huiqi

den recently mii` n mel yeo n mc startin to get tummy ache.

duno y.

n esp xiao huan. she fainted once.

pls tk care kk?

so everyone muz tk care ya?

hope to come online soon again.

gtg slp alr.

or else i'll b late lik ytd.

hahaz.

-blogged-

-silent prayers for tat special someone~

jolenekoh(:

______________________________ wth
Saturday, April 23, 2005

wth. duno wat did i eat. ended up wif tummy ache for lik 2 days. n visited e toilet for 14 times! ArGh!!!

finally i get to update my blog. itz e wkends again. soon another wk will b over n SYF will b here. hahaz. excited n scared. wahahaz.

got lots o things to sae de. but dun really rmb alr. hahaz. only rmb fr mon till yest stephy has owaes been sooo crazy n siaoz. hahaz. for no reason. hahaz. v hyper. den nw she owaes miss lessons coz o bball matches. hope she wun b missin out alot. wish her luck for all e matches!! gambatte!!!!

haiz. had been havin band pract everyday. v drained out alr n nw i havin diarrohae. haiz. fallin sick. stressed. connie has been asked to play piccolo n she not v willingin but itz only for SYF, so no worries kk =DDD

today had band too den aft tat went for lunch at deli wif part o my section. hahaz. deli's food is juz so nice. but when i told mom i ate deli, she got v worried. hahaz. coz e bread at deli is oso abit oily. bleahss. she scared my tummy cant tk it. esp nw when i juz ate smtg wrong. =P

comin thurs got 4 tests. gotta mug tmr. today is my restin day. hahaz. quite stressed bout sku work. esp chem. dun understand wat tat idiot mrs chan is teachin loh. can fire her not? wat's e use o havin a tcher who duno how to teach?!?!?! dammit arhz. wat luck to hav e lousiest tcher for all sub! darn`

forget it. shall enjoy my slp tonight n mug real hard tmr. ther shal b no tv fer mii` tmr until nite. bleahss. hope i can b determine. ooo.. nid do PW PI too!! gotta go do nw. =DDD

-blogged-

-silent prayers for tat special someone~

jolenekoh(:

______________________________ ArGh!!
Monday, April 18, 2005

juz changed my blogskin..

but changin again soon coz o e stupid blogger thingy.

itz in e way o my blog!!

dammit!

nvm. den i lazy to change e font color fr white to smtg else.

so if u wanna read my blog wif a white bkgrd..

i guess u hav to highlight it n read.

so sorry for e inconvience caused.

sorry.

gonna change it tmr.

sorrry.

gtg slp alr.

tmr hav to wake up early fer sku.

-blogged-

-silent prayers for tat special someone~

jolenekoh(:

______________________________ blogg
Sunday, April 17, 2005

i'm changin blogskin.. think tonight bahz. hope itz successful.

=DDD

jolenekoh(:

______________________________ missin him

life is so borin. everythin is in a routine. go to school. study, band pract. n -poof!!- one day is over.

i dunno wad's happenin ard me...

nothing's goin rite again.

i dun see wad's the pt o livin in this unfamiliar place.

i miss the ol' days...

all the fun i used to hv.

but it's juz not dere anymore.

jc life is so stressful.

Everyday dere's smtg to learn, memorise and apply...

all the stuff we are learnin are useless man.

Who cares abt kinematics and how the graph goes or the stupid bonds in btw atoms which we cant even see in real life.

Atoms, molecules, compounds, everythin's juz stuff we see.

i dun giddit.

Every day seems like a routine, the same stuff is happenin, lectures, tutorials, recesses, lunches...

and poof, another day is gone and done for...

every direction is like goin against me.

i cant walk alone...

seriously, i cant.

everyone deserves to be happy and i dun see why i'm so depressed...

it's time to move on...

i will try my best...

i will if i can...

-silent prayers for tat special someone~

jolenekoh(:

______________________________ band pract
Saturday, April 16, 2005

today got band pract till lik 7plus plus. juz nice he fin rug. lolz. but impt thing is band pract td.

td was e most fruitful one. one senior guy came bac. he damn pro! but tat JL kip bitchin. dun really lik. duh. she's so bitchy. he's not some cute guy but u so AA. obviously Ppl will lik- yucks! sorry but.. really sorry for being so blunt. but itz lik..ARgH. nvm.

aft band we went to Let's Eat to eat. lolz. td saw elmo lotsa times. lolz.

gtg slp alr. tmr muz wake up early n go qnzway collect jersey!! hope i dun over slp again. bleahss.

-blogged-

-silent prayers for tat special someone~

jolenekoh(:

______________________________ time pass
Friday, April 15, 2005

how i wish i got a time machine to let mii` travel back to e past. back to wher all my good memories are kept.

but itz ok itz alrite. as long as i hav dose memories in my heart, it'll nv nv nv ever fade. esp those happy days i lived -- in pri sku, in sec sku, e days i spent wif my section, e days i spent wif my pri sku clique, e days i spent in my '04 dec hols. n esp e days i spent in PJC during e 1st 3 mths.

hey guys n gurls o 05S12. u noe wat? i miss u all shooo much. tat 3 mths was soo fun. how i wish i hav u guys as my classmates again. we were united. but nw we are all in diff classes. all separated.

nw i rarely c e Ppl i miss n wanna c. -sad-sad-sad-sad-sad-sad-sad- life isnt e same w/o u ard. i duno wat e hell is goin on. everythin seems to b WRONG!! feelin sad n low n everythin nw. all bad feelings. none are good. someone pls come n save mii`. help mi`!! am i wastin my time? i really duno but i cant do it. i cant. i juz cant. not tat i dun wan but i cant. itz a torture! someone pls help mii`. i really nid help. by who? i duno. i duno. i really really duno. everythin juz seem meaningless to mii`. lik as if he cares. lik as if he noes. so y shld i care? darn` life sux nw. sux sux sux. wah. hate tat gurl. she lik pouring herself to guys liddat loh. wth. if only i can do smtg. if only i could. if only....

jolenekoh(:

______________________________ time files

time really flies fast.. yest was A.I. band's SYF. got a silver. but think dey shld hav gotten a gold. enuff o SYF n everything. sianz. lik long time nv come online alr. noe y? coz so bz wif sku work n everythin. n oopz! my dad's not hm!! shit shit. i nid him to sign a form!! die. tmr muz hand it. haiz. forget it. juz dun care.

-blogged-

-silent prayers for tat speacial someone~

jolenekoh(:

______________________________ late alr
Monday, April 11, 2005

kk..itz so late alr. i ought to b slpin. i noe. but i juz cant help it. hahaz. juz felt lik bloggin eh.

e yellow color really sux against my blogskin sia. not gonna use tat color again. hahaz. miss him lots. lots. lots. guess i get e meanin o some things alr. hmmz.. duno larhs. itz lik..eh. tis is not i wanna blog bout!! but i forgot wat i wanna blog bout....wait. lemme think.

hmmz..e song beautiful soul n scarr?? hmmz.. both r nice songs.. ya. so wat? hmmx.. dun rmb wat i wanna blog larhs. juz noe tat i was angry wif someone larhs. dun really lik Ppl who r fickle minded eh. duno y. itz lik i'll get irritated lo..lik when dey suddenly dun wan tis dun wan tat or cant mk up their mind. things liddat. den pls lo Ppl. if u all wan to ask smtg or wanna plan smtg, pls ask e Ppl on ur own can? dun kip mkin mii` do e askin lehz. i really feel very very irritated loh. not only one person do tat to mii` loh. itz lik 2 o u loh. if u readin my blog, u may or may not get my meanin. but i dun care, i juz wan to type it out. darn` really hate it loh. if u wan den ask em urself. if u dun wanna ask den dun even think of wantin it. lik goin out or plannin some things. it really mk mii` feel lik an idiot when no one replies mii`. n u noe wat? when itz successful but not fun n not workin out, Ppl will think is i ask em out one or wat den it'll b lik my fault if itz wastin their time. n u noe wat?!?! tat's when i wanna peace Ppl out!!! not my fault become my fault. lik scrape goat liddat. i dun think u'll lik e feelin rite?!?!?!?!? so do it urself larhs! dun mk other Ppl e scrape goat lehz! n i'll b lik goin ard tellin Ppl itz not mii` itz not mii` liddat. STUPID LOH!!!

!@#$!%

n i hate e life im livin nw. no excitement, nth to look forward to nw xcept SYF. owaes gettin nagged even thou im doin e right things. cant do tis cant do tat. muz go hm very early even if band ends lik at 9?!?!? PAPA MAMA, U ALL DUN WANNA MII` TO EAT IZIT?!?!?! WANN MII` TO STARVE TO DEATH IZIT?!!??! CANT STAND IT MANZ. CANT STAND IT. 9 PLUS FINISH BAND DEN U WAN MII` REACH HM AT 10 IZIT?!?! PLS LOH. THINK IF I GO HM STRAIGHT AFT BAND OSO CANT REACH HM AT 10 LARHS!! TOLD U FOLKS B4 NW IS TOUGH CRISIS FOR BAND N U STILL DUN UNDERSTAND IZIT?? PLS LA, pls try to understand.

gtg slp liaoz. v late le. nitez~

-blogged again-

-silent prayers for myself~

jolenekoh(:

______________________________ cant stand it

i juz cant stand some Ppl larhs. owaes mk mii` angry liddat. damnit. feel lik smackin their face sia. better dun sae out their names. peace 'em sia.

[Emotions... music is about displaying emotions... just feel the music... the best music touches the heart... throw yourself into the music... get into the atmosphere... heard of rehearsals of famous orchestras in the past that when they rehearse a sad piece and really get into the mood... after the piece finishes, they'll break into tears. Music is that powerful, don't ever underestimate the power of music.]

tis was extracted fr someone's blog. im puttin it here coz i find it meaningful. go find out whose blog it came fr if u wanna noe. music... really mks e world go rnd. without music itz lik livin in a world o silence. can u imagine livin in a world o silence? i cant.

the person oso said tat

[Hope people will understand ... Music is about touching the audience... not getting a medal... what's the point if you can play all the notes on the page and not make any music?]

tis is very true. really hope Ppl will understand. but tat doesnt mean we shldn't work hard. pls dun get e wrong meanin. workin hard to get a medal is smtg. n feelin e music is another thing. understand Ppl. understand.

playin my flute really brings my spirit up. when im feelin low n blue, i'll play it n it really mks mii` feel happy. guess is coz i love e sound o it. it really calms mii` down. i duno wat to do w/o my flute. if only everyone can enjoy n appreciate e magic o music. isn't it wonderful if everyone can feel thru e music?

sometimes Ppl are juz too engrossed in gettin a medal, dey tend to forget how to enjoy music.

-blogged again-

-silent prayers for all band members in e world~

jolenekoh(:

______________________________ 25 days to SYF

kk.. td nth much happened. hahaz. juz tat tis few days e weather dam hot manz.

juz cut my fingernails n dey dun seem appealin to mii`!!! ArGh!!! kk.. nvm. no one will notice it anyway. hahaz. hmmz.. wat did i wanna blog abt huh?

lemme think..

ooo.. yest my dad bbq-ed!! at HM!! can ya imagine? hahaz. n mc actually tot i lived in a terrace! hahaz.. it will b sooo cool if i live in terrace manz.

hmmz.. tmr got sku. sianz. nw tv got e NKF charity show. nw i noe how time really flies..soon SYF will b over. den we'll b preparing for our promos. den we'll b in yr2 when u dun even notice it. damn`

tis fri is peiying's annual sports day n qi ask mii` to go..but got sku. duno can mk it not. got band oso. i dun wanna miss band pract eh. mayb i go for dinner wif em aft tat or wat lo. hmmz.. still got 25 days to SYF eh. muz pract hard.

to those whose SYF is comin up - good luck to all o u!! =DDD

-blogged-

-silent prayers for tat special someone~

jolenekoh(:

______________________________ beautiful soul
Sunday, April 10, 2005

title: Beautiful Soul

By: Jesse MCcartney

[Chorus]

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold

I don't want my love to go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase

You're the one I wanna hold

I wont let another minute go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special

To you I'd be always faithful

I want to be what you always needed

Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold

I don't want my love to go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase

You're the one I wanna hold

I wont let another minute go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah

You might need time to think it over

But im just fine moving forward

I'll ease your mind

If you give me the chance

I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold

I don't want my love to go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase

You're the one I wanna hold

I wont let another minute go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

Am I crazy for wanting you

Baby do you think you could want me too

I don't wanna waste your time

Do you see things the way I do

I just wanna know if you feel it too

There is nothing left to hide

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold

I don't want my love to go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase

You're the one I wanna hold

I wont let another minute go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah

jolenekoh(:

______________________________ td

wanted to blog last nite. den fin typin liaoz but cant post. lucky my blogger got save it. whew~ hahaz. but i oso think my msn got prob sia. n i seriously think my com kena virus. haiz. duno larhs. only noe my com nw v laggy. -sianzation-

td is sat. mornin went to bugis den reached hm at 1plus liddat. nth to do so pract flute den come online lo. hahaz. ltr mii` gonna study chem n phy n do maths tut. hahaz. i so guai hor. bleahss =P

was thinkin.. n thinkin.. n thinkin.. n i rmb.. next wk got band pract fro duno how many days n comin wed is ai band's SYF!!! OMG. time really past v quickly. haiz. duno got time to go bac n support em not.. nvm. will try to find time. haiz. den e 2wks aft next i got band pract everyday!!! omg.. can u imagine?!?! but i dun mind scarficin for SYF larhs. hahaz. nw till SYF only left wif 3wks ++ gotta pract hard. gotta pract hard.

so sianz. so sianz.

-blogged-

-silent prayers for tat special someone~

jolenekoh(:

______________________________ band
Saturday, April 09, 2005

kk.. today went sku as usual. den mornin gt 2 hrs break! hahaz. did revision n phy tutorial. hahaz. den sku ended at 3.30pm. haiz. den went for band till 9PM!!! can u imagine?!?! but it was fun larhs. im playing flute 2. not so bad la. hahaz. v fun. hahaz.

in band today mii` n c----- tok alot n tat n----n knew it n told j------ to ask we all to kip quiet. den ok lo. kip quiet lo. nvm one. but e thing is j------ oso tok wat!!! n other sections de ppl oso tok wat!!! wah laoz eh.. only sae us.. feel lik scolding him back larhs! but as junior i noe itz not gd to scold a senior so i kip quiet lo. dammit. cant tk it la!!

nvm. forget it. wheee~~ i get to bring hm my flute today!! whee~~~ hahaz. so excited.. wahahaz. cant wait for tmr so tat i can play. wahahaz!!

-blogged-

-silent prayers for tat special someone~

jolenekoh(:

______________________________ AVRIL LAVIGNE LYRICS
Wednesday, April 06, 2005

title: "My Happy Ending"

by: Avril Lavigne

So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over

It's not like we're dead

Was it something I did?

Was it something You said?

Don't leave me hanging

In a city so dead

Held up so high

On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends

I know what they say

They tell you I'm difficult

But so are they

But they don't know me

Do they even know you?

All the things you hide from me

All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

[Chorus]

It's nice to know that you were there

Thanks for acting like you cared

And making me feel like I was the only one

It's nice to know we had it all

Thanks for watching as I fall

And letting me know we were done

[Chorus x2]

[x2]

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

jolenekoh(:

______________________________ special day!!

hahaz. since yu` sae white font nicer so i gonna use white den! =)

so sianz today. gt our new confirmed timetable today. haiz. everyday end so late la. darn` so sian loh. wah laoz. even worse is thurs end at 5, how to go back ai c nn n peni?!!?!??! dammit! wah laoz. cant stand it manz.

today lotsa lectures but itz e last day o e lec wk! gonna miss em manz. hahaz. went for chem mk up lec but i kinda din concentrate. dam tired arh. den aft tat i went for e econs mk up lec n go disturb jeff n han. wahahaz. i noe i v bad larhs. but tat idiot jeff disturb mii`more larhs! ARgH!! spill my beans out o e bag manz. n he sae he only spill it out in front o mii`. wth la.. next time dun stand too close to him liaoz. hahaz.. but nvm larhs. hahaz. i got his locker combi! can go n kope e sweets fr his locker manz. wahahaz. bleahss =p

haiz. tat idiot forgot to bring his yr bk for mii` again. haiz. duno ish he no mind or wat larhs. but one yr bk can kip forgettin to bring one arh? feel lik smackin him larhs.

feelin so bloody dam hot nw. nv on e fan. hahz. tot not gonna b tat hot manz. guess i was wrong. anyway we J1s still cant purchase e new uni yet. dun really rmb y but vp sae mid april liddat can buy liaoz. hahaz. so excited to c e new uni la..!! bleahss...

haiz sianz. tmr 1st lesson is CLAO. class only got mii` nv tk. sianz. steph la. kena physco by ppl to go n tk. haiz. den aft tat is PE. den aft tat is PHY!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!! I DUN WANNA C HER SOOOO SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN~

den aft tat got band. sianz sia. kena tied down to band sia. but nvm larhs. hopefully can get into SYF lohz. tat's e only thing i lookin forward to nw. life seems so meaningless to mii` nw. darn` haiz. s21 kena all e lousiest tchers in e sku 4 all sub den itz lik wah laoz. y so suay?!?! dam. really feel tat life is soooo meaningless nw. haiz.but at least nw still got 2 things to look forward to.

anyway today i duno y i lik v crazy liddat. hahz. at 1st v sianz one den aft phy lec is pw lec den v happy liddat den aft tat i start to get crazy liaoz. hahaz. hahaz. love jeff lots sia! enjoy e times we spend tgt. hahaz. mk mi forget bout my woes. lolz.

sis nw still not hm. juz sms mii` tat she's waitin for cab. wahahaz. nw everyone lik love to tk cab sooo much liddat. hahaz. gtg slp soon.. bleahss.

-blogged-

-silent prayers for tat special someone~

jolenekoh(:

______________________________ qnzway
Monday, April 04, 2005

hahaz. i actually lik e white colour font on my blog but it seems too bright liddat so i think i better change it to purple. hahaz.

today went to queensway to settle our class jersey. hahaz. watchin turn left turn right nw. [784533] [763092] hahaz. watched it in cinema b4 n it really brings back lotsa memories. hahaz. memories....

actually today supposed to meet steph yh n kenneth at je at 12.30 but i overslept!! darn` all coz i slept late last nite. haiz. tmr hav to go sku alr. gotta study hard! u too kk..

hahaz. tmr go sku gonna wear e PJC full u. duno wan wear tie not. hahaz. hav to larhs. but mii` n steph thinkin o not wearin. hahaz. wear e tie v funy mahz. lolz

haiz. miss all e gurls fr 05s12 alot alot! esp audrey, yet, peilin, ailin. haiz. dey were sooooo fun larhs. haiz. miss em n him lots.

-wish em all e best in their future endeavours.

-silent prayers for tat special someone.

-n not forgettin my darling isabel!! -good luck for all ur future exams kk =DDD

jolenekoh(:

______________________________ siansation
Sunday, April 03, 2005

so sian so sian. juz nw heart pounded until nearly jump out. hahaz. actually i lik got 1 wk nv come online liaoz. but his nick is still e same. sianz. hahaz.

gif a damn? dun gif a damn? gif a damn? dun gif a damn? oopz he's bz at e moment. hahaz. dun disturb him. i oso v tired liaoz. waitin for isabel darling to b bac at her com to cfm smtg wif mii`. hahaz. she watchin tv arh. hmmz. she ask mi wan go out wif e mason OGL not. hahaz. wat a strange qns. duh. only noe lik a few o em. duno lahz. c 1st. duno wan go study or go qnzway. v tired. if wan peace is go study. if wan squeeze here n ther is go qnzway. haiz. cant mk up my mind. hey isabel darlin. so sorry for mkin u sooo worried bout mi last nite. i love u lotss~!! bleahss. hahaz. n i promised nn to stay happy so i muz not break my promise. wahahaz. nn soooo cute! hahaz. long time nv write in my diary liaoz. kip bloggin only. heez. so guilty. wahhaz.

so sian larhz. fallin aslp..

-zz ZZ z Z zz Z zz ZZ z ZZ z

hahaz.

-silent prayers for tat someone-

jolenekoh(:

______________________________ today

today... all J1s hav to do CIP. go ard e estates to collect old newspaper n clothes. each class did 3-5 blks. quite fun larhs. hahaz. went ard all e apartments n knock knock on e door. hahaz. reminds mii` o yr 2003 tat time when mii` n frenz did some flyer thingy. hahaz. den aft tat went to han's hse alter our skirt. hahaz. den aft tat we watched e day aft tmr! so nice arh e show. wahahaz.

hmmz. yest i was dam dam dam dam sad n felt v low loh. was somehow demoralised durin band n den u noe u noe. hahaz. den heard fr kailing tat all our STs r e lousiest tchers in e whole sku. dammit la. wah laoz. so SUAY larhs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz. cried at hm. really cant stand it liaoz. at least i reached hm den cry. haiz. tis few days duno wat happened la. he dun gif a damn larhs.

so sianz. den today chris posted mi a damn damn damn difficult qns larhs. wah laoz. duno how to ans manz.

so sianz. so sianz.

dam. smtg wrong wif mi. damn dam damn dam. ok im goin nuts nuts nuts n bonkers bonkers bonkers. wahahaz. heart poundin. beatin faster n faster. hahaz. im gettin more n more excited!!!!!!!!!!! wahahaz

-blog again ltr

-silent prayers for tat special someone~

-bleahss-

jolenekoh(:

______________________________