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Wednesday, November 30, 2005

hmms.. know what? i seriously think that guys are materialistic. not materialistic in terms of the clothes and all. but in terms of girls.
ok i know many guys are gonna object violently to this.
but wait!
i didn`t say that all guys are materialistic.
only some. only some are materialistic.
i`ve seen guys who ain`t materialistic.
hmms if u think i`m talking cock then don`t read too much into this entry.
hehe.
this are my own comments and thoughts la.
so no offense ok?
=)

hmms
can u imagine?!
another mth of e` hols is gone just liddat!!!
heck!
tmr`s 1st dec.
and soon sch will reopen again.
damn it.
i just hate it when e` hols pass so quickly.

sectionals today was tiring. i must admit.
but i was enlightened, at least i know i tried my very best to pract as much as possible.
but i wsn`t quite happy.
but who cares?!
i feel lik giving `em a gawddamnkick in e` ass.
watever, lik i sae, who cares?!

+ end of entry +
xoxo

jolenekoh(:

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Sunday, November 27, 2005

i`m sooo happy!!
i`m on cloud nine!!
i`m so fucking happy!!
woops sorry for tat F word. hehe.
too happy.

muahhahas
hav been watchin videos tis whole aftnoon.
juz watch e` sea games opening.
ok la.. not v nice thou.
only love the contingents march pass..
lols.

goin to pass singying her flute n e` scores ltr.
so yupp..
i`m so happy!!!
muhahahahs dun ask me y..
but i`m juz sooooooo gawddamnfreaking happy!!
muhahahas

+ on cloud nine +
xoxo

jolenekoh(:

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Saturday, November 26, 2005

ok.. i`m v angry nw.. so if u don`t wish to read vulgarities then close e` window nw.

i`m so fucking angry with e` teachers!! wasn`t e` 1st grping juz nice?!?! weren`t everyone happy bout it?!?! wat the heck.
juz coz o` ur fucking convenience u change it until lik a pile of fucking shit!!! i bet not only me is angry ok!!
!@#$%
nw e` no o` yr2s in the 4 diff grps are unbalanced loh!! one grp got only 2 while the other grps got 8!!
!@#$%
nw alot o` ppl are separated fr their closer frens// u think we`ll be happy meh?!!
go hk muz happy happy ma. nw so angry.
nw i`m questioning e` organisation skills o` e` teachers and whether they have our hearts in mind. watthefuck. i wonder why tis kinda ass-brains can become teachers.

sorry for all e` vulgarities. anyone reading tis muz understand tat i`m juz shooting my mouth and may change my perceptions. but i`m still fucking angry.

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xoxo

jolenekoh(:

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Wednesday, November 23, 2005

i feel so useless and hopeless nw. i seem lik i`m losing my best fren too. i can`t seem to get everything into place.

life is so vulnerable.

life sucks.

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xoxo

u left me halfway, leaving me alone to walk this dark, never-ending stretch of road. nvm. i can`t bother u for the rest of ur life.. i`ll be independent..

jolenekoh(:

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Sunday, November 20, 2005

here are some pics we took during e` chalet. not all thou. *click for a clearer view*

hahas grossy raw frog legs. muhahas taken at giant supermarket by mc..

e` moon before sunrise.

sun rising soon!!!!

still quite dark at tat pt o` time..

tat cloud there. u see?? it`s blocking e` sun la.. *humph*


finally e` sun rose.. hahas but still kena blocked leh. but i lik e` scenery.
aft book out, at bedok mrt stat. btw my hair sucks in there. sucks big time man!!!

ok..my hair is way better in here but it still juz sucks la..lol.

chalet was damn fun la.. hope to hav another one eh.. hahas.

gonna miss u guys soooooooo much next yr man.
haiz.. hope everything will be resolved and still remain e` same.



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xoxo

jolenekoh(:

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wah lau eh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can`t stand blogger eh. duno wat i do then my whole blog lik kena striked liddat. esp the part on my profile. e` dates haven even over, i didn`t even put strike den they striked for me. i duno wat i typeed wrongly or wat la. heck la.
*scream out loud!!! *
*strangle blogger*

=X

wanna change blogskin soon. muhahas.

sted leaving for mount k tmr. muahahas. dun fall down hoh. lol. =P

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xoxo

jolenekoh(:

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Saturday, November 19, 2005

okok slept well last nite. ha. so nw i`m gonna talk bout e` chalet!! 2 words - damn fun!

3 days 2 nite. nth to do means dai dee or royal rumble ( duno spelt correctly not) hahas. obviously tat`s not all tat we did.
nite cycling was damn cool. 10 guys n 4 gurls. hahas
but it was spoilt by e` rain.
ha sted kept fallin down
( oops i`m sorry for disclosing tis secret =x)

day1
we cycled ard ecp during e`day. bbq at nite and at midnite, we wanted to cycle all e` way to pasir ris. no one was in e` chalet on e` 1st nite, coz e` whole lot o` us set off fr our chalet rm, cycled thru ecp, along changi airport way, rested along e` way, thru changi park, toilet break at e` park and finally arrived at changi v at bout 2plus. ha. e` journey along e` changi airport was e` most tiring one coz it was juz a straight road down n u can`t see e` end. but it was damn fun. we could see e` planes takin off. no planes landed tat day. muahahas

aft supper n rest, we con`t to head towards pasir ris at 3. sadly, e` weather turned hostile. beads o` rain started landin on our head. damn. rain. we cycled to e` nearest bus stop and we waited.
waited.
waited..
waited...
and we waited for a whole 3hrs plus!!! fr 3plus to 7plus i think. wah. e` rain was gettin smaller n bigger n smaller n bigger. man. it was a wait o` a lifetime. we were shivering lik mad. cold wind blew at us. finally e` guys had no choice but to send us gurls back 1st. e` guys den raced back to ecp asap, in e` rain. i juz came outta e` shower and the guys were back shivering lik mad, so mag made hot milo for em`. weren`t they glad. hahas. //they were v proud that they completed the changi airport journey in only 15mins// their clothes were darn dirty, coz of e` rain n mud. so they took off their shirts and went off to e` public toilet to bathe while 4 guys stayed to shower in e` chalet.

then everyone slept. merely no one was active. ha. all so shagged.

when we all woke up, all e` guys went to parkway parade or smtg. can`t rmb, leaving me n yp alone in e` chalet. hahas. soon aft freaky6 came. they didn`t really interacted with us. so nvm. hahas. then bbq again hahas bbq 2 days eh..

at bout 9plus, john, cx, yh, ck went back to loyang ave (oppo SIA engineering company) to retrieve the last 4 bikes. hahas they came back proud. coz nw they finished the changi airport journey within 13mins, breaking their previous record of 15mins. lol. by the time they came back, it was midnite. so we met "e` rescue team" at mac, leaving yp darren n jiahong at e` chalet. (i`m feeling guilty, but is they wanna slp one ma. hehe) we had supper at mac n we decied to go for a game of pool. played fr 1plus to 3plus eh. then we decided to hav a short nite cycle. but yh n lj went back to e` chalet to hav anchor beer. -.-

duno wat to do aft cycling so we decided to hav a lil` nite picnic. lol. we wanted to get all the food outta e` chatlet, sit at e` area outside e` fenced area of e` chalet, chit chat and all. and we did! hahas. didn`t slp u noe. aft awhile left only mc, mag, gy, josiah, cx, sted and me la.. hahas. e` rest buay tah han den go back n slp. then at bout 6.15 i think, we went to e` beach to look at sunrise, leaving cx slping on the bench. ha. he oso buay tah han alr.

sunrise. damn kuku la!! e` cloud blocked e` sun la! den over at e` other side e` sun rise liaos loh. but we can`t see due to e` blocking cloud. damn it la! luckily we decided to go back or else duno how long we gonna wait man. hhaahas. den we went back n talk in e` chalet. tried to catch some slp. hahas.

aft booking out and all, we went to imm for lunch. lol. then i went for band at 4. -.- so tired. nearly fell asleep during combine la! but i didn`t. or else sanjay will mk fun outta me.. ahhahahah. bascially tat`s all. lol. not that detailed thou. ask me personally for more details la! lol.

+ end of entry +
xoxo

jolenekoh(:

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Friday, November 18, 2005

wahahahas.. o5s21 rox to e` core!!! gonna miss u guys aft i leave e` college man..

juz came back fr our class chalet (o5s21). damn fun!! hahas bbq, nite cyclin and all. can nv forget this chalet man.. really enjoyed myself lik mad!!!!!!

erm can i update lik tmr? hahas aft checkin out, we went for lunch @ imm. ha then i didn`t had e` time to go hme n rest and all. so i went to mag`s hse to bath. ha so paiseh. then i went straight to sch for band. muhahas. feelin tired nw. so i guess i shall go into details bout e` chalet tmr ok? hehe..

+ o5s21 juz rox to e` core +
xoxo

jolenekoh(:

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Thursday, November 10, 2005

life is so vulnerable.

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xoxo

jolenekoh(:

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Tuesday, November 08, 2005

In kindergarten your idea of a good friend was the person

who let you have the red crayon when all that was left was the ugly black one.

In primary one, your idea of a good friend, was the person

who went to the washroom with you and held your hand as you walked through the scary halls.

In primary two, your idea of a good friend was the person

who helped you stand up to the class bully.

In primary three, your idea of a good friend was the person

who shared their lunch with you when you forgot yours, you left on the bus.

In primary four, your idea of a good friend was the person

who let you copy the social studies homework that you forgotten to do the previous night.

In primary five, your idea of a friend was the person

who saved a seat on the back of the bus for you.

In primary six, your idea of a friend was someone

who comforted you and lent their shoulder to you when you received your PSLE results.

In secondary one, your idea of a friend was the person

who helped you to pass the ''love letter'' to your crush/stead.

In secondary two, your idea of a good friend was the person

who comforted you when you broke up with your boy/girl friend,

saying that the person is not even worth of your tears.

In secondary three, your idea of a good friend was the person

who would come over to your house and help you decide on which clothes to wear on your first date, although she had her date waiting for her.

In secondary four, your idea of a good friend was the person

who would help you in the O levels' examination when you had chicken pox and on the examination day, you recovered but your friend had the disease and had to stay home for a week.

Now, your idea of a good friend is still the person

who gives you the better of the two choices, holds your hand when you're scared, helps you fight off those who try to take advantage of you, thinks of you at times when you are not there, reminds you of what you have forgotten, helps you put the past behind you but understands when you need to hold on to it a little longer, stays with you so that you have confidence, goes out of their way to make time for you, helps you clear up your mistakes, helps you deal with pressure from others, smiles for you when they are sad, helps you become a better person, and most importantly loves you!

Thank you for being a friend. No matter where we go or who we become, never forget who helped us get there. There's never a wrong time to pick up a phone or send a message telling your friends how much you miss them or how much you love them.

Remember always to say what you mean. Never be afraid to express yourself. Take this opportunity to tell someone what they mean to you. Seize the day and have no regrets. Most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today.

jolenekoh(:

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Sunday, November 06, 2005

here`s smtg for a lil` laugh..

Life Stages:
1 day - 5 yrs : Inadvertent Spills
6 yrs - 16 yrs : Pickup survival Skills
17 - 20 yrs : Undergo Drills
21 - 25 yrs : Experience Thrills
26 - 40 yrs : Pay Bills (for the thrills experienced)
41 - 60 yrs : Suffer Ills
61 - 75 yrs : Take Pills
76 yrs & Past : Prepare Wills

funny? ok nvm hahas//

i packed my messy rm just nw. hurr hur i`m so proud of myself. bleahss.

+ end of entry +
xoxo

jolenekoh(:

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Saturday, November 05, 2005

i was listening to the theme song of the movie all about love. it`s sang by andy lau. hahas listen to the song can cry man. but if u haven`t watch the show, u may not feel like crying la. hehe. so damn nice. the song fr the movie the myth, by jackie chan, is also damn damn nice. it`s sang by jackie chan and the korean actress, jin xi shan.. damn nice the song.. hehe

o ya.. i wanna wish xiao qi, my sec sch ah bu.. and cai xiang.. a happy birthday!!!
happy birthday to u~
happy birthday to u~
happy birthday to xiao qi and cai xiang..
happy birthday to u!!!

enjoy ur day (:

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xoxo

jolenekoh(:

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are we really that small a fry to u?? do u know that some lil` things that u do really mk ppl feel insulted. and i, or rather we, feel that u ought to change that egoism in u. think bout it.

nowadays i`ve not been myself. i feel so hopeless and useless. i can`t even really have some real fun.. i`m just so affected by the situation now, so tied down. haizz, i made this mess outta myself. who to blame, but myself. watever

+ whatelsecanisay +
xoxo

jolenekoh(:

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Friday, November 04, 2005

sometimes i ask myself this qns: "why are there humans in earth? why are huans born? what`s the main purpose to live on, to bring life to earth?" i duno. really duno.

sometimes in life, i really feel hopeless, useless, and that life is meaningless. but ppl sae we live on to search for happiness and give hope to others. i duno how far i believe in it. coz what i only see in life now is competition, over every single thing that ppl can fight for. so is this what life is meant to be?!?!

life sometimes became so meaningless to me that i`ll think bout ending my life. simple. is this hope? not at all..

life is juz soooooo unfair. i`m doing alomost all of the housework, and she? shopping..go out with frens..clubbing.. trucksloadofbullshit !!!!!!!!! and know what?!?! she gets all the new and good stuff.. i get all the used stuff. u know what`s her reason of holding onto the mp3? coz i don`t listen to music. bullshit!!!! and u know what?!?! she didn`t get promoted a yr ago, but she wasn`t scolded or anything liddat. FUCK LA!! and do u guys stop to listen to me? no! and u know wat? u guys are forcing me to go poly. can i just stop studyin?!?!?!?! and coz of her, next time i cannot stay out until morning then come hme. and juz ne she said smtg real hurtful. she sae u goin to leave the sch alr den y still go hk wif the band. talking bout this i really feel lik killing her. how i wish i can go hk n nv come back. fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u

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xoxo

i really need someone by my side, a shoulder to lean on. this seat beside me has been empty, waiting for that someone to warm it up, waiting for the right person to sit on. but where is that someone? but where is the right person? but where are u??

jolenekoh(:

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Thursday, November 03, 2005

*gulp*
i didn`t know that news could spread so super-duper fast, esp. bad news. but whatever larhs..

went to picnic with my lil` couz td. but i was so damn damn angry with my sis larhs. ytd was mum`s bdae but she wasn`t hme until morning td. what`s this la?!?! then td we were supposed to go picnic but she went out wif her frens instead. F*** la. all thanks to her i was damn damn angry loh. she still dare to say the lunch vege not nice. juz eat la.

whatever.. goin sch tmr for technical run. then go watch all about love!!! andy lau!!!!!! yeah!!!

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xoxo

jolenekoh(:

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Wednesday, November 02, 2005

some pics of my cute lil` couzz.. photos are taken by e` professional photographer in my family.. -joanne koh!!- click on the pics to get a better view. hehe.

when my sis asked him to take pic.. he closed his eyes.. kids now..





mummy wanted sis to take pics of him while he poo pooing.. so.. yeah.. she keep saying that she`s not a child abuser.. hahas
hehe. my sis keep saying that she`s artistic. so wat do u guys think?


he is such a smart arse...!!! he had too much cake..and for his last piece of cake..he went to cut it into smaller pieces..so that he can seems like he is eating more...isn't he smart!!!?!?!!hahaa..


CUTE for a moment.....


they can be very sweet at one moment..and very nasty like monsters another moment....hahaa

hurhur.. my sis trying to be artistic with e` camera..hahaa


he's watching tv...totally oblivious of the things around him..even when watching advertisements...amazing...this gene runs in his family..

hehee...hahaa...dunnoe what he is up to..


ewww...he can be disgusting at times..hahaa...halfway thru playing..he started to dig his nose...hahaa..


he is sooo funny..when my mummy was talking about massage.. my mummy say "an moi"..chinese for massage...and this baby here...heard..and ask "elmo?? why elmo??"...so cuteee!!

hahhaa..look at him.......so adorable.........hahaa..


after bath.....kids will always be kids...they can play even with one useless paper too..

kids will always be kids. how i wish i can be a kid again. hahas.

+ end of entry +
xoxo

jolenekoh(:

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ok.. ph asked me to update. hahas
tis early morning @ 8am.. i had to reach sch for pw op rehearsal. damn it. so early la!!! couldn`t wake up. juz felt lik con`t dreamin and give an excuse to doris lim that i`m sick or watsoever. i didn`t of coz. i`m not so irresponsible u see. lol. but i was late lik hell. i only reached semb mrt stat at 8 la. hohoho. but nvm, coz when i reached sch, i found out that guangyi was later than me. harhar. the rehearsal was fine and mrs lim said i did good. whoo hoo!!! so happy. but cannot be too contented coz the actual op os on 9th nov!!! damn it. gonna be damn damn damn nervous.. hahas.

then we finished @ bout 10 plus. stayed in the canteen with mc and my. waited for parents to come down to sch to get my results. FUCK la.. the waiting time was a torture. lik slow death u know? the feeling is sooooooo damn idiotic. but what to do? who ask me not to study hard to get promoted. =( but my parents didn`t say anything but i know damn well that they are very very dissapointed. haiz.

then aft that we went to lot1 walk walk. saw jeff wif jasper. apparently jaspr rmb me as the purple crumpler bag. thanks alot huh. then i broke the news to `em that i got retained. and jasper said come nyp loh. i was like for what?! and he replied that i can wave hi to him if i see him coz ajc is right oppo nyp. thanks alot.
-.-
damn funy la. and jeff said that all those retainees-guys are good looking. oooo pls. i rather be in a class o` nerds than to be in a class of good lookers coz i want so much to be promoted. but wat`s done is done. i`ve got retained. watever.. anyway this yr`s retainees are not that good looking. hahas. no offence..

if God brings u to it, He`ll bring u through it.
God will open up a way for u.

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xoxo

jolenekoh(:

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