i read my friend`s blog, and i found out that many youngsters are going overseas for their studies aft completing their O levels.
I`M SO ENVIOUS OF THEM !!!!
I WANNA GO OVERSEAS FOR STUDIES TOO !!!
hahah but it`s ok. studying in s`pore is better than having no education at all.
hey. WAIT !
i wanna slack my life thru, ain`t it?
haha ok i know, it`s a wrong thinking.
(:
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band camp tmr till sun. i`m dissapointed that ONLY ME, out of 9 yr ones, is staying over thru out the camp!!! and enoch chua ain`t even coming for band camp.
WHAT THE HELL !!!
so dissapointed, so dissapointed.
but at least the rest are coming for the practs.
sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh.
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; i need a shoulder to cry on.
jolenekoh(:
td, perc ensemble performed at the sch atrium. i wanted to go and watch jieminns, but couldn`t, cause i had to eat my lunch before the stupid accounting makeup lect.
grrrrrrrr..
sigh, haven`t been feeling that happy lately. so many things happen. nothing seems to be right. everything is wrong. sigh.
WHEN WILL ALL THIS END ??!!
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oooh, here`s smtg to be happy about, MY ICA 1 RESULTS !! HAHA.
principle of management : 22/30 ( so sad )
effective writing skills : 37.5/50
economics : 38.5/40
statistics : 27.5/30 ( i could have gotten full marks if i`ve memorised the definitions properly ! )
business software applications : 38/40
accounting : 18/20
overall, happy (:
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went back to aicb td. ooh well, they weren`t watching mr tong as usual. hopefully they will get what i said in mind.
but i enjoyed playing with them, excluding all the mumberings and noises they made during combine. brought back so many memories of those 4 yrs i spent in ahmad ibrahim. haha.
*beams*
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but, i`m still sad.
how i wish there`s someone by my side.
not by my side all the time, but be there when i need SOMEONE,
when i need a shoulder to lean on,
when i need a hearing ear,
when i need help during difficult times.
how i wish..
jolenekoh(:
sigh, so many things happening.
and it`s hurting her.
can everything just stop?
LEAVE HER ALONE !!!
*i`m not the her in my post.
sigh. i don`t know how to help her, but to pray that everything will be fine.
and i know, WE WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR HER.
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how i wish.
how i wish nth has happened.
how lucky they are.
i hope things will turn out the way i want.
jolenekoh(:
Work like you don't need the money,
love like you've never been hurt,
and dance like you do when nobody's watching.
(((:
woah. haha i am i am !!
haha but is it a good thing?
*thinks twice*
i don`t know.
*busy busy.
(((:
HAHA i don`t think anyone will understand this post. HAHA
*grins*
lalalalalala. HAPPY HAPPY (((:
jolenekoh(:
HAHA i`m at semb mac now.
time check: 5:49AM.
HAHA yupp i tonned over at mac; with min , sam and nerak.
nope, not to watch soccer, but to slack, talk crap and see min stress over band stuff.
HAHA kinda funny la.
and we like went over to jasper`s hse there to get a multi-plug to charge the laptops. haha.
*yawn* haha.
and jasper was like,
"ahh, u all 3 girls come ah? the stretch of road so quiet and ulu lah. better be careful ah, don`t flash your hp ah. ltr kena robbed."
HAHA so fatherly right?
wahahahahaha.
i think jiemin gonna laugh if she ever reads this. HAHA.
now we`re having breakfast.
and everyone`s so sleepy.
only min slept. YET AGAIN. haha.
yupp, gonna leave mac soon.
gotta go sch ltr.
rawrrr.
*yawn*
as for now, i`m gonna get some eye-shut.
(((:
so fun !!! haha
jolenekoh(:
I wanna tell her. (fr a guy to a girl)
7th grade
I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn`t notice me like that, I knew it. After class she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I wanna tell her, I want her to know that I don`t wanna Be just friends, I love her but I`m just too shy, and I don`t know why.
11th Grade
The phone rang. On the other end it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. after 2 hours, a drew barrymore movie, and 3 bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I wanna tell her, I want her to know that I don`t wanna be just friends, I love her but I`m just too shy, and I don`t know why.
Senior Year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is Sick," she said "he`s not gonna go." Well I didn`t have a date and in 7th qrade we made a promise that if neither of us had dates we would go together just as "best friends". So we did.
Prom night
After everything was over I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her, She smiled at me. I want her to be mine, but she doesn`t think of me like that and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I wanna tell her, I want her to know that I don`t want to be just friends, I love her. But I`m just too shy, and I don`t know why.
Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, you`re my best friend, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the Cheek.
I wanna tell her, I want her to know that I don`t wanna be just friends, I love her but I`m just too shy, and I don`t know why.
A Few Years Later
now I sit in the pews of the church. that girl is getting married now. I watched her say "i do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t see me like that and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!" She said. "thanks!" and kissed me on the cheek.
I wanna tell her, I want her to know that i don`t wanna be just friends, I love her but I`m just too shy, and i don`t know why.
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". at the service they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years.
This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn`t notice me like that, and I know it. i wanna tell him, i want him to know that I don`t wanna be just friends, I love him but I`m just too shy, and I don`t know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me.. I wish I did too.
I thought to myself, and I cried.
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a lovely story.
jolenekoh(:
i think i`ve made another mistake.
it`s all my fault.
i guess hanging out with 2 grps of ppl ain`t that good an idea.
do i really need to make a choice?
i`m sorry for all the troubles i`ve created.
jolenekoh(:
sigh. i was sick for the past few days, with fever hitting 39.1 degrees. that was how serious it was.
and i had been thinking a lot lately.
why must things happen this way?
sigh.
i`ve let another opportunity slipped by.
sigh.
nobody listens to me.
nobody cares.
jolenekoh(:
ARGH; sick sick sick.
helppppppppppppppp.
fever, cough and serious flu.
):
but i`ll still turn up for band. haha
unless i can`t get outta bed.
errr, low possibility.
(:
i wanna go for hoilday.
wahahaha
i wanna go London ; Japan ; Paris ; HONGKONG !!!
cause i miss the days spent at hongkong.
argh. really miss it a lot.
*big bird
jolenekoh(:
days are passing so quickly.
thinking back, i`m out of pjc for 6mths alr. HALF A YEAR !!! gosh. miss my gang so much. both fr class and band.
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i bet my 2 weeks hols are going to be over VERY QUICKLY.
people always have the mindset that poly is very slack, much much much much more relaxed than junior college. ooooh, how wrong they are.
in poly, things are going fast. and i really mean fast. i haven`t been able to catch the shows i wanna watch on tv okay. and i definitely do not have much time to blog-hop as often as before.
and i`ve definitely been missing out on mc`s blog updates. sigh so busy busy.
gonna study now.
(:
p.s. poly ain`t as slack as what people make it out to be.
jolenekoh(:
ok i`m getting pissed off with her day by day.
haha but seriously lah, it`s still not that bad.
i just don`t really like her attitude.
i don`t know if i`m doing the right thing by putting down my words here. but i just have no where else to pen it down. and maybe, just maybe, someone will convey the msg to her. i can`t say it straight into her face, cause i`m a nobody to do it.
ok here`s it:
i`ve nv seen people come for band and ask her sectionmate to "chop" place for her just cause she wanna sit beside that specific person. i mean she`s playing first part so just sit in the first row lah. unless you tell me she want to play second just so she can sit behind. please lah, think can ?!!
and she`s like going faster than laoshi`s conducting and she always say he`s going very slow. i know she`s a good player, she`s more experienced than us, but can she think for those people who can`t catch up with laoshi ??!!! please lah, think can ?!! you think you good means everyone else is good ??!! and u`re playing in a BAND loh. not solo ok ??!!
sigh.
i`m having doubts with her character and attitude.
tell me i`m wrong.
to me, she`s getting kinda arrogant.
arghh.
i hope i`m wrong.
and i hope things will get better.
at least flute yr 1s are bonding well.
(:
anw adeline says that the yr 1s need not perform with the orchestra for Sinfonia. but i`m not sure if it`s confirmed yet or not. i hope it`s not confirmed. for now, i have my saturdays free. and i don`t know if it`s a good thing or not.
jolenekoh(:
whoops. it`s thurs again. TIME FLIES !!!
having EWS lesson now. and mrs nair is talking bout our EWS proj.
ahhhhhhhhhhh. projects again !!! damn shagged by all the projs.
anw lil` bryan came to stayover at my hse td.
(: haha keane can`t come along cause we can`t handle 2 of them tgt. haha esp when joanne and i are still having lessons. wahahahahha.
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Pioneer Junior College Symphonic Band
PJCSB is now only a room,
a room for me to only walk in from time to time to embrace and recall the many precious moments i spent in it.
PJCSB can never be replaced,
all my friends there, i miss them.
the dinner clique and McD gang, i miss them.
now PJCSB is just a room,
a room that will always welcome me.
a door that can be opened and closed anytime, for me and my friends.
however, it is a room that i can`t stay in forever, cause i have to move on.
sometimes, one way to start anew is to say goodbye.
i`m just moving on, so there will be no "good-byes".
there will only be "see yous".
PJCSB will always stay with me.
(:
jolenekoh(:
sigh. i don`t know to laughand be happy, or to cry and be sad.
i miss pjcsb.
i miss 2005.
can i cry?
i really feel like.
life`s so different without them
yes i know i shld get over everything and move on.
but i can`t.
*and thanks for keeping me in the dark. now i`m pissed off.
jolenekoh(:
suddenly i feel
so lost,
so scared.
so..
i`m hanging on a loose end.
i don`t know what i want.
and i don`t know who i can talk to.
i`m so lost. once again.
jolenekoh(:
playing in my head :: just the girl - The Click Five
She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
She pushed me in the pool
At our last school reunion
She laughs at my dreams
But I dream about her laughter
Strange as it seems
She's the one I'm after
[Chorus:]
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
She can't keep a secret
For more than an hour
She runs on 100 proof attitude power
And the more she ignores me
The more I adore her
What can I do?
I'd do anything for her
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
And when she sees it's me
On her caller ID
She won't pick up the phone
She'd rather be alone
But I can't give up just yet
Cause every word she's ever said
Is still ringin' in my head
Still ringin' in my head
She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
Knows just what to say
So my whole day is ruined
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
Oh, I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for
Just the girl
I'm lookin' for
She's just the girl
I'm lookin' for
Just the girl
I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for
jolenekoh(:
lemme talk about fri.
in the evening, i went to watch X-Men 3 with rowen. the movie so nice so nice !! haha. ooh well i wanted a section outing, ask everyone to go watch tgt. but some not free, some watch alr, some wanna watch with others. haha so ended up only rowen and i. Lols.
yupp then i met min and sam at semb mac. haha WE HAD A STAYOVER YTD. yupp at my hse. mar couldn`t make it cause he was sick. this time rnd, we asked jasper along. HAHA since he stays in semb too.
we talked crap in my rm, watched horror show on chn u while i watched Nanny McPhee on min`s labtop. don`t blame me for not watching horror shows. i`m just plain SCARED. haha
sam confessed that at one pt of time, he didn`t like me, cause i keep saying i don`t wanna watch horror movies. haha but in the end he fully understand that I`M REALLY SCARED OF HORROR MOVIES. haha so he didn`t dislike me anymore. wahahaha so funny.
and jasper went hme in the middle of the night. haha and aft he left, sam went to shit and min went into slumberland. aft a while, i too went into slumberland.
the funny part is this morning. i woke up at 8 plus, woke all of them up too. we were all shivering fr the cold-ness of the air-con, so i off-ed it. aft that, i made a stupid decision by asking everyone to go back to slp, thinking that we still had time to con`t sleeping but not be late to go to sch to open the doors. haha
WHO KNOWS ?!! we all woke up only when min woke us up at 9.45am. WE WERE SUPPOSED TO REACH SCH AT 10AM CAN. haha we were rushing like mad lah. sam still bathed. haha
then we took cab to sch then blah blah blah and blah. haha.
had orchestra pract and all.
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ok i had sectionals with laoshi td too.
BUT what pissed adeline and i off, is that
WHILE WE WERE HAVING SECTIONALS WITH LAOSHI, THIS HORN ALUMNI PLAYER SELF PRACTISED IN THE BAND ROOM.
HELLO, U THINK U ALUMNI PLAYER VERY GREAT IS IT ??!! PEOPLE TRYING TO HAVE SECTIONALS LEH. PEOPLE TRYING TO IMPROVE THEMSELVES LEH. THEN YOU INTERRUPT OUR SECTIONALS. THEN NEXT TIME DON`T EVER SAY MAIN BAND STANDARD NOT GOOD OR WHATSOEVER OK ???!!
damn angry ok. then we only sectional for Hobbits la. then laoshi wanted us to play Finale by New World Symphony. BUT SOME ALUMNI PLAYERS WANNA JOIN IN TOO. IN THE END IT BECAME LIKE AN ALUMNI PRACT LOH.
i mean people having sectionals leh. u think lah, if one day u having sectionals with your section then some people come and join in, WILL YOU BE HAPPY OR NOT ??!! NO RIGHT ??!! YOU`LL BE ANGRY TOO RIGHT ??!!
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...
tmr will be a better day.
humph.
jolenekoh(:
haha i`ve been looking at the products of Tiffany and Co.
so nice can.
here`s some of the nice products. haha but it`s ex.
if i`m not wrong, the prices are in US dollars. HAHA
Paloma's Jolies Beads ring. Sterling silver, 18k gold.
Cost : $185
Paloma's Love Match pendant. 18k white gold.
Cost: $675
Elsa Peretti Open Heart lariat necklace. Pearl, Silver.
Cost: $250
Two Hearts triple bangle, medium. Sterling silver.
Cost: $250
Two heart pendant. Sterling silver.
Cost: $150
Tiffany Seas crab pendant. Turquoise, sterling silver.
Cost: $425
haha so cute right? (((:
i`ve got 2 more pics to upload. but i just don`t know why blogger can`t upload it.
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anw tiffany`s prds are so ex.
anyone wanna buy one for me??
HAHA.
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ooh well, huimin and company gonna come my place to stayover td. yupp yupp it`s gonna be the last stayover before her attachment.
sad sad.
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DAMN SHIT!!
i`m supposed to be doing my hw.
ARGH.
haha gonna go for lunch first.
(:
MOVIE LTR!!
jolenekoh(:
ooh this is the 301 th post of my blog. HAHA.
anw i`m in the sch lab having effective writing lesson now. so boring.
=/
and i`m pissed off with my parents.
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learning how to write bad news letter now.
grrrrr so difficult. esp persuasive news.
*must imply the bad news. better not to state the bad news specifically.
*start the bad news with a buffer of about 4 to 5 lines.
*give reasons for the bad news.
*give or suggest another alternative for the receiver.
*end with a positive, friendly statement.
*must include contact details and express goodwill.
haha those above were what i learnt in class.
must keep that in mind. hahhahahahaha.
lesson so boring.
can`t find the msn thingy to activate msn!!! the network places in the com i`m using now has been deleted.
-________-
sigh. not going for class outing td. hopefully my friends are not angry. gonna go for band.
haha see how errr,
so bored so bored.
ok i think i`ll update ltr.
CYA
(((:
jolenekoh(: