i wish ; i do ; i miss
i`m not demanding a lot.
so many things, yet i can`t talk bout it openly here.
HAHA
i don`t need the time.
i want concern.
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jolenekoh(:
ooh, i`m falling sick. and my sister too.
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didn`t had a good sleep last night cos i was coughing away !! AHHHH what a life, esp when exams are rnd the corner.
and i`m supposed to be reviewing my EWS report and doing my script for presentation instead of updating my blog. LOLS i just can`t concentrate ! HELP !!
i`m missing him alr. HAHA although i just saw him ytd. HEH HEH.
moreweekswithouthimandband.
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just saw a report on THE SUNDAY TIMES, Lifestyle section.
iwant2bfamous.com
it`s about PEOPLE, BLOGGING to be famous.
i reckon that.
here`s some of my thoughts. if u dun like it, move your cursor to the top right corner and click the 'x' button. thank you.
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i don`t think ALL people blog in hope to be famous. those who blog and GOT FAMOUS, it`s just mere coincidence. and it must be the content that he/she wrote that attracted GOSSIPS and PUBLICITY.
for example; Colin and Kero. how did they get famous? through word of mouth. why is this so? cos they are a gay couple. look, i don`t think their amin purpose of setting up a gay couple blog is to attract attention right? i SUPPOSE that they set it up, just to enrich ppl bout their feelings and perceptions of being gay. BUT that is if so happens, ppl got to know bout their blog.
i mean, blogs are like online diary. if ur contents ain`t worth ppl gossiping and talking bout, would others know? and it`s a space for ppl to TYPE out their own thoughts and feelings. yes, u may ask why not write it in a diary? well, not all ppl like to write.
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andand some blogs are meant to update their friends bout their life.
so NOT ALL bloggers are blogging for fame.
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that`s all from me now !
back to report reviews.
still HAPPY as yet
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jolenekoh(:
MY HOME
jiemin`s concert. today. it was okay. different from the Heartbeat concert. haha but was a lil` like arts enrichment programme (AEP). LOLS
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enjoyed myself. was more like a time for me to relax
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OOH !! and i saw darling UMMIRAH there !! haha what a pleasant suprise ! miss her a lot !
((:
; many smiles
; contented for the day
jolenekoh(:
regent`s 3rd annual concert: OPUS III
IT WAS A BLAST ! haha i like it ! (((:
finally saw yiin aft so long. at least i did see hui and zoey a few weeks back (:
it was a good concert.
KEEP IT UP !
ha it`s the first time i`m sitting in the audience, watching hui, yiin and zoey perform. STRANGE. i don`t really like the idea, cause it means i`m not with them anymore (band wise). BUT this is regent`s concert so nothing serious. wonder how i`ll feel when i see PJCSB perform on stage ):
haha i went to watch it with laoshi, huimin, meifen, chris and william. and i finally saw how mr Lim looked like too. and before the concert, we went to take neoprint with laoshi too ! haha funny and cool. if possible i`ll post the pics up !
SAMUEL should have come for the concert ! and JASPER too. cos the girl on the drumset was superb ! haha. she`s damn pro !!! but chris says she`s not better than teohui. hmms i nv seen teohui play before, so..
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HAPPY !
jolenekoh(:
haha he remembers !!
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feeling very tired this few days.
back is aching up again.
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wahhhhhhhhhhhh.
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tmr is regent`s concert.
gonna see darling hui, yiin and zoey !!
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haven seen them in a long time, esp yiin.
so excited. lols
jolenekoh(:
haha i`ve been hearing those sounds A LOT lately.
and yupp, they are all different.
as in,
different kind = different sound
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haha
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td is junyang`s school concert. and i went with tricia, karie, eliza, marcus, jia and SANDY ! hhaha funny sandy, and we enjoyed ourselves a lot td !
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love them loads.
they really made my life more interesting !
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; miss
exams are round the corner. 2 more weeks.
i better start revision now.
no more band for now.
no more catching up for now.
no more.
i`ll miss..
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jolenekoh(:
i guess i think a lot.
yes, i do think a lot.
but i can`t help it !!!
as in, life still has to go on and stuff.
so many things happening at one go.
maybe i think too much,
or maybe, just maybe, i wasn`t thinking too much.
and maybe, just maybe, i`m right.
i hope so !
i wanna talk to him, but i don`t know what to say.
i don`t know what he`s thinking of,
and whether he was referring to me.
does he care? does he bother?
maybe. but he`s not ready.
ooh well, i hope no one will ask me anything aft reading this para.
cos i just want to write it somewhere.
and here`s the only place.
praying hard that he`ll walk out of it.
and that no one will interfere.
haha yes i know u guys care,
but i think it`s time that we need.
i wanna scream,
i wanna say it out loud.
but i`m constrained.
i`m restricted.
i can`t .
aHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!
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td we had our POM project presentation.
I JUST LOVE MY MEMBERS !
haha thou we are always late, we are late at the same time.
haha and great job done girls !
GIRLS POWER ! haha we handled everything quite smoothly.
heh (:
ECONS project presentation tmr.
may it be a breeze !
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jolenekoh(:
can a car come and run me down now? HAHA
at least i`ll be out of everyone`s life.
giving no one troubles.
giving eveyone nothing but happiness.
where`s the car?
COME !
jolenekoh(:
what a "happening" sunday. i have to go yishun and do PROJECT again.
andand tmr is presentation day. hope i won`t stammer. haha !!
gtg prepare alr. ARGH !
jolenekoh(:
so tired ! my back is aching again !
*cry*
when will my back get better? ):
anw i just got back hme a while ago from POM proj meeting. ha we went to amk mac to do, cos madonna says she wanna go amk. ohh well, amk mac is filled with noisy and STRANGE people.
there was this small chi boy who went ard looking at what others are eating. and naturally, he came over to our table, look at rah`s laptop, walk ard us and all. STRANGE huh? and he went to pull the "baby chair" to our table. ha we thought he was gonna sit with us. LOLS. then he say rah`s laptop charger and he was like picking it up, asking us whether we wanna plug it in.
we were like " GOSH ! " we were afraid that he`ll get electrocuted. haha funny ya? and the boy`s just plain strange. in the end he left the chair in the middle of nowhere and went off to eat his ice cream. HA
YEAH ! we finally finished our POM proj.
I`M SO PROUD OF RAH, XUE, MADDIE AND MYSELF ! haha we were like so lost when we started can. and we worked our way thru ! (((: and, haha, we learnt a very important lesson. that is: TO BE LATE AT THE SAME TIME ! haha
can u imagine, rah, xue and i were late ytd for our meeting. and we reached AT THE SAME TIME ! haha we didn`t contact anyone or what so ever. we just reached tgt at the same time ! ((:
ok enough of projs and my lovable POM prj grp members. haha
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anw ytd huimin, meifen, jiemin, christoper, jasper and i went to watch PIRATES ! yes. it`s nice, exciting, funny but draggy. i agree with jasper that it wasn`t up to our expectations. and i feel that Black Pearl was way more exciting than Dead Man`s Chest.
haha and i jumped at some parts of the movie ! haha it was so sudden and loud, i got a scare. haha don`t laugh at me ok? (:
; happy
jolenekoh(:
haha (((:
helmets. ha. FUNNY.
jolenekoh(:
haha in sch right now doing my POM proj. so tired.
sigh. i`m so troubled by a lot of stuff recently.
yes, not only my own problems, but some family stuff and of cause friends.
well, it`s not that i don`t wanna listen to my friends and help them with their troubles.
it`s like, for example:
- if A doesn`t want to tell ppl bout her troubles and frustration, then don`t show us the sad or angry face. cause when ppl see A`s sad or angry face, naturally friends will ask her qns right? so if u don`t wanna let ppl know, then don`t express any feelings on ur face.
- if B has any troubles and told a friend, then listen to your friend. i mean whatever a friend advises u on, it`s for the better of u. UNLESS YOUR FRIEND WANTS TO HARM U. so another point to note is: BE CAREFUL OF WHAT KIND OF FRIENDS U MAKE.
I LOVE MY SEAFOOD CREATURES !
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yupp. so many things are going thru in my head now and then.
i`m waiting for next mon and tues to pass quickly. cause those two days are PRESENTATION !! ok. i kinda love presenting lah
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ARGH. EWS proj meeting ltr. to do the executive summary. damn. i don`t know how to do. HAHA.
and movie ltr at 8 !! hahahah. PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN !! (((:
jolenekoh(:
; i`m easily contented.
AND MY SANDWICHES ARE NICE !
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happy. lalalalalalalalala
hahaha so happy !!
ok i shall try something else next time rnd.
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jolenekoh(:
haha I TOTALLY AGREE WITH MARCUS !
haha totally. haha. bout someone in class.
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i wanna stop everything.
i want time to stop.
to stop on fri, 14 jul.
or sat, 15 jul.
i never felt happier.
a day i never felt before, a day i felt very relieved.
a day i wish to hold on and rmb.
and of cause i wish for other things.
but i guess it`s all up to me.
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i don`t understand why people can change so much in just a few days.
i don`t understand why people can`t just leave me alone.
and that stupid fellow keep calling me !
can u imagine i accidentally picked up his phone call ytd ?!!
WTH !
haha but i hanged up immediately.
(: clever huh? heh heh.
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pirates on fri ! here i come !
haha can`t wait for thurs and fri.
HAHAHAHAHA.
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HAPPY !
jolenekoh(:
i`m so tired fr everything. me, you, her, him, everyone.
so many things happening recently. and i`m kinda tired.
and and i don`t like exams. cos i`ll freak out.
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HELP !
i`m so sincerely awaiting AUGUST HOLS !!!
play, eat, sleep, play, eat, sleep. heh heh.
grrrr, i need to SCREAM !
grrrr, i need to BREATHE !
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; at least i`m still happy bout some things.
* grins fr ear to ear *
jolenekoh(:
GOSH ! my back is aching !
hmm is it due to the slip at VCH ?
yes, my back hit against the steps, but but it`s now aching on the other side of my back !
): pain pain
now i can`t even sit straight.
cause it`ll be painful !!
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so stresss ! PROJECTS, ICAs.
non-stopping actino man.
I NEED A BREAK !
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OOH NO ! band will be stopping for the next few weeks due to the terms.
arghhh. this means that i won`t be able to see huimin and guys for weeks ! ok, we better meet up !
*i`m so gonna miss him ):
there`s band tmr ! YEAH. so now i better get started on my stats ICA 2 revision and POM and EWS proj.
grrrrrrrrr.
jolenekoh(:
haha how cool would it be it your best friend just lives next to you ??
COOL ! TOTALLY !!
imagine, me, hui, yiin and ummi are neighbours.
wahahahahah !! imagine ! just imagine !
i think the whole estate would not be able to sleep for days !!
haha they`ll be kept awake by our nonsensical laughter.
ooh, how i miss them so much.
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anw a lil` message here for all my frens:
if one day we were to go our separate ways,
rmb that although i do not call on u guys often,
u all will be in my heart forever.
and i am really glad that i`ve met all of u in my life.
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and i`m really happy now!
jolenekoh(:
well, some things just happen for a reason.
and i`m happy.
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at least it`s off my shoulder.
and i hope everything goes smoothly.
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may all good things continue to be even better.
jolenekoh(:
JUBILANT.
ai band and choir.
13 july.
IT WAS A BLAST ! ! hahaha very successful and i so enjoyed myself.
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too bad huimin and sam couldn`t make it. else they`ll see me performing. HAHA
yan rong`s (oboeist) solo turned out to be way better than all the other rehearsals. so happy for her. as for the other soloists, it was superb too (:
so happy. hahahaha.
aft the concert, i went to have supper with jane, john, zhenjie, guan han, yeekeong, kelvin and chiu hao. HAHA and we had a lil` catching up session. and guess what? we laughed over the people we came to know about fr the 3yrs of music exchange. HAHA yes, we`re bad for laughing over them, but it really brings back lots of memories.
haha
and tmr is AICB`s national band competition day. really hope they will do well.
i have faith in them.
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embrace in the moment,
do your best,
enjoy the process,
and most imptly: LEARN
;waiting for good results :P
SO HAPPY !
jolenekoh(:
i don`t know how to face it, everything.
i`m actually ok with it.
casue this kinda thing cannot be forced nor prevented.
but i just don`t know how to face it.
SIGH !
what a big headache.
i shall not think too much.
gagagagagagaga.
i hope everything turns out fine.
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I NEED A BREAK FROM STUDIES !
AND I NEED A LAPTOP VERY VERY MUCH !!!
jolenekoh(:
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!
i can`t send emails !
stupid yahoo and hotmail always say SERVER BUSY.
booooo ! ! !
hello sheena,
if u`re reading this, i`ve done the memorandum for both legal and rosepond. as for mins, i`ve done rosepond. yupp, hopefully i can send it tonight, else i`ll send it tmr during lesson. HEH HEH (:
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feeling so " ARGH ! " now.
i miss him !
whoops.
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sigh i haven`t start on my BSA yet.
AHHHHHHHHHH !! ! ! !
ICA TMR ! ! ! !
wish me luck !
GOD BLESS.
jolenekoh(:
sometimes, it`s your actions that make us talk.
sometimes, it`s your words that makes us talk.
sometimes, it`s him that makes us talk.
sometimes, it`s you that makes us talk.
think about it.
your actions and words may show a lot.
your actions and words may make us think a lot.
that`s human.
human instincts.
no one can blame anyone for all those.
it`s inborn.
we are born like that.
we are made to be like that.
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i shall step aside. once again.
so vulnerable.
jolenekoh(:
no one understands how i feel.
pig !
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jolenekoh(:
i`m so confused.
mymindiswhirling.myheartisspinning.everythingISwrong,orisitnot?yesimaybesayingthistomyfriends,butinmyselfimthinkingotherwise.amidoingtherightthing?buteverythingseemssowrong!imconfused.idontwantthingstoturnoutinabadway.iwantahappyending.
andimthinkingofotherstoo.myfriendsinpjc.imissthemsomuch.PIG!!whereareu?wellnoonecaresboutme.andithinknoonebothersreadingthiswholechunkofwordswithoutpuntcuations.HAHA.
oohweelnoonecaresboutme!noonebothers.orisitthatsomethingmusthappentomethenpeoplewillbother?LMAO.
nooneknowsthatimsadorstufflikethat.knowwhy?casueilearnthowtohidethemafterknowmrpigformonths.yes.maybehidingyouremotionswillkeeponeunhappy.
butatleastothersarenotworriedforyou.butisthatwhatireallywant?imaccomodatingtopeoplebutdopoepleknow?
sigh, if u`re reading this, don`t bother asking me. i just wanna vent everything out.
i don`t know whether sanjay will read this not, but i wanna apologise for not been able to attend his concert.
SORRY !
jolenekoh(:
ahhhhhhhhhh !! my stomach hurts a lot !
i guess it`s cause i haven`t been shitting regularly. HAHA oops !
sigh, and there`s smtg wrong with my internet connection ! so slow ; so eek !
ahhhhhhhhhh.
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i went back ai td. HAHA i went there to GOSSIP !! and i found out some stuff. well, u know what people normally gossip bout right ?
relationships.
HAHA pract was okay. kinda tired cause we had to play about 8 songs all at one go. yes, we`re preparing for the concert on 13th july.
ang guess what? monday morning is the rehearsal at VCH. lucky all my morning lessons are e-learning, so i ain`t missing lessons ! haha but hopefully i`ll be able to get back to sch for acct lect on time. I DON`T WANNA GET DEBARDED ! haha
haha fat hope ! i`ll nv get debarded !
* grins fr ear to ear * heh heh
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ooh well, alex wanted to meet me td. but i decided not to. HAHA some will get it as to why i don`t wanna meet in the end. ooh well, he sounded dissapointed. but who cares? HEH HEH. i don`t know him well so.. it`s okay i think.
but i still apologised, a form of courtsey.
now i`m scared that he`ll drive down to find me.
ARGH.
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ivedecidedtotonedownevrything.notgonnasayanything.gonnajustkeepquiet.
andmaybekeepitfromhim,keepitasasecretforever.
yessomefriendsknowaboutit.butiknowtheywillkeepquiettoo.
idontwanthimtoknowandintheendavoidme.
iwantustobefriends.yesimaybefeelingotherwise,butithinkthisisthebestdecision
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andimhappy
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jolenekoh(:
woah.. I`M SO FED UP WITH THAT BITCH.
i wonder God gave her brains for what ??!!!
SHE CAN`T THINK !!!
i wonder why God gave her mouth ??!!
CAN SHE JUST SHUT HER MOUTH UP ?!!
her mouth so big can ??!!
pls lah. she`s not using her brain can ??!!
grrrrrrrrrr..
think lah bitch, think lah.
even if u`re a bitch, u still can think one right ??!!
don`t let ur brain go to waste lah bitch.
so many people want better brains also don`t have.
give up ur brain lah.
HAHA don`t let ur brain ROT !!!
SO FED UP !!!
*muhahhahahah(:
jolenekoh(:
sigh. i feel so fed up.
everything is SO wrong.
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FED UP !
maybe i`m thinking too much.
but i dun think i am.
*SCREAMS !!!!!!!!!!!!! *
): ): ): ): ): ): ): ):
just leave me alone ):
u`ll never know. never, never, never. and i`ll never know. never, never, never. but i wish it`s me.
jolenekoh(:
ok i was so worried ytd night lah. but everything`s fine now.
(: *grins*
i think only prawny will understand.
anw i`ve got a SEAFOOD CLAN !!!
crabby - ME !
prawny - jieminns
oystery - chrissy poo
LOLS. we always have SEAFOOD at night !!!
hahah ooh well, they are all fr perc section except me.
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hahaha that`s all for now !
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jolenekoh(:
Golden Maple Leaf
Lavender at the Foot of the Mountain
Lavender Farm
Lavender Farm and Tree
Rainbow
jolenekoh(:
HAHA some beautiful pictures here.
ENJOY ! *click on the pics for a clearer view ! *
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Autumn in Germany
Beauty of Tibet
Blue Sea
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Breithorn Peak (Switzerland)
Cherry Blossoms Japan
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Comet (Make a wish)
Deep Autumn
Disney Castle
Edge of Glacier
jolenekoh(:
i know i shouldn`t be angry.
but i am.
i badly want to talk to him.
yes. but we ain`t.
i guess i`m still angry.
jolenekoh(:
haha just came back fr camp.
eh. nothing much to update bout the camp. HAHA just that we had band pract and band pract.
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sigh so many things happening this few days.
i don`t know if it`s right.
it feels so wrong.
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but i feel other things too.
ARGH !
just give me a confirmation pls.
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oooh well, i think no one will understand the 2nd half of this post again.
HAHAHA
i miss talking to wL online and in band. hahaha !
she`s so funny (:
jolenekoh(: