; REALITY HITS HARD

Sunday, January 28, 2007

i want you to touch your own heart and realise that what you are doing is not exactly right. things are not going your way, but things are not going my way either. our words seem to have fallen on deaf ears.

i wanna enjoy the whole process but i don't seem to be able to. cause i've realised things that i never want to. things that i never thought will ever happen.

stressed up?
i need to talk to someone.

Labels: devastating, disappointed, horrible, terrible

jolenekoh(:

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yes ! trish must be jumping for joy. CAUSE I FINALLY HAVE THE TIME TO LOOK FOR AND CHANGE THE SONG ON MY BLOG ! HAHA. well i just love this song. don't know why. the rythm and tune of the song is really damn nice.

anw life's been busy with projects and all. but i've promised myself, that I CANNOT MISS THE MOVIE SCREENING NOW ! it's the show by rene liu and louis koo. HAHA i've alr missed the movie night at the museum. so devastating ! HAHA so i can't miss this one !!!
:D

&&& playing mahjong every other night has two effects to it. it's either you get more and more addicted to it, or you get bored of it. for me, it's the latter. HAHA oh and i just recalled, i played mahjong with 3 other cg mates on fri. it's like i'm playing mahjong almost every night laaa.
tsk tsk.

i don't understand why people can get SO addicted to some things. cause for me, the addiction wears off aft awhile. HAHA i shld be glad !
:D

i shall continue chiong-ing for projects now.
BYE.

i so wanna wear off the addiction for projects !
:/

Labels: addictions, projects

jolenekoh(:

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days feel so weird right now. so different. in a way that i can't do some things anymore. or rather it's just me feeling weird and all.

different.different.different. it's like as if i've lost smtg. smtg impt. oh well, i gain another thing or two during the past few months.

sigh. what exactly do i want now ? so confused.

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first day of work for me td. was alright. did hosting and clearing of plates. currently still quite alright. just that it's more political than acacia rest. miss the atmosphere in acacia. HAHA (:

service td. Dr. AR bernard is really totally WOAH. haha pohchoo and i agree that we really have to listen carefully to his speech or else we would miss some points or don't understand it.

fellowship was at 85 bedok. and pohchoo and i were like crazy people. HAHA had fun with the MSN, SMS and looney tunes song. LOLs.

guess the rest couldn't stand us ! haha
:D

so what should i do to salvge the situation?
i just wanna proceed on.
so stop trying to do smtg u ought not to.

Labels: different, service

jolenekoh(:

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Thursday, January 25, 2007

so many things going through my mind nowadays. feeling so messed up, especially after today. why that ?! why why why ?! sigh. and why of all people? so what am i supposed to do next? all i want is just to be happy. and i want you to be happy too.

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family bonding session just now ! MAHJONG. haha didn't know daddy knew a lot bout it. haha he didn't mention it before either ! and mummy's forever blurrrrrrr. not forgetting JOANNE KOH. she was on a winning strike today laaaa !!!
HAHA (: love them loads (: i don't wanna be hurt again.

in the day was the econs presentation. FINALLY ! two's totally down. and we're left with three more. and least i enjoyed myself today after thinking A LOT on the way hme. just wanna sort my things out. what shld i do? i still don't know. him or him? infatuation or love?

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anw i just rmb a joke that happened on my lil' 4 years old cousin, keane. his baby sis was just born and when she was at hme sleeping, keane asked,
"why meimei nv open her eyes? I HELP HER OPEN ! "

and he tried to poke her eyes open !
HAHA kids. SO CUTE !
:D

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are you sick?
get well soon.

Labels: family bonding, projects, you

jolenekoh(:

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Tuesday, January 23, 2007

this few days have been terribly busy. projects presentations and reports reports reports to rush. at least two's down, three more to go. and aft that, it's judgement day. ~~the horror~~. the EXAMS !

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ytd was a terrible night for me. why of all days, now? why is the year so long but yet it falls in this period of time? sigh. i just want a miracle. and what exactly do i want? i don't even know what to do now. sigh.

open hse perf is coming. thurs and fri. scores yet photocopied. worst still, one day before thurs, i've got presentation. gonna owe so much thanks to richard.

tmr's econs presentation.
and tmr is a total fully packed day for me.
; Marketing tut.
; EOC proj.
; EOC quiz.
; Econs presentation last rehearse.
; Econs actual presentation.
; Marketing proj.
; HOME SWEET HOME.

like what lawerence said, we haven't seen home in daylight for DAYS.
(:

BYE.
gonna memorise my speech and off to band.

istillmissYOU.

Labels: projects, reports, you

jolenekoh(:

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Sunday, January 21, 2007

working hard at hme in front of the com.
i don't even have time to sleep.

when i hear the first bus pull over at the bus stop near my hse, i went to bed. waking up in the noon to continue where i left off. and i'm getting frustrated !

things are going against me right now.
swimming hard against the current,
shedding tears and sweat to get things over and done with.

i need someone.
i just want someone to be there.

Labels: late nights, projects, rollercoaster

jolenekoh(:

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i've never want things this way. i never meant things to end up like that. if i can accept it, why can't you? sigh.

and now i'm super tired and pissed off.
stupid reports !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Labels: angry, pissed off, sad

jolenekoh(:

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Friday, January 19, 2007

why not give each other a chance again?
& create our own memories once more.

what shld i do?
i still do..

jolenekoh(:

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Wednesday, January 17, 2007

livejournal HANGS my com !
):

i want a new commm !
laptop BETTER !

Labels: laptop

jolenekoh(:

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Sunday, January 14, 2007

oh oh oh !! &&& my baby cousin girl is born td !
:DD

she's so cute ! and we were so engrossed at looking at her, that we forgot to take pictures of her. HAHA funny ((:

she's so cute !

Labels: baby cousin girl

jolenekoh(:

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i`m sick, bloody hell sick. and i just found out, i'm always in a daze when i'm sick.

like ytd, it was raining when i was walking hme. daddy called me to walk under the void decks (which i usually don't). i was supposed to turn in at this particular road. BUT i don't know what i was thinking bout, and i walked in the rain until i almost reach hme then i realised i forgot to walk under the void decks. sigh, so in the end i walked in the rain, sick !

and td, after dinner outside when i was back in the car, i suddenly thought of my hp and i thought i left it at the coffeeshop! everyone panicked. LOLs.

being sick is sooooooo terrible !

and now i still have to do my tutorials, study for my ICAs and finish up my part of projects. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! hopefully i can complete 2 of the 3 by tonight !

God, save me !

Labels: daze, sick

jolenekoh(:

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Saturday, January 13, 2007

am i just thinking too much?
or am i spot on?

sigh.
sigh.
sigh.
sigh.
sigh.

just wanna say, i'm sorry.
(to whoever i've offended.)

): i just don't want things to change.

Labels: sigh

jolenekoh(:

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Friday, January 12, 2007

for me, problems and things have being surfacing recently. well i just don't want things to change. i just need a little more faith. but i know, hopefully, things won't change (:

i just want you back from australia QUICK ! but i doubt so ): feb 20, i shall wait. so long ): but at least it will be after my exams (: and we can meet up ! but i need you now to listen to me. the others are all so busy ):

sigh

and i want you here tonight,
and i need you by my side,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment.

and i want you here tonight,
and i need you by my side,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment with you.
guess i really need someone, will it be you? cause i really need you. ****

Labels: one more moment

jolenekoh(:

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words said ytd made me think, of you. so true. AHHHHH. help me ! so i`m right bout my thinkings.

i`m sick now. so sick. and i`m still doing my proj ): rushing them. ARGH! i wanna rest and get well soon. just praying hard that i will get well in time for presentations. sigh. i need you ):

BYE.

Labels: projects, sick

jolenekoh(:

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Tuesday, January 09, 2007

recently, most of us are trying to meet project deadlines. and one happy stupid idiotic tutor told us the extension of date of submission on the day we are supposed to hand in on. get it? at first she say we are to hand in our report on 8th jan 2007. and only on 8th jan 2007 did she tell us that it`s extended to 13th jan 2007. like WTF right?

whatever. i`m pms-ing.

Labels: livejournal, projects

jolenekoh(:

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Saturday, January 06, 2007

WHEEEE !!!!!!
internet web proj finally done !! :D all thanks to our hard work. stayed in school till 11.24pm ytd night. woah. my very first time ! HAHA and i came back to school again td to complete the appendix and contents page. finally.

stupid internet web project !
waste my time only.

now i`m going off for service !
SUPER HAPPY ! :D

Labels: HAPPY, projects, service

jolenekoh(:

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Friday, January 05, 2007

it`s SO FREAKING LATE !!!!!
andI`M STILL IN SCHOOL DOING PROJECT !!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHH !

Labels: projects

jolenekoh(:

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the performance at giodarno walk was alrighttt. just tired, playing for two days. am tired too due to lack of sleep. totally don`t know what i`m doing all the time late in the night.

projects projects projects. i`m here whining bout it again. I MUST CONQUER THE PROJECTS ! and moodswings are terrible. terrible. AHHHHHHHHHH !
): i so wanna see you now.

time to continue editing my project ):

Labels: giodarno walk, projects

jolenekoh(:

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Thursday, January 04, 2007

they are so relax bout it.
so why must i be so uptight when i`m ard them?
forget it. it`s over.

jolenekoh(:

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Wednesday, January 03, 2007

why can`t u treat us the way u treat them ? ooohhh whatever.

JOLENE is a happy girl, althou some things did make her unhappy, RAH & XUE made her day ! :D starbucks again td. we`ve been to starbucks like almost every other day. x`mas countdown, new yr countdown, tutorials day and today. haha drinks here and there. java chip, ice signature chocolate, caramel frap, raspberry frap, mango frap ((: YUMMY.

tmr`s the small performance for the Giodarno walk. wonder how the "modelling" would be for the "models". rah, xue & i caught a bit of their rehearsal td. heh we shall see tmr (:

did a lil` of projs here and there, then it was slacking time at yishun starbucks ! printed pictures pictures pictures ! haha then dinner at a coffee shop in yishun, with rah`s friend. shared many lame jokes, haha but the atmosphere was a little too cool.

hme sweet hme. and i was taken aback at yishun mrt stat. WOAH. scare me !

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updates, updates and more updates !

02.01.07. TUESDAY.
tutorials day !

yes rah, beth & i met up to complete our tutorials, but u know, girls, we ended chatting and chilling. and i lost track of time :/

HAHA got free drinks, had really late dinner at pasta. but great fun :D

if only sch`s like this EVERYDAY. haha xue and i would gladly go to sch EVERYDAY ! :DD

that`s it fr me td !
BYE

Labels: giodarno walk, school, starbucks

jolenekoh(:

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don`t always think that you are right.
i`m freaking angry. for no reason.
ARGH !

sch reopens in another 6 1/2 hr for me, yet i`m still here blogging. ARGH !

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i so wanna see you ):

Labels: upset

jolenekoh(:

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Monday, January 01, 2007

imagine spending the first day of 2007 hugging a toilet bowl. AHHHHH ! the feeling is terrible ! vomitted during work laaaa. now the money that i would have is all gone ):

now fish porridge is like the best food ard. sigh i want all the good food !
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ytd`s countdown was okayy. alright. just that city hall is FREAKING PACKED ! hang out with rah and her friends till like 4.30am before i reached hme. squeezing in a car with bout 7 people and listening to interesting and funny stories. had fun (: so no worries rah. heh.

okay i need to rest now.
cheers to everyone !
HAPPY 2007 !

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jolenekoh(:

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