one word.
exhausted.
i feel like sleeping.
maybe forever.
jolenekoh(:
running away,
locking myself up,
pulling myself away fr the hustle and bustle of life.
who will be that someone who will care?
; alone & troubled
locking myself up,
pulling myself away fr the hustle and bustle of life.
who will be that someone who will care?
; alone & troubled
jolenekoh(:
and the streets are yet again,empty.
jolenekoh(:
oh well, i guess everyone puts on a mask.
that includes YOU.
it`s just a facade.
so disappointed.
whatever.
i`m just venting my anger.
jolenekoh(:
elmo`s cute !
and this is hilarious.
and it can make me laugh !
jolenekoh(:
throw me on the streets,
and i`ll tell you
i
jolenekoh(:
you could lose anything in a second.
treasure.
treasure.
jolenekoh(:
oscar the grouch and his "scram" dustbin.
he never said anything to his dustbin.
thinking, he'd always be in the dustbin.
thinking, he can just throw trash in the dustbin.
thinking, the dustbin will always be around.
life plays cruel, sometimes even weird jokes on all of us.
it's like a move playing out before your very eyes.
moments wanted, moments missed.
funny how life passes us by, yet leave marks on us.
would oscar treasure the comforts of his dust bin?
jolenekoh(:
once again i stare blankly at the screen,
thinking of you.
thinking of you.
jolenekoh(:
the damn girl has the same shoes as me.
so i feel like getting a new pair of haviananas.
and i damn dislike the internet module tutor.
jolenekoh(:
never FROWN, even when you are sad.
cause you will never know who is falling in LOVE with your smile.
(:
get angry if you must,
then get over it.
don`t cry cause it is over,
smile (: cause it happened.
---
If One Day
if one day you feel like crying, call me.
i don`t promise that i will make you laugh,
but i can cry with you.
if one day you want to run away,
don`t be afraid to call me.
i don`t promise to ask you to stop,
but i can run with you.
if one day you don`t want to listen to anyone, call me.
i promise to be there for you.
and i promise to be very quiet.
but if one day you call, and there is no answer,
come fast to see me.
perhaps i need you (:
jolenekoh(:
in sch now. and as usual, on a monday morning,
i`m having the internet module lesson.
and i so dread it. she`s so boring !
& we`re going to have an internet quiz ltr on.
ok and now she asks us to take out our notes.
and no one is responding.
or rather, responding SLOWLY.
early morning lessons are so draggy.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
gonna read up for the quiz now.
jolenekoh(:
i`m so freakingg boredd now.
and yes, cause of the internet module,
i revised just now. HA
oh well, i haven`t started on the other tutorials.
and i can jolly well admit that
i`m still in the holidays mood.
so i wonder how i`ll survive this sem.
wish me luck !
(:
i suddenly feel like.. working. HAHA
jolenekoh(:
i feel so shallow.
and i really wonder,
how many percent of the things that we`ve done is actually correct.
we may all think that what WE are doing is right,
while the others are wrong.
likewise, the others will think what they are doing is right,
while we are wrong.
so what is this ?!
can we all just stop all the stupid commotions we have ard our life ?
all those you-will-never-know-who`s-right commotions.
STOP IT !
cause it`s making everyone tired.
cause it`s making everyone look stupid.
whatever.
i don`t know what got into me.
it just seems like one of those "PMS fits".
and i`m like getting one almost every other day.
wth. it definitely ain`t right.
and it doesn`t feels right at all.
i`m breaking down soon.
jolenekoh(:
the haze is making me all so moody.
and going out didn`t really made my day.
it made it worse. sigh.
i wonder who or what can make me feel better.
or when i`ll get my moods up again.
i feel so lost now.
i`ve lost all hope.
sigh.
please help to revive the happy-go-lucky me again !
someone !
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!
suddenly, i feel like playing the song I Will Survive.
but i wouldn`t like it if there is singing along with it.
BUT i guess there`ll definitely be the singing,
if the song were to be put into the repertoire.
:|
jolenekoh(:
if i were to die one day,
cry for me.
jolenekoh(:
i so hate the damn HAZE.
it`s making everyone fall sick,
including me.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
so sick !
having effective com lab lesson now.
SO BORING.
and i got grouped with marcus and
get it ?
i bet you don`t.
HAHA back to lesson !
jolenekoh(:
let`s walk the journey together.
jolenekoh(:
so tired. and i`m having my first lesson now.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh !
i`m so gonna get puffy eyes !
haven`t been sleeping early for the past few days.
=/
the day before, my sis scolded me,
for not sleeping early and keep complaining.
):
ytd was the last day at work for the oktoberfest.
and all of us were super high !
dancing on the tables and chairs and drinking away !
i didn`t drink of cause.
beer doesn`t appeal to me ! (:
the rest of the people, both guys and girls,
were allllll drinking.
we celebrated ning and meiyi`s birthday ytd too.
and most of us were smeared with cake and cream.
ahhhhhhhh !
haha can you imagine,
SO much happened in just four days.
i guess it`s a lil` inconvenient to disclose everything here,
so if you wanna know, ask me personally.
and i`ll decide if i will tell you or not. HAHA
had loads of fun on the last four days of holidays.
at least i enjoyed myself and got paid !
for this, i have to thank JOANNE.
luckily she forced me to go work. hahahaha
and luckily i enjoyed it. LOLS.
hahah and i don`t mind going to vila`ge to work !
heh heh :D
---
so sad !
i can`t fall asleep early !
gaaaaaaaaaaaa. HELP !
and someone was being sickening last night.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..
back to listening in class !
enjoy sch everyone !
(:
jolenekoh(:
tired. just reached hme fr work.
it was fun. the closing was fun.
got to know more ppl td (:
BUT most of the ppl at work smoke ):
and it got me all stuffed up.
the air was sooooo stale !
* cough cough.
during closing td,
jerome and a guy got so drunk & high,
the guy shouted to jerome,
" IS you high ?! "
haha wrong word used !
and he shouted in front of SO many ang mohs !
ok crap.
---
no more motivations,
cause my motivation is dying.
it may end up the other way rnd.
tired of everything.
don`t wanna think anymore.
but it`s impossible.
sigh.
; killed
jolenekoh(:
we shld stop everything now.
everything that we are doing that are hurting the others.
we may find pleasure in it. or rather satisfaction.
but it`s wrong.
you may say life would be better for us,
by casting aside people that we don`t like.
BUT that doesn`t include talking bad and all.
sigh. we shld stop, shldn`t we?
cause we don`t even know exactly if it`s considered as talking bad.
WTH, i just want things to stop !
i just want a peaceful life.
maybe all our perspectives were all wrong?
sigh, confused !
jolenekoh(:
i`m tired tired tired.
both fr work and bout life.
why must things be so complicated ?
why do humans hold grudges ?
why can`t human just see for the better of the future ?
why can`t things be more simple ?
why? why? why?
sigh.
save me from here.
i need a shoulder.
someone to carry me.
motivations to get on with life.
it`s so empty now.
it`s so cold now.
it`s so scary now.
; alone
jolenekoh(:
Oktoberfest 2006
12th oct - 15th oct.
come down to china square and have some beer, and make merry !
it`s the Oktoberfest 2006 !
tickets can be bought at any sistic outlet at $33.
tickets bought at the door would be $38.
come on down and have some fun now !
:D
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td`s my first day of work down at Village (pronunced as vi-la-ge).
the place`s a lil` hard t locate. HAHA
got t meet my sis`s friends,
pihui ; priscilla ; debbie.
all fr kayaking. HAHA
had fun at work, but tiring.
i had to climb up & down,
cause debbie and i were in charged of clearing the tables on the platform.
WHAT LUCK ! so tiring ! HAHA
glenn ong`s the DJ for the Oktoberfest 2006.
saw many people going REAL high aft some rnds of beer.
all the working adults standing on the tables and chairs having fun !
you guys shld come embrace in the occasion too !
that`s bout it for work td.
tired tired tired.
tmr gotta work again !
jolenekoh(:
yupp and so i watched You, Me and Dupree td !
nice show. a lil` retarded thou. LOLS.
but the ending is nice, happy ending.
(:
and i finally ate the moo moo ice cream td !
:D
that`s all for now.
tired.
jolenekoh(:
i`m tired.
tired of everything.
why am i trying so hard,
yet to reap nothing in return ?
what are the rest doing ?!
sigh
maybe i shld take a break too.
but what will happen to the rest ?
like what trish said,
once u make a mistake, they treat you as if you killed someone.
so what if this is the first time you made a mistake ?
they don`t care !
they don`t even care how much you have done for them in the past..
what`s in their mind now is -
YOU`VE MADE A MISTAKE NOW !
sigh, that`s life. FACE IT !
---
shall not brood over ugly sad things.
I`M SO BORED AT HME !
haha so i`m gonna go watch a movie ltr !
:D
tata for now.
jolenekoh(:
woah so tired this morning !
cause hanyong & i chatted all the way till 3 plus 4 i think.
but min fell asleep HALFWAY !
grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
she`s always the first to fall. HAHA
min started sch td !
and i went to sch to acc her. haha
AND i finally got down to drawing up the lib log book.
heh heh. FINALLY, aft like bout a week.
we went to watch World Trade Center aft that !
nice show, but a lil` scary.
haha or rather nerve wrecking ?
sch`s gonna start soon for me !
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
and my sis wants me to work on thurs to sun ):
gawk ! i wanna play !!!
but i guess it`s worth the money. HAHA
ooooooh and when i was waiting for min & doing my work,
there`s this grp of malay guys who went into the toilet so many times.
and every time they came out,
one of them would go,
" who like to F*CK ?
i like to F*CK !
who want to F*CK ? "
i was like !!!! who wanna F*CK you laaaa.
i guess maybe they`re gays,
and they F*CKED in the toilet ?
EWWWWWWWWWWWW !!!
& i`m like watching this chn 8 show now.
it`s gao xiao xin ren wang.
a competition for a new "joker".
yupp, and the judges asked this qns,
" what`s the diff between huang gua & xi gua?
and how are they alike? "
SIMPLE !
huang gua is liam,
xi gua is sam ! HAHA
and both belong to the GUAs family :D
jolenekoh(:
someone`s just bringing trpuble to himself.
someone is soooo like sheena. HAHA
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beautiful sunday was cool.
haha. i like all the songs. HAHA
esp aladdin :D
and i can visualise the scenes as the song goes.
((: so nice.
& min !
your solo is nice !
(((:
before the concert :
- lunch at soup spoon at raffles city.
- shopped ard.
- got lil` hp accessories for the GUAs (:
aft the concert :
- liam`s lunch at suntec.
- window shopping at marina square.
- dinner at pizza hut !
- played pool and daytona.
- home sweet home (:
had fun td :D
jolenekoh(:
forgetful me forgot to blog bout MONDAY.
i went out with rock & pebble (rah & trish).
:D
apparently we were ALL late. HAHA
so we changed our meeting time.
trish was super hungry when we reached town.
so we went to have pastamania.
and as what trish blogged,
rah and jo were so surprised by the 30% discount for students at pastamania.
they didn`t know that we have such privileges.
wth, say until like rah and i are nerds like that. Lols
yes, pastamania has 30% discount for students,
between 2 - 5pm on weekdays.
well, 30% discount really made a big difference to our bill.
HAHA 30% u know ? that`s a lot !
and so rah, trish and i chatted for a very long time at pasta.
aft which we went to watch John Tucker Must Die.
ncie show ! haha a very girly show indeed.
but the ending is disappointing. HAHA
had fun with the girls.
and true enough, trish and i miss rah.
HAHA it had been a month or so before we met her on mon !
and choco, sandy, beth, trish & mar !
we better meet up soon before sch reopens !
((:
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i`m so angry with my parents.
why can`t they just support what i`m doing ?
this sat is my cousin`s 6th birthday.
the celebration is in the noon.
and it`s work that clashes with it,
not the band performance !
so don`t say that i`m tooooo obsess with band.
becuase it is cause of work that i can`t go.
if i don`t have work on sat noon,
i obviously will go for the celebration althou there`s orch pract in the morning.
whatever. i`m not gonna care so much anymore.
i always care bout how u guys will think.
but u guys nv seem to understand me.
and i know u guys will never read my blog,
only maybe sis would,
but whatever.
---
and i seriously don`t know what he`s thinking.
aft that lil` fight among the few of us,
he didn`t have to cast aside his responsibility.
and HELLO, there were guests ard.
ok, only one.
BUT that shldn`t be the attitude to show !
and only he thinks that we were being offensive.
crap ! HOLY CRAP !
pissed off were we.
now it`s him that`s making us wanna push him away.
and he always contradicts his own words.
just like someone who`s more "superior" than him.
are you guys alllll the same?
think before you act,
that`s my advice to all.
i did silly things too cause i didn`t think before i act.
so don`t follow my footsteps people,
that`s unless you want to be hated by people.
---
anw trish, i wouldn`t control my feelings now.
be it love ; hatred ; anger ; jealousy ; happiness ; sadness.
casue i know it`s really torturing.
haha but i`m still afraid. LOLS.
cause i know the others would not think likewise.
they will definitely have a lot to say.
so much so that they don`t understand at all.
and i`m also afraid bout getting hurt? haha
but i wouldn`t avoid, that`s for sure.
(: thanks trish.
jolenekoh(:
ok i`m so lazy to blog in full sentences,
so i`m just gonna write it out in point forms.
HAHA
WEDNESDAY
1. trip to sentosa wit GUAs.
2. sam didn`t make it cause he overslept.
3. played volley and frisbee, as what others who do too.
4. meifen got thrown into water first.
5. they nearly broke my back when they wanted to carry me into the sea.
6. met sam at harbourfront for dinner.
7. sam, mar & min came to my hse for ton over !
8. played dtx mania.
9. got crazy over it.
and i finally got to watch she`s the man !
nice show
:D
THURSDAY
1. woke up at bout 9am.
2. wash up and all.
3. took cab to sch and we were still a lil` late.
4. cleaned the band room td ! it`s so clean now (:
5. had "sectionals" with tingting.
6. loads of commotions while cleaning the room.
7. got a lil` pissed off with some people. like so wth.
8. got our band tee.
9. band was alright td (:
10. supper with the GUAs, hanyong, richard & hongghee.
11. home sweet home :D
ok i`m sooooooo tired now.
think i can just fall flat anytime.
hmms i don`t know to go for trish`s cg tmr not.
it`s like i`ve been out everyday for this week !
feel like staying hme.
but i think i may have to go sch and photocopy scores !
damn damn damn.
i shall see how.
HAHA
jolenekoh(:
haha we packed the library td !
whoohoo !
it`s so clean now.
thanks to the gr8 help from
min ; sam ; mf.
and of cause the librarians ourselves !
me ; chris ; richard.
((:
i`m feeling happy td.
:D
for no reason. LOLS
sentosa tmr !!
(((:
jolenekoh(:
because hongghee mentioned bout him watching the hk performances by pjcsb,
i was a lil` shocked. HAHA
cause i didn`t know gz would put it up on youtube !
in the end, i went to take a look.
all those memories started flowing back !
rmb how i kinda struggled for the "pom-cha-cha" part of the merry widow.
the 6.8. part. HAHA
hmms i think no one will understand.
but nvm. HAHA
all was paid off during the trip.
ahhhhhhhh !
i miss playing in pjcsb !
wait till this yr`s promos is over,
i`ll definitely go back to pj and have a look !
ms chan ! how wonderful she is.
miss her conducting, her jokes. haha.
&&& wanqi, sam, joyce, singying, sharon.
wonder how they are now.
lemme post some videos here !
pjcsb hong kong trip !
performances videos.
PJCSB - Believe
PJCSB - The Merry Widow
PJCSB - Jap Graf 6
PJCSB - Let`s Swing
haha so fun ! so many memories.
esp the toilets back in a temple in hk.
smells so
HAHA rmb how everyone wanted to puke !
i would badly want to go back to the trip again.
(((:
jolenekoh(:
HAPPY CHILDREN`S DAY !
haha my day ! LOLS.
yes, i`m still a kid, at heart !
HAHA if only i can still have all the presents i can have as a kid.
presents, anyone?
:DDDD
work was alright td.
we mentioned to close before 11pm !
joyce and boss gave me a lift to amk stat.
wahahhaha my first ride in a mini van !
mini van can be cool ok ! LOLS.
gotta go sch tmr to photocopy scores.
and aft that, i`m going out with tri & rah !
the lengendary rock, stone and pebble !
LOLS :D
too bad he didn`t come td. HAHA
would have wanted a look at him. ahahahahahahah!
i`m crapping.
jolenekoh(:
i gave in to temptation td.
feel so bad.
sigh.
and i really feel very messed up now.
so many things happening in life now.
too many to cope, too many to handle.
can we just have a lil` break from everything?
so messed up. sigh.
and i don`t know what i want now.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!
jolenekoh(: