i've got a lot of matters bottled up.
i've got many things i wanna tell you.
my confidant, where are you?
desperate, for a pair of comfortable ears.
i thought i found.
but the ears seem to be starting to run away.
santa, can you visit my place this christmas?
Lord, thank You for being my pillar.
Lord, thank You for being my tissue.
Lord, thank You for being my strength.
Lord, thank You, for i am able to say "i'm strong" after every fall.
i'm staying strong. my faith will overcome.
jolenekoh(:
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
it's the time of the year again! and this christmas would be something quieter for me i guess. cellgroup christmas party was GREAT.
&&& on 24th, near midnight, i finally met MR SANJAY in !@#$%^ freaking years! wahahhahaha
moive, alvin and the chipmunks, and
catching up was great. so many things to talk about but there Wasn't enough time cause he had to catch the last train home. you know, cab fares are hiking like nobody's business. i totally hate it cause it used to be my fave mode of transport with mr astro boy.
yeah christmas started with quite a high note. so let the day end happily too.
service ltr, and i'm gonna queue with pc. i've found my ministry adam! LOL it's the queuing ministry! hahah if only there is such a ministry HAHAHA (:
so i think i gotta sleep soon cause it's alr 3.54am!!!!!!! OMGOMGOMGOMG! i didn't realise!
BYE.
& MERRY CHRISTMAS ONCE AGAIN!
jolenekoh(:
moving on
i wanna fly away from here.
to London, to Switzerland, to New York, to Australia, to Canada, to Paris, to Japan, to Korea, to Venice, to Hawaii, to Russia, to Europe, to Rome, to Italy, to Taiwan, to Hong Kong, and back to London again.
i wanna see the world with you.
if loving you is so difficult, i rather had not loved.
you came and knocked on my door thrice. will there be a fourth? i cried my heart out when u disappeared suddenly. the way you left, taught me how to lean on God. i thought that it wouldn't hurt as much, but it really did pierce my heart, right through. the promises you gave were left empty.
you said you wanna bring me to Switzerland,
you said you wanna eat big toast with me,
you said you wanted to watch the TV with me,
you said many things,
but you left,
quietly.
i don't know why i'm typing everything down here, i didn't want the world to know everything. i didn't let anyone knew, except my closest pals. maybe it's cause i wanna leave you now. it's time to move on.
i suddenly thought of you just now. i guess it was all a dream after all. it was just a joke, maybe.
now that i've moved on, i hope that your image will disappear from my heart and mind.
the moments were a miracle. threee times, it's okay. let there be no fourth.
i cried so hard, asking God for a direction. He assured me and i promised Him.
let God (:
jolenekoh(:
there's an ambulance zooming past my housing estate now. i wonder where it's rushing to.
pre-christmas preparation
busybusybusy. it's the time of the year to spread God's love!
yeah and so we did today, to a group of commandos at their camp. we caroled, our zone. it was an interesting experience and yeah, it was fun (:
as for the rest of the week, it would be meet-ups and christmas shopping. i've yet to clear all. and frankly speaking, it's my first time doing an ACTUAL christmas shopping trip. haha past years, it went by with countdowns and dinners, less of those gift exchange events. this year there's more.
not that i'm whining, but there ain't enough time!
projects, planning of the party, meetups, purchasing of materials and preparation and many many many more stuff to cover!
i hadn't been able to spend happy hours with CliqueIts and GUAs. most of my time were spent in projects, preparation, and caroling. well, ok caroling didn't take up a lot of my time, but i had to miss the BBQ with CliqueIts due to caroling pract.
ok at least i spent time with E420 during camp BreakAWAY and especially trish and thad at this moment. LOL both preparation and caroling involved the three of us.
at least i can spend time with four of the CliqueIts tmr noon and hopefully tmr night i can join my GUAs after christmas shopping with pc and trish ((:
alright, my eyes itchy now. i better finish up the mystery shopping form and be off to bed soon!
HAVE A MERRRRRRRY and kiddy CHRISTMASSSS!
:D
jolenekoh(:
the heart hurts badly
jolenekoh(:
camp BREAKAWAY
just received a sms from pauline and i was thinking, aren't you supposed to be sleeping?! and she said, they were woken up suddenly to play game! HAHAi gotta admit it, you are better than him, many many times.
ahhhhh i think i'm missing out quite a lot man! but i'm having mixed feelings about tmr! ok i don't know why. but i actually can't really wait for tmr either.you were there just when i needed help. i hope i can be there for you too.
and i haven't pack my stuff yet :/ you guided me through things that were an obstacle to me. although at times i find myself being a nuisance, i hoped you didn't mind.
tmr tmr tmr tmr tmr. what can i expect from tmr? i just hope i will have great fun, away from all the troubles and stupid happenings. i just wanna let loose. i just wanna have fun. i just wanna enjoy.i just wanna see you (: and i just wanna say, i miss you.
BYE! you are like my guardian angel. and i pray that it will never be impossible. i can promise you that i won't make you sad. i can promise you that i'll do my best. but will you give me the chance to promise? let's pray.
jolenekoh(:
sometimes i just wanna shout I'VE HAD ENOUGH! YOU CAN JUST SHUT UP FOREVER IF YOU WANT. I DON'T GIVE A DAMN BOUT YOU AT ALL.
you're just being ridiculous okay? wake up your idea! how old are you alr? you think you're still 5 YEARS OLD?
i've had enough. have you seen the tears shed in the night cause of your stupid actions? no, i bet you haven't. cause you only saw yours. you're just being selfish here. WAKE UP YOUR IDEA.
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i wanna scream! this is getting no where! i keep telling myself i can't give up just yet. but i'm going to give way soon.
wake up your idea!
jolenekoh(:
random entry
dear RAH asked me to update my blog when she was online. haha doubt she can see this post until tmr or mon i guess.
well, i don't know what to update about, rah! update about what?
projects?
band practs?
phone calls?
gossips?
happy chilling hours?
happy moments?
exciting moments?
happy until like mad moments?
LOL yes i can say i experienced all these in, a day. HAHA but that's so random.
ok, i chatted with 老师 just now on msn. he cheated! he recorded his voice to talk to me instead of typing! HAHA in the end i took quite a while just to reply to him.
:/
ok i'm beat,
after facing the laptop for a long while.
BYE.
jolenekoh(:
sometimes,
i feel that you know me best. that you can handle my problems and i well. but maybe deep down, you are made this way. that you treat everyone like this and that even maybe, you can't tolerate my nonsense and i anymore.
i know "myself" too well.
is it good or bad?
are we alike?
santa, can you make my wish come true?
keep on talking, i wanna help you too.
jolenekoh(:
blogthings
saw this on andrew's blog, so i decided to do as well before i go on with my reports. LOL
| Your Brain is 67% Female, 33% Male |
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| What Your Soul Really Looks Like |
 You are a very grounded, responsible, and realistic person. People may not want to hear the truth from you, but they're going to get it. You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you. Your near future is likely to be filled with great successes and accomplishments. You just need to figure out how to get there. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust. |
| Your Hidden Talent |
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interesting..
jolenekoh(:
a trying period
Dear Lord, please help us get over it. Amen
jolenekoh(:
posts posts posts! haha
gonna post 2 entries. so after reading this entry, please scroll downnnnn. this entry is the latest one according to the date of the event!
:D
MALAYSIA! truly asia
woooohooooo. E420 went to malaysia today!
although the day didn't start off quite well, but the end was
SUPERBLY GREAT!
:D
first up, the customs of course! haha then it was the shopping centre! city square i think
:/ i don't reallly know the name. anw we had lunch there, shopped around. nothing much actually. like SG loh HAHA
oh, we watched Enchanted! HAHAH we laughed like mad. haha crazy cartoon-ised comedy
blah blah blah. let's skip to DINNER! haha
dinner was at tamah sentosa, 大马小饭中心. i told mama when i reached home that i went there for dinner. she got a shocked man, cause she say that there always a lot of pickpockets or robberies one.
:/
but we're still safe and sound lah, back in SG alr. haha phewww
anw we had 麦片虾, 鹿肉炒姜葱, 福容蛋, 铁板豆腐, sambal kang kong, sambal sotong, and sambal stingray! hahaha a lot of food, but it was only RM$17 per person!
CHEAP! CHEAP! CHEAP!
hahahaha
had fun totally man. my best laugh in the second half of the year.
:D
and of course, in the midst of all fun and laughter, thank God that we are safe and sound (:
let's go again! HAHA
jolenekoh(: