i know lah, i know lah,
i'm just the shit cleaner mah.
i'm the toilet paper mah.
shit work let me do.
do alr no 'thank you's.
nvm it's ok. give me all this for what?
stop sending the emails lah.
stop calling me lah.
you think i like it ah?
ungrateful people.
once help is given, you close your eyes.
when you need help, you look for the sai kang king.
finish alr, you just slap your buttocks and say goodbye.
you think what?
i'm your slave ah?
IN YOUR NEXT LIFETIME LAAAA.
whatever okay?
I AM DAMN FREAKING PISSED OFFFFFF!!
scarifice so much for what?
do so many things for what?
i'm already keeping my cool ok?
if i don't know anything about it THEN DON'T FREAKING SEND ME EMAILS CAN?!
go find other substitutes can?
you think i'm the best choice so?
YOUR ACTIONS SPEAK OTHERWISE!
ACTIONS SPEAK BLOODY LOUDER THAN WORDS.
I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU GONNA SAY NEXT.
EVERYONE HAS A TEMPER.
EVERYONE HAS A LIMIT.
SO SHUT UP!
JUST LET ME GET THOSE FREAKING WORDS OUT!
BUT FREAKING AMAZINGLY I STILL FEEL THE SAME AFTER TYPING ALL THIS. SO CAN YOU FREAKING IMAGINE THE AMOUNT OF HURT YOU HURLED AT ME?!
to think i trust that you trusted me.
FINE! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!
YOU BETTER FREAKING STOP PUSHING ME AROUND AND START WORKING YOUR ASS OFF FOR SOMETHING YOU SHOULD BE DOING FOR!
seriously lah, you've changed okay.
i don't know what the hell happened, cos you changed FOR THE WORSE. so WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP!
sigh, i can't control your life. you shall see for yourself what you have done.
maybe i'll leave and not come back. at least things will change? for the better or worse? i don't know. but i guess my presence doesn't make much of an impact since it seems like i'm not needed? aiya it's ok lah, you got so many people to help you. or maybe 'help' you lah.
you will see at the end of the day, who are the real ones who will stand by you.
jolenekoh(:
shouldn't have
how i wish i don't have to come back t singapore. HA
trying to be strong when i am not.
lifeless
emotionless
jolenekoh(:
vienna videos
taking a long break from projs from just nw till now, i decided to watch the videos charlene sent me. orchestra performance at musikverin.
DAMN, i'm damn proud to say that we really worked hard for this trip man, esp the strings.
THEIR BOWINGS!
sweeeeeeeeeeeet!
so together!
i totally love the last past of underworld. when the strings' bowings were damn vigorous LOL but damn together! LOL
i can't help but keep re-watching it lol
i'm missing viennnnnna :D
jolenekoh(:
lies?
sometimes you realise what you hear may not be the truth.
disappointed. i really don't know how to react :/
stressed? stressed? stressed? bahhhhhhhhh
I'M CRAVING FOR LAKSA NOW!
:D
just let me be. i know i'm packed with many tasks, but i just wanna enjoy lifewithyou
a secret that mustn't be let out.
jolenekoh(:
ENTRE PROJ SUCKS! BIG TIME!
omg la! it's like alr 4.34AM in the morning, YES MORNING! WHAT THE CRAP and i just completed the website from where my dear friend left off.
grrrrrrrrrrr entre like totally suck big time? so many projs to do!!
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i wanna cry cry cry alr!
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MUMMMMYYYYYYY
another 6 more hours and i need to be off to school alr ):
i think i can only sleep 3 or 4 hours td, again ):
my post is filled with ):
and ):
and ):
and ):
forever ):
lemme countdown ):
.friday, 250708, entre presentation
.monday, 280708, MCE presentation
.friday, 010808, ROM presentation
.friday, 010808, NAFA test [WTH]
.monday, 040808, HHO presentation
.saturday, 090808, SEFM hands-on assignment
.monday, 180808, MCE semestral exam
.wednesday, 200808, HHO semestral exam
.thursday, 210808, ROM semestral exam
I SO WANNA SLEEP CAN?! I SO WANNA PLAY AND REST AND RELAX CAN?! my friend's msn nick is 'wake me up when AUGUST ends.' SO TRUE!
BYE )):
script time
p.s. staring at the laptop screen for such long hours has made my eyes teary and tired. now my laptop has been like running for hours and i pray it won't start burning soon! if it burns, I'LL BURN THE WHOLE SCHOOL DOWN! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
jolenekoh(:
memories
wehhhhhhhhhh you have to bring home a different girl every year during your birthday is it? zzz i don't know what else t say :/
jolenekoh(:
random post
oh welllllllllllllllllllllll, i hope that year 3 academic year will end well and end sooon! as for now, we still have an overload of projects. it doesn't seem to reduce! goodness, i haven't finish my parts ):
i don't know why, but suddenly after the trip, i felt a sense of.. calmness, a sense.. of purity! till td, after making so many detours, i still managed to kept to my promise to God, although, yeah detours :/
heeee everything just disappeared from my mind, my brain. and all the matters that i'm focused now is school work, band and how to manage my time to make myself free-er LOL
i'm glad! I'M REALLY GLAD! :D
and i think i'm hooked back onto blogging. guess it was livejournal that turned me off from blogging? hhahah anw i don't know why shutterfly can't seem to be able to upload my photos!!! zzz
oh ya, i've got a piece of shocking news!
my PRIMARY school friend is getting ENGAGED! like goodness!
my mum told me about it cause she heard from my other classmate's mum. and i was like damn shocked! i thought my mum was kidding you know. she wasn't shocked at allllll! but okay la, one thing is cause the guy is about 5 years older than her i think.
but omg shocking!
hahahah back to projs. dinner out soooooooon! :DD
BYE
jolenekoh(:
Summa Cum Laude International Youth Music Festival, Vienna
yupp, this post is dedicated to the trip!
but let me digress a little first :D
went for cellgrp meeting and pohchoo's water baptism td (saturday)! and i really felt whoooooooooooo! so loved by God! heh i miss church!
wellowship was only with 5 people, including myself, so we went somewhere comfortable and centralised. din tai fung @ raffles city! haha it was a hearty meal and, yeah i enjoyed wellowship
:D
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wehhhhh, i haven't update on vienna trip. i'm kinda lazy t do so actually. well, all in all, i enjoyed myself, though when we were at vienna, we didn't had time to shop cos of the competition and celebration rehearsals. lucky we had time in saluzburg!
alright, i guess i've finally decided to post up everything at one go LOL initially i wanted to post a few pics only, but why not just do everything?! lol
past few days i was too lazy to do so, that's why this post came a little overdue LOL *caution: highly overloaded with pictures! read the words toooooo laaaa! :D
btw, captions are all under the photos so, don't get the wrong captions for the wrong photos!
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NYPSO at Singapore Changi Airport, waiting to depart! we were trying to take a proper group photo haha 
efore we board the plane. at the "tunnel" to the plane.JPG)
on the flight t London!!!
at the london airport, T3, after touchdown.the london airport staff didn't let us take photos of the airport, but i guess, we still secretly took some! LOL
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whoooooo, part of the band with edelwise! 
while waiting for our turn to check through the transit "customs". 
at the transit area! flutes plus oboes!
while waiting for the airport to "flash" our gate number at the screen. bahhhhhhhhh they took just a long time to show and open the gate! 
cute toddler we met at the transit area
FINALLY! we reached vienna! and yupp! we got down the plane by that staircase. haha first time in my life! i guess it's because the airport ain't big? or maybe because it's alr late at night?
this is our room for one night at the Euro Hotel. yupp short isn't it? apparently we were told that it's the vienna airport hotel but it was still quite a distance fr the airport LOL. the next day we moved to another hotel, called Academia Hotel, which was quite eeeeeerie :/strange things happened when we were staying at Academia Hotel. brrrrrrr the thought of it, makes me don't wanna think about it HAHAA i preferred the first hotel to the second one!
before we went down for breakfast. i kinda love my hair that day LOL.JPG)
my first breakfast at vienna! we had the same kind of breakfast for the next 6 to 7 days -.-
a horse carriage! yeah, they still use this kinda transport device! but it was more of a tourist attraction cos i heard it's quite expensive. but oh well, it made the whole street stink of horse dung! OMG!.JPG)
wahahahahah some random signage. i actually stole this from cheryl! :/.jpg)
rehearsal for competition! at the University of Music! the strings had no rehearsals that day, so they got to have free time to walk around while we rehearsed hard!!! ):.jpg)
another rehearsal pic
buildings outside the university
buildings outside the university
gay partners at work! lol it was lunch break for the band, our first lunch in vienna.
Musikverien in the day!
random building
some kind of transport. looks like a monorail lol
another transport. i think this is more like a tourist thingy, like singapore's ducktour, hippotour kinda stuff i guess.. 
at the festival's opening ceremony! everyone was tired, some were dozing off :/ 
if i'm not wrong, this is called the St Stephen's Cathedral.
dinner time! our first dinner in vienna. lol some asian restaurant set up by a family from china. ehhhhh the food kinda suck. some chicken were not fully cooked, we could see the blood :/
and the rice was...... overcooked. got chao ta smell
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flute section! before the competition. whoooooo NERVOUS.JPG)
eugene low and i, after the competition, while waiting for others to load their instruments to the truck.. LOLOLOL
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after the competition, back at the university of music, while waiting for our workshop to start. .JPG)
flute section w mr leonard tan! 
eh han, not young anymore hor, don't make fun of me! 
uncle han (:heh! *inside joke
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NYPWO!since they like to label themselves as nypwo :/
that's us while waiting for the next music lecturer to come in.
random building 
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hahah! spot me! if you can! 
wehhhhhh handsome waiter! we were having our lunch in some restaurant after our orchestra rehearsal. yeah, that's how busy we are. NO TIME TO SHOP IN VIENNA!!!!and we thought the trombone pang-seh us for lunch so we went without them. when we return then they ask where we go! lol they were waiting for us initially!
that's alvin and me!
and this's benny and me!waiting toooo long for our food, we got bored.
next stop! some fellow's castle lol! it was an attraction and we were on some kind of a city tour. i can't rmb whose castle is it lol but mozart visited the place before! 
sar and me. i kinda like this pic. abstract! lol.JPG)
jump! yeah, my dear jiahui said i looked squashed between the guys. like wanna fly but can't fly! hahanext up: some jump shots! looks very sequential lol
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jump 5finally we managed to jump! and mr tan wasn't jumping at all -.- yeah, i'm short lol!
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jump 7 
amelia and me (:
nice scenary huh? 
the summer palace of don't know who haha .JPG)
dinner at some wine restaurant. and this the time when they annouced that NYPWO WON THE COMPETITION!!!!
after the orchestra performance at the celebration concert. having lunch while waiting for us to go in for the Gala Winners' Concert.
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during the Gala Winners' Concert (:can you see me?
Musikverien at night (:B-E-A-UTIFUL
at the Gala Winners' Dinner!this is some girl i know while waiting for our turn t perform previously at the Gala Winners' Concert. heh she's a malaysian studying at an australian school!
mr tan and the organiser of the SCL festival 
maynard, phileo, hongyee and me. yeahhhhh maynard is TALLLLL 
one of our tour guide! his name is karl. both tour guides followed us throughout the whole trip! 
next stop: Saluzburg! on our wayyyyy 
scenaries on our wayyyy 
at some garden which was supposingly a scene in the musical, Sound of Music 
that's jonathan, jason, me and zihui 
at some catholic church in saluzburg 
a view outside the church 
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we played pool at the hotel in saluzburg! oh oh oh! the hotel at saluzburg was the best out of the 3 hotels we stayed at! too bad we were only there for about 2 nights. lol 
at the bus stop opposite our hotel the next morning. we were waiting for bus 4 to go to the town area to SHOP!!!:D
that's us on the bus! 
some random dude that we bought things from at the town area.
this's the guy who did the art work! .JPG)
outside saluzburg's supermart LOL 
our last night at saluzburg! before that we had a performance at the catholic church mentioned previously. it was a kinda music festival to thank God for our talents..jpg)
wahhhhhhhhhhh B-E-A-UTIFUL scenary taken from our hotel window!! 
on the way back to vienna to catch our flight ): 
while waiting at london for all our luggages and instruments.yeah that marks about the end of the trip. everyone's missing austria! the life there seems so great! but i guess it's partly because we knew that we will come back and suffer with tons of projects and mountains of work that's why we were all sad to leave.
but i guess, it's okay!
at least we experienced the life there! wheeeeeeeeee and best of all, we may get to go WMC next year, even for the yr 3s! go as alumnus loh! save money now! :D
we really had lots of fun although some times there are some crop ups here and there. but overall, yeah! fun!
imagine you get the chance t go to vienna while our school mates are mugging in schooool! but well of cos, aft we gave back, we kinda suffered? with all the work overloading nad overflowing over our heads lol
i freaking got freaked out by my PEM pleaseeeeeeeeee. he told my grp mates that he will be asking only ME questions during our monday presentation's Q&A session. mannnnnnnnn he said he wanted to test our grp's coordination while i was away. in the end, he only asked some of us qns -.- but, thank God for that!
okayyy, it's like late, or is it early? lol!
4.56am in the morning! i gotta slp and wake up early to do projs again!
and tri reminded me tht i've yet to post my entry on Singapore Flyer that happened before i flew to vienna lol! next time next time then post!
p.s. many other photos of the trip will be posted to my shutterfly asap! i've still got a lot of photos with other people! i took pictures with the coach drivers who made me look super duper like a hobbit between them! LOLOLOL
watch out for my shutterfly!!!
the link can be found at the right column of my blog :D
BYE.
i had great fun and i'm missing austria! i wanna go back to Saluzburg!
jolenekoh(: