wth. they spoil my day.
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I LOVE YOU GIRLS !!! :D
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i feel. whatever you guys wanna say la. aft all, i didn't do anything. it was a mere comment from smtg that created the misunderstanding. and i wasn't the only one who think likewise. haha
i feel so tired recently. uproar of events and errmm complains. we gotta solve it soon. but HOW?
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i feel so lost now.
what shld i do?
keep up with it?
i feel like just keeping quiet.
but i want you to know so much.
so much.
so much.
i wanna talk to you.
i need sleep.
BYE.
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yeah yeah yeah! blogging from the new com! so happy!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !
and i need to change my specs alr.
any colours to recommend??
Labels: HAPPY
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all birds need a tree.
joy the bird needs one too.
joy the bird misses the tall big tree.
joy the bird chirps as loudly as possible.
joy the bird is lost somewhere.
joy the bird can't find the tall big tree anymore.
joy the bird misses the tall big tree.
joy the bird needs the tall big tree.
joy the bird wants to get back home.
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OH! i rmb what i actually wanted to blog bout alr ! haha i had the most peculiar dream last night. i dreamt that i went back to PJCSB and found out that their choice piece for SYF is danse diabolique.
:/
sigh, i haven't been back to PJC since like last yr laaa! i don't even know the condition of the band now. their choice piece and all. like so sad laaa. but the batches in JC always changes so quickly! how to keep up with it?!
i miss 2005 SYF.
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ahhhhhhhh. oh well, we took a cab from yew tee to yck td. and the ride was SO long and jerky! & i ended up feeling nausea. stupid cab driver. i don't like him at all! keep talking & talking only. so irritating!
okay, talking bout nausea, i'm getting the feeling AGAIN!
:(
BYE.
jolenekoh(:
haha i've made some interesting decisions!!!
so i'm gonna start working on it.
& i'm still thinking a lot lately. i just want to stop thinking bout everything!
i just want to speak of those words to you.
i just want you to know.
i just want you ard me.
but i guess it's difficult.
jolenekoh(:
oh my oh my! i'm SO HAPPY!
i can finally chuck this stupid OLD computer away on WED!
yes yes yes ! my dad finally bought a new computer! today! haha we kinda gave the salesman at harvey norman a headache! lols. hopefully i get a new printer too !
:DD
went to catch the movie Just Follow Law with mummy and daddy this noon! yes, slow i know. haha but i finally got time to catch a movie la! my last movie was curse of the golden flower i think ! hahaha
&&& pirates is coming again !!!!
can't wait !
:D
so many plans ahead of me!
; meetup with rah & gang
; meetup with hui & gang
; more sleepovers with min & gang!
; clean up my room HAHA
; more outings with family
; go out, shopping! i need the crowds!
; movies, movies & more MOVIES!
; starbucks, starbucks & more STARBUCK-ING!
; sleepovers, sleepovers & more SLEEPOVERS!
; mahjong, mahjong, & more MAHJONG!
; take time off to sleep ALL DAY !
haha maybe i shld include,
; start earning money again soon :/
yes i've kinda stopped working cos i feel that i really need the rest and catching-up times with my friends! haha
& i totally can't imagine ME not watching a movie for like so many months la! that's like so not me. yes I LOVE THE MOVIES! and i need to get it back soon !
meeting rah & xue tmr! like FINALLY. too bad trish can't make it. but we'll plan another day that she can!
tmr: girls' talk over.. starbucks? haha i guess that's most prob! haha
the BAN-MIAN GIRLS! and the sweet desserts that we had the other day, or rather some time ago. haha rmb those frog-eggs lookalike? HAHA
tmr tmr tmr!
BYE.
jolenekoh(:
sometimes truth hurts.
i wonder if i'll ever regret.
trying too hard.
oh well oh well oh well oh well. many thought running ard like little ants. oh well oh well oh well oh well oh well oh well oh well. sigh BIG SIGH.
truth hurts, but lies hurt EVEN more.
GET A LIFE MAN!
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i had a chinesegarden-lakeside adventure with PC td. haha we walked ! from chinese garden to liz's hse! haha imagine the feat! cos liz found it kinda impossible cos of the distance. BUT PC & I DID IT!
and we even reached liz's hse for CG like way earlier than others and we rotted there. lols. haha CG just lightens up my day!
:D
that's it for now.
gotta sleep soon!
BYE.
jolenekoh(:
sometimes i wonder,
how can one compares his/her own tiredness with others? how can one compares his/her own problems with others?
human. they tend to make their OWN problems or tiredness out to be BIG, HUMONGOUS in size. like it's the end of the world, just like making a mountain out of a small anthill.
i mean i don't deny that i'm one of those mentioned above. but think twice, there are people out there who are worst off than you!
so we shldn't complain. or at least think twice before complaining. or even better, find ways to solve the problems to stop ourselves from complaining! wouldn't it be better when the problem is solved? wouldn't life be happier when the problems are solved?
well, at least we are in Singapore, not a hungry, starving kid in Africa.
think twice (:
jolenekoh(:
oh i didn't notice that i blogged before midnight ytd! haha amazing! that's the wonders of going hme str8 aft band without supper! lols.
i wanna go out! i wanna go out!
arghh. i need a breather!
it's like i'm going school all the time during the weekdays la! this is the first time i feel that I NEED THE CROWDS! omg. i bet those who knows me well enough will be like. you sure?! haha
yes i hate the crowds but this time round, i've had enough of the silence! yes i need the CROWDS! maybe someone can bring the crowds over to me since i'm sick now? HAHA
been lying in bed for like 2, 3 days? and my head is still as heavy as the first day. and my whole body is aching. i need a massage. haha
and im felt so glad last night (:
i just wanna speak of those words to you.
jolenekoh(:
i've learnt my lesson. i shldn't have made myself so busy. so i ended up pulling out from the choir and also from work. felt so bad, but it's the only way to make myself not so sickly.
i just wanna go further than just this.
imagine falling sick every two weeks! sigh.
pract td was MUCH more better cause no one, i repeat, NO ONE, asked me for scores during pract. really happy bout it. and of course, i must thank the SLs for doing their job!
THANK YOU!!
THANK YOU!!
u coming td in spite of ur game really meant a lot to me. thanks. although there are many things i can't express freely, but i truly hope that u'll get it, u'll feel it. somethings, of course, are still in doubt, but at least i know that we are friends. i reall hope for a miracle. i just want you to know that i do need you.
jolenekoh(:
i feel so mentally and physically drained. in addition, i'm sick AGAIN. damnit. i'm like sick every other week.
sigh, i wanna wash my hands off everything now.
i don't wanna care anymore.
i don't wanna think anymore.
i need rest.
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i'm flying to the moon (:
it's the wee hours yet again.
notice the 2 words "yet again"?
haha yes, i've been like sleeping only during the unearthly hours, like almost every night. that's like so so so so not good for health. but i kinda like have no choice? cause i'll be working or handling by day, praising Lord by night (:
so i end up with the unearthly hours to kinda relax. LOLs. somethings i may complain, but there are somethings i enjoy (:
got back our results just now. i was totally blown away, by my own and others. some expected, some unexpected. but i just wanna kill myself for marketing and the internet web module.
*KILL* *KILL*
congrats to those who did well!
:D
for those who didn't do as well,
hmms, well, let's all look at the brighter side of life ya?
(: things will get better as it goes along (:
ate A LOT during work td. all thanks to joyce and janet! haha i tasted their chicken wings once again! after a longgggggggg time
:DDDD
alright, guess that's it for this entry.
*yawn
BYE.
Labels: acacia restaurant, exams, HAPPY
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so many thoughts i want to pen down, but words don't seem to be able to describe anything, any thoughts at all. i just want to be happy, why can't things be simpler? why can't i be the one not worrying over every F***ing little things??
i keep looking forward. that's the only thing i can do now. but can you go back? go back to where you once were? cause i don't wanna see you at all. can you like SHOOOOO and go back? stop everything. now! at once! anyway, who cares? who understands?
anw, things will just revolve ard her, him, them, everyone. everything will just revolve ard her. guess i just worried too much.
i shld relax.
I SHOULD JUST WASH MY HANDS OUT OF EVERYTHING!
like i said, who cares anyway.
jolenekoh(:
i'm tired.
i just don't wanna be hurt again.
maybe all i need is an answer?
a positive answer.
i feel so packed with so many things on hand. feel like letting go one or two, but none can be. have faith. that's all i can do to console myself & to press on. i guess what motivates me now is the end results of everything.
i need rest.
one day. that's all i ask of.
pressing on.
jolenekoh(:
I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE !
I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE !
I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE !
I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE !
I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE !
I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE !
HELP ! I'M DYING INSIDE !
I FEEL SO EMBARRASSED!
ARGH!
I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE !
I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE !
I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE !
I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE !
sorry. pardon me (:
i just wnna say those words to you.
Labels: thoughts
jolenekoh(:
everyone has their choices in life.
and each make their own choices.
i've made right choices.
i've made wrong choices.
& just a few days ago,
i made a wrong choice.
can i cover up for it?
ask me again, and i'll promise.
pls give me another chance..
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jolenekoh(:
okay 3 posts in a day. well the previous two were random thoughts. haha i guess the touch of blogging is coming back into me again. well partly 'cause it's the hols now !
wonder when can i start work. am totally packed by band events and upcoming practises. and i think i've gotta start going back to AI to help out alr. ARGH ! i need money so i better be able to fork out some extra time for work :D
orch pract this morning was great, though i was like running late and i was alone for pract td. wanted to take a cab to school but there were none in sight. and the scene that i arrived at was totally dissapointing ! it was alr 11am but there wasn't many people in sight. and laoshi ended up waiting for them. oh wells. hope it doesn't happen again.
my cough got more serious during the pract. couldn't stop coughing and drinking water. finished the whole bottle and there was still a tight feeling in my chest. horrible.
i still yearn for someone t take care of me. esp td.
the cough kinda got better during the comm meeting but i ended up having a slight fever. so in the end i couldn't attend svc for the fear of developing a fever and not being able to make it for M&M the next day.
& i thought it would happen td.
went hme and caught a nap, watched a DVD and kinda just rot at the sofa and in front of the com. was so bloody bored, wanted to look for someone but he wasn't free. i shld be at svc and praising away happily la! heh so i'm gonna attend svc tmr morning!
well i guess i was wrong.
BUT. the cough and all is making me super duper even more lazy. making me feel so don't wanna get out of my bed, chair or sofa. hopfully i can wake up tmr morning.
but pls do tell me i'm right.
thanks TRISH for offering to acc me for tmr's svc :D
thanks ADAM for offering to give me a morning call :D
confess soon.
although i'm sick and feeling so uncomfortable now, but i can't wait for tmr's M&M ! haha finally lawrence didi can attend smtg ! :D
&&& CONGRATS TO SARAHJANE !
finally aft sucha long and anxious wait you got into your desired course ! and you don't have to see your bitch anymore ! LOLs
:D
BYE.
the cough's coming back.
i need more rest!
jolenekoh(:
why does a double flat work in that way instead of writing it in a straightforward manner?
makes me so confused.
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jolenekoh(:
was it the wrong arrow?
once bitten, twice shy.
i just wanted things to work out.
i just wanted someone to
take care of me when i'm sick.
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jolenekoh(:
i feel so tied down! i've even gotta go back to sch on a fri do settle the lib scores. BUT all thanks to ah soon and sarahjane, i could finish up earlier than i thought.
but i still couldn't make it on time to meet mr pig, so i cancelled the meeting ):
sorry pig ! i'll make it up to you. soon.. heh.
well, as of td, i THINK i can say that i've moved on (:
like FINALLY ya. haha it was hard, but His words saw me through.
a wonder, a miracle i must say (:
oh i must thank someone too, when it's the right time.
i hope it's not a hoax or a false feeling.
i'm now, a HAPPY girl !
:DD
jolenekoh(:
sometimes,
some people will like you,
some people will dislike you.
some people can accept you for who you are,
some people cannot accept you for who you are.
that's life.
so why fret?
let nature takes its course,
& enjoy every moment !
(:
& for me, there are some things i can't express out freely but life's still good for me.
(:
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we got to know our specialisation td. it wasn't made known to us offically but somehow we got news that we can check it out in e-services alr. so yupp we did and i got into HOSPI !
woah i was so nervous when eliz was helping me check la! TOTALLY man. heh and i'm sooooo HAPPY now (:
thank God i made it !
:D
for those who got into their desired specialisation, CONGRATS !
now i'm still anxious bout my results. wonder how it'll turn out !
:DD prayers work. Praise the Lord !
jolenekoh(:
a good man indeed.
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FINALLY ! my internet connection came back ! for dunno what reasons, my internet couldn't connect for the past few days. so horrible.
anw, EXAMS ARE LIKE OVER for 5 days alr. HAHA have been enjoying myself, packed with activities like almost everyday..
thurs (aft exams) - chill with rah, xue, trish, mad.
fri - cg
sat - svc
sun - resting at hme, was supposed to meet pig thou.
and ytd, part of the committee went back to the band room to clean it up. now the band room is like SO NEAT but still a lil' dusty cos all the dust came out when we were cleaning it up ! HAHA
&& there was this lump of OLD old umbrellas in the bandroom so we were deciding to throw them away. so marcus took it out and a COCKROACH dropped out ! haha and sarahjane ended up cleaning that area alone (:
had loads of fun and laughter ytd with the new committee, to the extent of stomach cramps due to laughing too much ! hahah
and due to the packing of the lib, I'VE GOT LOADS OF PAPER CUTS ! and my thumb bleed ):
ok that's it for my update.
BYE.
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